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MegMeg! I'm always here for you!!! foreverrrr! And I don't lie, especially to you!!! heart
Feel better :3 heart heart heart
tons of love, jannah~ heart heart heart

meh....

If no one wants to care, MAKE THEM CARE! Pour out a lot more often, even at unexpected times. And I think about the future too much, i.e. during science class, about random things and the possibility of growing into a happy, successful person. I must say that my outlook of the future is very bleak, as I happen to be rather unsuccessful now... But I manage to get on. Anyways, this is about you, not me, so here goes.

Basically, this is exactly what the majority of gifted teens think. Normal teens don't have the brain capacity to contemplate anything, unless it is placed right in front of them and they must contemplate. Even then they do a bad job at it. At the very least I can say is that you can at least understand what has gone on with your life and what might become of it. Still, what you picture might not always happen in the future. So realize what you hope against may not always happen. That is all anyone has to hope for in this world.

As you can see, I go through something similar and often grow frustrated with my vision of the future and even what I did and what people did to me in the past. For example, I still have scars on my back from January when some football players beat me up. Thinking about what happened just clouds my judgement and, though I know this, gets me irritated. This irritation increases as I realize what made me irritated. As such, I only think about it when I must and gradually, slowly, I begin to understand that certain things happen so other things can heppen. Equivalent exchange is the true law of the world (stolen from FMA) and that is why I'm here. The scars on my back swap out for getting into CGS while so many more people were better equipped mentally than me. As such, for having a rough time pouring out your feelings, you were able to get into CGS. Such exchanges are often in the world and sometimes seem unfair or wrong. But they all even out. Trust me; I know. razz

that's not exactly it...... how i wish i could explain it!
i am frustrated i can't make you understand, sometimes i have a hard completely explaining my feelings to others!
but to your comment yes i do understand about exchange
i realize that without all the bad things that have happend to me i wouldn't not be and i would not have met some of the people in my life that have really made it worth living, Many great things have come from all the sorrow and the pain that i have experianced, unfortanitly some of the bad things are still continuing, though not as strong as they were before but enough. I cant fully take your advice because of me. At random times i feel like opening up but no one cares to listen
for instances if someone had asked me 30 min ago to pour my soul out i would have, now it has passed though..... I just wish i had someone i trusted enough listen, before i thought i did, but they didn't listen, or when they tried they didn't understand and i couldn't fully open up. I'm sure, maybe, there will be someone in the future who can fulfill my needs, but right now there is not.

Have you tried to pour out to a new person recently? A new pair of ears is always open, my friend, and mine are ready to hear your woes. As our plights sound similar (to me at least razz ) I suppose that some things could be compared and contrasted until a set conclusion is reached. Until everyone has that talk, I suppose that all of us on this earth will stand and wallow in their own self-misery and self-pity. Since we have friends, however, that self-pity, and our personal burdens, can be lessened by a significant amount. Think about it for a while and tell me if you have any ideas or thoughts that need to be cleared.

Turn your ear to the mighty call of heaven!- Zhang Jiao, Leader of the Yellow Turban Rebellion

well, glad to see i have a friend.. i am not sure how similar of troubles are, but maybe i could confide in you.... I would have to think about it. You seem eager enough to listen to my sorrow's but I don't really want to email it to you.... and i dont want the whole world to know.... maybe if there ever is time in person... i dont now thanks for attempting to help, it did a little.

aw im sorry megan cry
i think all your cgs friends [cuz i dont know the rest] love you completely!
i mean... im not really sure how deep down any of us know you, but im sure a lot of people would be willing to listen. friends stick together in the best and worst of times. i dont really have much to say... but im 100% not lying. dead serious. i hope that in a while we can all talk to each other about this kind of stuff because even i have weird dramatic and i guess advanced thoughts. its so hard to explain though... they are just there lurking in your mind. ok ok well anywho i heart ya soooooo much&& so does everyone else!