I've been worrying about myself for the past few days. I've been questioning my abilities quite a bit. Such as talents. I look at my Deviant art account every once and awhile only to find that well, I think I suck. There is something biting at me that is driving me insane!
I feel like my rping is not as good as it could be. My stories are not as imaginative as I want them to be. My characters are lacking in some form or way. But I just can't put my finger on it.
The crowd which I try hard to please with my works is killing me with silence. I hear nothing from them, nothing. Hearing nothing is worst than hearing the worst of criticism. I feel like my friend, she always talks to me about how she is mad or sad about something. Then I give her advice as to how to diminish that feeling. But now... it is rebounding back at me.
This feeling is like my days in elementary. I was constantly tormented and drove myself to insanity, almost killed myself, several times. But soon my life took a turn for the best. But now... it is just spinning like a whirlwind without end.
I'm not sure if this might just blow over or not... I just hope to god it does. Cause I didn't like the days before... the dreadful ones which drove me to hate the world but love life so much more.
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