I do not remember the details of my life very well because as a child I thaught myself a way to forget all the horrible things that were happening to me.
However, there are some adventures that you can't help but never forget. The people so fantastic that they become enfused into your entire being. Those memories locked in our hearts are the ones that will never disappear. They are the ones that make every one of us who we are.
Those are the ones that I will be sharing with you. The memories that have become who I am. I will show you a piece of me that I will cherish for as long as I still breathe.
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things happened since you dissappeared. i still don't know if i will ever see you again. i just hoped that you decide to keep your promise, even though you didn't keep your other ones.
i type this as i am in a house, not my own considering i no longer have a home. or quite literally any parents or family. i'm living with a friend although it seems more and more like i'm surrounded by strangers. i sleep on the floor. when i can sleep that is. i split with Nicole, i wanted to make sure that if i left for you and death that she wouldn't be hurt by it she had grown apart enough that it didn't bother her at all. they say i'm a wreck, i can't count the days since this has happened it hurts too much, my whole life is irreparably changed.
just that you were here one second and were gone the next, and i never got to say goodbye.
i think i saved Aime, but more and more it seems like she saved me. when you come back i'm sure it will shock you to hear that she's my love and joy in this life.
i don't know, i just read this and think that even though i love you and wish with my life that you are alive that you don't want me as part of your memories and never did. it doesn't matter i suppose, in the end i just want you to be safe and happy.
sorry that i didn't see whatever it is you were trying to tell me, i failed you and pretty much have failed everyone that ever needed me.
please come home Sahar.