Was a ******** waste of time.
Something I've realized by now is that Linda is getting this notion into her head that if she lives at this house, she becomes a part of this family: ******** no, b***h. You are not our family, don't ever forget that fact.
So we go, and I'm hoping Linda's too tired to come, because it was supposed to be a family barbeque. Not a 'family and Linda' barbeque. And it's not as if she helped or anything, nope. Okay, she pulled the cheesecake cupcakes out of the fridge before grandma said we should. Great job there. Yup. But otherwise she sat on her a** the whole time and did nothing.
At the barbeque I kind of just sat down and didn't talk. It was one of those gatherings where I know that no one is really going to be listening to me when I speak, so I might as well not speak at all. I tried to say something a few times, but when I could see that it was as if people were making an attempt not to listen to me, I shut up. I went up and got drinks for dad and grandma, so she wouldn't have to get up, and I also helped by grabbing the brownies, iced tea, and helping dad bring the cupcakes into DD's fridge.
Dinner was okay. It wasn't too great, after all I was sitting there trying to find things I could look at rather than have to think about things like how I was invisible the whole time, the most that happened was grandma asked dad and I to move a table and Aunt Dot gave me a hug as she left. I love Aunt Dot, she's a wonderful old woman in the family--though I've never been able to keep straight exactly how she's related. I think she's Grandma's cousin or something. Anyway, she's a wonderful woman and I love her.
But yes, there wasn't much to dinner and nothing much to talk about. When I went inside to use the bathroom I won't deny that I couldn't stop thinking about how Linda had sneered at me that no one in the family even liked me, that they didn't want to say anything to me but really only dad cared about me. I know she's full of s**t but to just hear someone say that is horribly painful. I already went through that once, and I really like dad's family, I don't want to learn that something so awful is true...
I was thankful when we left and came home.
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