I want to turn mine into a happy one. If I can't accept who I am, how can I expect anyone else to, right? talk2hand
So, here's what I'm going to do. I'm revealing myself for the 'fatty' that I really am. You heard me. Yeah, I'm a big person. Whether or not my problem is 'glandular' I'm actually not entirely sure of, but I do know one thing; I'm the only one in my family who ended up like this and it's not fair, but it is the story of my life. And, if I can be comfortable in my own skin, you should be to! As you can see below...
I'm NOT butt ugly. In fact if I was thin, this is probably a face that could appear in the movies; big blue eyes (I DON'T wear make up, the stuff is evil stare ), relatively clear skin (never had a break out in my life), and thanks to orthodontics, perfect teeth. Not to mention fabulous blond hair, which you see both in this picture (though I badly need to get it re-highlited) and in the one below.
However, I do have less attractive features about myself, and as you're about to see...
That's right. It's a double chin. And I have some skin and hormonal problems related to my weight as well. Big deal. I know a lot of people have them whether they're considered obese or not. But, the fact is that it is... Or was... A big deal to me. sweatdrop
I've always been heavy, I won't lie to you. Why I turned out like this but my siblings didn't, I will probably never know. But, what I do know is this; I won't be able to do anything about my weight until I'm comfortable in my own skin. I weigh 250+ lbs., so what? It doesn't mean I'm completely helpless.
To all of you weight-challenged girls out there; there are great reasons to lose weight, don't get me wrong. But, becoming a skinny tooth pick like the girls you see in cosmopolatin ISN'T a good reason. It's superficial and makes you shallow. Regardless of weight there are people who love people for who they are. My boyfriend is a prime example (I love you Hiaki! heart ) of such quality. In fact, he is the inspiration of this journal entry because of his enormous heart and powerful words.
However, if you want to lose weight for your health, for your happiness, and because shopping makes you cry as it has done to me many times... Go for it. Don't let anyone or anything get in your way. I will try to take my own message to heart! There are better ways to snack than eating junk food! There are better ways to drown out depressing moments of your life other than eating until the endorphines in the chocolate kick in! Never give up, even if you do make mistakes; You're human, but don't allow it to happen too often or you will fail.
There is a healthy balance somewhere out there for you, and my real message is this; once you find that balance, you'll be a HELL of a lot happier than you are now.
That said, this is Rizu Komesu signing off! wink
