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i was doing ok, i was fighting depression, i was nearly winning...well i thought i was winning....
I was severly depressed when my bf broke up with me, but i started getting better....as time went on.
But it seems like everytime i'm happy or i'm nearly over him.
He seems to call or do something to bring me down again.
I mean everytime he calls, i get worse.
Lately i've been holding knives so close to me.
I never used to be this bad, i used to be able to fight the temptation.
But now thoughts of suicide keep getting the better of me.
And no i am not emo...if you were thinking that..i've just had ALOT of bad stuff happen in my life.
I was severly depressed when my bf broke up with me, but i started getting better....as time went on.
But it seems like everytime i'm happy or i'm nearly over him.
He seems to call or do something to bring me down again.
I mean everytime he calls, i get worse.
Lately i've been holding knives so close to me.
I never used to be this bad, i used to be able to fight the temptation.
But now thoughts of suicide keep getting the better of me.
And no i am not emo...if you were thinking that..i've just had ALOT of bad stuff happen in my life.
I thought I was winning
i wrote this poem, the last time he played with my mind, i was really depressed..
All in a matter of days..
You tore my heart out and left it to die
All the lies..
You constantly shattered my already bleeding heart
Now all I do Is cry.
Cry for the broken promises,
Cry for the hurt,
Cry for all you did to me.
You said you loved me, but did you mean it?
You never meant it
It was another lie you told.
Don’t you feel as though it’s getting a little old.
All the games you play with my mind?
I was always there for you,
You never seemed to be there for me,
When I needed you the most..
All this hurt you left me with
Is taking it’s toll on me…
Dragging me down..
Tearing me apart..
You’re the cause of this hole in my heart.
It’s all your fault..
