Yeah, I'll most likely have to get facial reanimation surgery done on the right side of my face. That is, if we can get insurance to agree with us and we have a high enough success rate. Luckily I'm going through Children's Hospital to get it done, and they are known for doing much-needed surgery and insuring a large part of it. It's not like I don't need it or it's to be a little prettier. I was born with the whole right half of my face paralyzed, nearly blind in my right eye and completely deaf in my right ear.
To say that I got through childhood in a normal public school in the hick school of all schools in my area without being bullied and largely ostracized by my classmates and thus suffering emotional difficulties even now when the bullying has died down to almost nothing would be a lie. The truth is, I know I look different and I hate it how everyone stares, often not asking. I hate it how my peers and some adults judge me without getting to know me. They think that I am mentally handicapped often because I look different, they ask me weird questions, often talking down to me because I'm largely antisocial (mainly due to bullying). I just hate it all.
So I think that it would be good for my mental wellbeing, for while I am very self-assured and rather confident and DEFINITELY strong-willed, my face, something that doesn't even take up a large part of my body yet is looked at the most and is judged the most is the problem that somehow effects me in all other parts of life. It keeps me from being completely friendly and outgoing, for I feel like people are judging me and keeping their distance because of how I look.
However, I still need to know more about things like the success rate and about insurance, like what insurance will cover and what it won't so my parents don't have to pay a whole lot of money, as I have stated before.
Well, that sort of became a "Pour out my heart on the Internet" session for me. Don't worry, I'll stop bothering you with my problems.
