i'm still not the same person...most of the time i want to cry. i laugh and make happy gestures and talk, but when i'm alone i want to curl up into a little ball and cry. i want to jump in the car and drive til i gett to a place no one knows me. i want to be around people, i really do, but i don't want to be around them at the same time, you know? it's hard to explain. when i am depressed, i shut myself off if anyone is trying to get to know me, they will see something else something that is just the wall i set up...
i can't talk to him right now. i want to sit and talk to him in a liesurely manner but he doesn't understand how i am feeling at all... he always interupts, i want him to be able to understand to listen to me the way i listen to others but he just doesn't have the capacity and now i'm faced witht he fact that none of my friends can listen to me...
my depression is getting deeper by the day...
kokoro in love Community Member 
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