Don't know why but it really seems that the persons whom I'm always with seems to be getting intangible. I don't know why but I feel like I'm jealous, I feel that I'm already left out. With all of those whispers I just wish I can hear them. Although I'm just a simple being it really kills me that my peers are the ones who are being secretive. I'm jealous that they seem to get along quite easily unlike me. Is this because that I'm jerk? Or they just thought that I was being transgressive? But whatever their reason is, maybe I have nothing to hide to them. From the fist time I met these people, I really exposed myself to them because I was hasting to be their friends.
Maybe the reason is that I got to hasty that already I've said all I've got. I killed the suspense in friendship, no wonder they get bored at me most of the time since there's nothing to talk about. I'm done with my part I guess, I'm just waiting for my peers just to simply open up I know it's my fault that I'd exposed myself quickly but at least they should somehow open up too since I'm whole heartedly opening up. I just want to know more about them. How can I know more if they can't open up?
What's the key? Where can I find it? And How can I find it? since my peers are all locked up and wouldn't open. I really think that my friends are my greatest treasures but they are really hard to find and hard to open. Is this because they're jealous of me too? but what for? They've got the one thing I would really like to have, being approachable. I really don't consider myself a great in giving advices because the heart and the caress still lacks. There are certain instances that I really don't know what to say and I can't believe that it's getting more often.
Can't believe I'm getting too jealous over a small thing. It's just because I'm really inclined with my friends that's why over a small thing I never let it pass easily? I feel left out if my friends are like this but also I need to adjust to them too. Currently I'm thinking of some solutions I hope I can do all of these:
having a heart to heart
As much as possible I often do this to my friends just to be updated
try to understand
there are times that I shouldn't know because maybe it's better not to.
trust them
I always do but I admit that there are some instances I doubt them.
I think that these are all of my keys in order to open up my treasures in life. Maybe these are the ones that can me less jealous.
Maybe the reason is that I got to hasty that already I've said all I've got. I killed the suspense in friendship, no wonder they get bored at me most of the time since there's nothing to talk about. I'm done with my part I guess, I'm just waiting for my peers just to simply open up I know it's my fault that I'd exposed myself quickly but at least they should somehow open up too since I'm whole heartedly opening up. I just want to know more about them. How can I know more if they can't open up?
What's the key? Where can I find it? And How can I find it? since my peers are all locked up and wouldn't open. I really think that my friends are my greatest treasures but they are really hard to find and hard to open. Is this because they're jealous of me too? but what for? They've got the one thing I would really like to have, being approachable. I really don't consider myself a great in giving advices because the heart and the caress still lacks. There are certain instances that I really don't know what to say and I can't believe that it's getting more often.
Can't believe I'm getting too jealous over a small thing. It's just because I'm really inclined with my friends that's why over a small thing I never let it pass easily? I feel left out if my friends are like this but also I need to adjust to them too. Currently I'm thinking of some solutions I hope I can do all of these:
having a heart to heart
As much as possible I often do this to my friends just to be updated
try to understand
there are times that I shouldn't know because maybe it's better not to.
trust them
I always do but I admit that there are some instances I doubt them.
I think that these are all of my keys in order to open up my treasures in life. Maybe these are the ones that can me less jealous.
