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 Posted: Mon Jul 16, 2007 3:47 am
I just ******** want someone to love me.
Why are all the people I talk to online nice, and they say that I'm so great, yet no one around here is like that? I've ******** up everything. I made a mistake and it was my last draw of luck I guess. It's like ever since I ******** up with Tim I ******** it all up.
I fell in love with Tommy who I can't have and hardly talk to now since he's playing internet games all the time, I got with some crazy ******** b***h and directly after some guy who talked on and on about getting married and ever since then it's been sex sex sex and (not funny) I can't get no satisfaction.
I ******** hate this! I really really just want to drop everything and run away to Oklahoma. I'm tired of being told "oh well that's irrational" and then "well you shouldn't listen to other people" and then "don't let people walk all over you" and "why don't you just lighten up?"
Because everyone is dicking me over! How wonderful is this; I work, go home and sit on my a**, work, sit on a**, work, a**, work a** I have no friends and the one's that are my friends can't put up with my damn pessimism and depression.
And then people say "just don't do anything stupid or irrational." I'M NOT ******** SUICIDAL, stfu! I want to start losing weight to feel better about myself, yet I don't because I know that will just attract more ******** who just want to use me. Locking myself up just makes me fester with the enemy.
I don't know what to ******** do anymore! gonk
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Posted: Mon Jul 16, 2007 1:33 pm
i'd say you always have us...but thats kinda part of the problem isnt it?
-hugs- sorry that the real world is s**t sad
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Posted: Mon Jul 16, 2007 2:07 pm
The~Shadow~Dancer i'd say you always have us...but thats kinda part of the problem isnt it? -hugs- sorry that the real world is s**t sad
Atleast with Tommy injured I have something to keep my mind off my shitty depression.
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Posted: Mon Jul 16, 2007 2:17 pm
yeah, guess now your just gonna be worrying too much to notice sad
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Posted: Mon Jul 16, 2007 6:41 pm
The~Shadow~Dancer yeah, guess now your just gonna be worrying too much to notice sad
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