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... Guilty of Manslaughter in the first degree. xd
Still up in the air about the Well. So far it seems no one misses me much, although it has only been one day. xd Of course, a part of me is whispering "don't go back before Friday, because then it'll look like you only made up to get birthday presents." Bunny and Lupi already gave me my presents, which made me happy. n.n They both made me happy. I really didn't expect presents from anyone but Bunny and maybe Blue, but MD asked what I wanted, so if he still finds me worthy of presents I might get some from him. Ah, but they're just items. I really don't care if no one else gets me presents, that's no way of proving your love. Trust me, I know. My dad thinks that buying me lots of stuff is a good way of showing his love for me, and it's not. I feel like all I get when I go visit him is another thing. Now, some of those things, like my digital camera, were damn nifty, but that still doesn't hide the fact that I don't think my dad has spent any real time with me in years. We go to movies, we go out to eat, and we make small talk like people who maybe used to be friends back in high school but haven't seen each other in too long and feel like they can somehow catch up in one afternoon with seven years of the other's life. I don't think I've ever really talked to him about anything. I talk to my mother all the time, she's who I love talking to, because she understands and listens. I can tell her practically everything, and I usually do.
Ah, well. Anyway, the main point of this post was to point out that I'm still not sure what my feelings on returning to the Well are. No one seems to miss me besides Bunny and Blue, well, no one has said. I'm not really mad at anyone. My main point of concern right now is that I haven't found any place that could adequately replace the Well as my main hang-out on Gaia. I mean, I didn't exactly join when the Well was new or anything, but it seemed in a kind of between time, so I felt like a lot of other people joined at roughly the same time or something like that. I used to wonder what made the older wishies leave, but I don't really wonder anymore. Ah, well. I'm still not sure what I'm going to do, but that little voice in my head is still whispering, "don't go back in time for your birthday!" so I might just listen to it.
We'll see.
Tohru Morisato · Tue Oct 26, 2004 @ 01:54am · 0 Comments |
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