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Well, I don't know about you, but my Thanksgiving really sucked. My husband and I went to visit my family for the holiday... to make a long story short, we didn't even have turkey and dressing!!!
My twin sister and older sister, they are really something.... very DRAMATIC!
There is so much going on with those 2, and I always try to help them... to talk to them and it seems like every time I do... they are always lieing to me... They tell me one thing.. then it winds up being the opposite. I am tired of them lieing to me .. it's only hurting me.
My twin sister, she is with a guy who is old enough to be our DAD!!! I mean, I believe a person can't help who they fall in love with, but there is just something about this guy... he has been married 4 times, and has 6 kids,... he is an AA.. Alcoholic Anonymous... he is in a house for it ... to get the help.. well how did she meet him???
My older sister.. she is with an AA also... only this guy ... he is really a jerk and i hate him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He thinks he can smooth everything out. He thinks he can help others by talking to them and helping them with their problems, when he can't even help himself, nor want to... long story short... he kept getting drunk, my freakin older sister even took him to a liquor store!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She claims she loves him... bla bla bla... she has really lost her ever freaking mind!
Long story short, she has a 12 year old to take care of, she has been married before to the same type of guy... but this GUY... he tells her over and over, he only wants to be her friend, she wont have it... she goes and spends all hers and my twins money on him... she did all that before my twin could find out... now they didnt even get their bills paid, all bills are late... they keep talking about moving out away from under mom and dads feet not to mention that my brother and his wife and little girl... they all have seperate houses, but all right there close together in this spot... which is why I left home back in 2000, thank GOD!!!
Needless to say, my older sister and her guy friend, did drunks and drinking at the house, so my twin couldnt handle it and didn't go home for a couple of days, lots of things went wrong before she left though, that guy friend tryed some stuff with her, and .. well just not anything good came out of this... my older sister begged me to come and get her.. bring her up to visit with me to help her get her life back on track because her guy friend... lets call him.. Brian, got kicked out of the housing place for being an AA, because of being drunk and using drugs. So she had him with her for a week and every thing got messed up, including them .. cause they were using drugs and alcohol.
She begged me to come get her.. I live 4 and half hours away... I asked her if she was sure she wanted this, cause there is no backing out... I want to help her and am willing to cause I love her, she is like a mom to me instead of sister. My older sister and I grew closer than me and the rest of my family... it is making me cry to even write this.. but I think if i let it all out, it will help some.
Long story short, she feed me a bunch of lies, and I did everything in my powers to try to help her and get her to come with me.. she called him and he came to get her.... she left her 12 year old son with our mom and dad... she loves him and wanted to take him with her, but luckly my mom and dad has custody of him due to her last marriage.. long story!
So she left with him... I was on my way back home... guess what? I they were saying before he left, taht he is a good guy and going to get help and all this bull crap... on my way home..........I see his truck pulled in at the liqour store.............so I go in... and bust them both right there... I know it hurted them and it damn sure did me... I smiled at them... and said ya, not gonna drink and gonna get some help... what is up with this... 10 tall bottles of alcohol of all kinds of flavor crap....... My sister said.. i just dont wanna feel anything.. im hurting... just one excuse after another anything she could pull out of her butt...and he was saying.. its all hers.. she aint gonna feel nothing ... im jsut trying to help her, i aint gonna drink any... bla bla bla... I just wanted to hit both of them right there..... but i smiled... and cryed and i looked at both of them... i said... well i did all i could for you... i love you.. but i cant believe after everything we have been through, you are leaving your son for this... low life ... and being stupid and putting your son through all this hell again and yourself.. and i just left.. my heart is broke, and I dont know what else to do.
I am so scared she is gonna do something stupid like kill herself... or use drugs and drink and not wake up...etc.
I am so misrable... and worried about her son... I live so far away and told my family if they need me call me and I will be there.
As for my twin sister... she is still living at home in what use to be both of my sisters house... but her boyfriend is wanting her to move out... they havent even been together for a month yet! I got a weird feeling about this guy, but he has really been there for her... helping her and stuff... but I just dont know what to think yet... I guess it is too early and only time will tell.
Anyways, thanks for listening to my ranting.
 LanaKay · Sun Dec 02, 2007 @ 01:24pm · 2 Comments |
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