....~ heart a love so deep heart ~ by: me
as i sit here
writting this open letter to myself
i feel your hazel eyes stareing
at me from down below.
i always knew you were troubled in the mind
but i loved you for it because you understood me
and now you selfishly took your life.
i can no longer feel the posion drip down
my lips when you kiss me.
i miss holding onto you in the darkest
hours of the night.
i know i will see you soon enough and be with
you once more...
but why did you leave me so soon?
why couldn't you have waited for me
to pull the trigger with you?
yet again i ask... why did you have
to be so selfish and take
your life and not mine?
then again maybe i am the one being
selfish because i want
you for myself....forever and always.
ill love you and continue to
love you as i walk these lonely streets.
i did not care to be ridiculed
when i was with you because
you were like me... both unconformist and unaccepted in society.
now i question who's shoulder will i cry on,
or to whom will i be able to discuss my sinister
thoughts and attempts of suicide???
you were the only reason
why my serveral attempts failed,
but it seems that i was not enough to be yours?
maybe i think to much...
all i know is that i miss you
and as much as i dred knowing your dead
i will continue to breath this intoxicated air
but soon we both know my day will come
and we will both be together and never be seperated.
it's funny, now that i've stopped visiting your body
i continue to hear your voice... you
always knew that you were
my reassurance, so i thank you but
will not forgive you... at least not yet.
~ heart ~ heart ~ heart ~ heart ~ heart ~ heart ~ heart ~ heart ~ heart ~
deprived_youth · Sat May 28, 2005 @ 05:48pm · 0 Comments |