I really hate stupid people. Especially stupid adults in authority. I haven't seen my boyfriend since we met in December. I miss him terribly and he tells me every day how much he misses me too. I had made plans to go see him in Ohio over spring break, my aunt had agreed to let me stay with her, and everything seemed set.
Then my parents stepped in. There was nothing i could say to convince them. It hasn't really sunk in yet just how much it breaks my heart. Maybe because it can't be broken any more. I've never had a long distance-relationship, and i have to say it's one of the more difficult things i've ever agreed to. It helps to talk to him every few days online or on the phone, and he's just recently joined Gaia as well. But nothing comes close to feeling his arms around me, holding me safe and warm forever, looking into his crystal blue eyes and seeing things i wonder if i'll ever understand. Something unconscious keeps the painful thoughts and emotion at bay, allowing me to go on with my quiet life, one day at a time.
To ease some of the longing, i distract myself (which isn't difficult) with drawing, sewing, and making amv's. I've made one so far called "24 for Diclonius", and it's been on youtube for a few days. I've also started listening to t.A.T.u, a russian duet that portrays themselves a lesbian couple confused .
 Flightless Phoenix · Wed Mar 19, 2008 @ 02:35pm · 1 Comments |
