[PRP] Does this make more sense to you now? (Cicely/Tsuna)

[jinxgirl5]

Cicely stirred in her sleep, mumbling softly and wiggling deeper into the warm fur of her mate to avoid the chill wisps of autumn air that found their way into their den.

Anyone looking on on the scene would have found it completely adorable, and would absolutely not have expected it from that particular couple.

Cicely wasn't exactly known for being a sweet female. She had a temper as firey as her coat and a sharp tongue which she was not shy about sharpening on anyone who came within range, including her mate. There wasn't a whole lot of sympathy from her either. There were probably plenty of people who wondered how the heck she'd even found a mate, let alone why he stuck around. There were a few speculations about it, ranging from pity to blackmail to some kind of dark hoodoo magic.

Not that any of it bothered Cicely. She knew she wasn't going to win a popularity contest, and was fine with that. She also knew her tail of how she and Tsuna ended up together got more than a few raised eyebrows, but she still wasn't all that sure how it wound up happening like it did so she didn't blame anyone for that either. Things just seemed to work out somehow, that was all she knew.

Besides, she also knew that she wasn't a total b***h and it suited her just fine that no one knew that. Only two people in the world ever got to really experience her sweet side on the highly rare occasions when it emerged and whose opinions she gave a damn about, and one of those people was currently being used as a snuggle toy.  

[Nasaiki]

Tsuna took a deep breath and looked out from the entrance of the cave. He often took a while to go to sleep or woke up easily at the barest mention of sound. Predictably enough he had been woken some time ago.

It was fine for the most part. It gave him some time to think before Cicely woke up or one of their spawn decided to come back and visit for the day.

The thoughts right now running through his head was about his family. He hadn’t really ever introduced Cicely to his family although the children had all some how met with his annoying and interfering father. He hoped Cicely knew it wasn’t because he didn’t value her or anything stupid like that. Just more the fact he really didn’t like his family and hardly spent time with them. He knew it hurt Kito but Sitara visited enough that it would be fine. He had come back briefly and watched over his half siblings while they where bcrs but hadn’t been back more than briefly since.

His twin brother and Mother had come back as well and things seemed to be okay between the lot of them. He had hopefully scared his dad off into staying away and Hoshika and Enrique had disappeared again. Hell he had even been some what civil to Sitara. He rather liked being by himself which is why he didn’t really bother with keeping in touch, something he often got scolded for.

However he liked to wander around as a general rule and his children where all grown up. The twins off dating some other pair of twins in Lunarie. Damian was off doing what ever Damian did and Seraph was tormenting some random Daeva for the hell of it. She had predictably ended up the most like him and took to never really visiting either. He turned to the side and noticed the air seemed to be disturbing Cicely a tiny bit and used his wing to block out even more of the breeze.
 

[jinxgirl5]

Cicely made another muttering sound, turning a bit so her face was buried in Tsuna's fur.

She sat there feeling content. In front of her was her mate, laying on the ground with a fondly exasperated expression while their four children and that little Daeva child they had found crawled over him, playfully wrestling with the full-grown male whoes paws were as big as their entire bodies. Next to her was a warm, laughing presence, a vixen who was her mirror image but for her sapphire blue fur.

Suddenly the dream changed. Everyone vanished, leaving her alone in the clearing. She stood up, startled with a frantic feeling in her stomach, her heart hammering with a growing panic she didn't understand. Then with a whooshing roar the forest burst into flames. She turned and ran, ran blinded by panic and not even sure where she was going, fleeing from the flames like a herded deer and shouting for her family. Dunno she skidded to a halt at the top of a tall cliff face looking down on ocean waves crashing against its side. She shuddered tried to find a new way to go, but she was trapped by the flames. She backed up, terrified, then turned and jumped off the cliff and-

-landed in freezing water the temperature of ice. Her ruby coat tried to drag her down as she fought for her surface, feeling like her lungs were about to burst. Just when she was sure that she would drown her head broke through the water and into the air. She drew in great gasping breaths and discovered land right in front of her nose. She pulled herself out of the water, shivering, and looked around. She was in an icy wilderness, nothing but mountains, ice, and endless plains of snow. She was cold and alone, so alone...

Cicely gasped and suddenly sat up, startled from sleep. She sat there, breathing heavily as though she had just run a great distance.

((You can imagine how a nightmare like that might make her thrash around a bit in her sleep ;^^))  

[Nasaiki]

Then again last time he had seen his family the twins and Seraph had shown up again. Could he really keep on keeping Cicely from really meeting them?

Tsuna stopped his rather depressing thoughts when cicely suddenly buried her head and started mumbling into his fur. He wondered what her dreams where showing her. He hoped they were pleasant as pretty much no one was happy when they awoke from a nightmare. That and he knew he wouldn’t like it if she started thrashing around considering how close he was. However it wasn’t like he hadn’t gotten kicked before.

Unfortunately as a daeva he was an excellent warmth source during the winter and his family often scooted towards him since he would be fluffy and warm. Luckily as a daeva he was built to be rather tough, so far it seemed to be an okay dream, then all of a sudden Cicely started thrashing around and kicking tsuna’s side. He just let out the inevitable sigh and wondered if he should wake her. It would probably end up with her attacking him anyways depending on the dream but would it be nicer then letting her suffer in what ever dream was distressing her like this. Luckily however she seemed to have jolted her self awake. He watched as she started heavily breathing and thought of what he wanted to say.

“You okay? It seemed like you where having a pretty bad dream” Tsuna stated. Bad dreams where one of the only things that won against a full grown daeva, and he knew that what he was saying was pretty weak. Of course it was pretty tradition to ask the stupid questions when you knew the answer. He opened his mouth as if he was going to ask what the dream was about, but then closed it as he wouldn’t have really answered if Cicely had asked and if she felt about sharing it with him she would tell him.

Of course the wind picked up and blew another rather cold gust into the cave. Tsuna lit the flames on the side of his body that cicely wasn’t currently snuggling enough to counter the wind. Hopefully it would provide her with a bit more warmth.
 

[jinxgirl5]

Cicely shivered, both in reaction to the dream and from the draft that had worked itself into the cave. She was still in that state of minor shock from the nightmare, so much so that she didn’t even feel her customary twinge of annoyance at the weather for daring to turn cold again.

Slowly her heart rate returned back to normal and her breathing eased down as well, though it remained shaky. Finally she drew in a huge, shuddering breath of cool autumn air. “I-It was just a dream. Just a dream,” she repeated to herself in a quite whisper, hunching over so that her chin was nearly touching her chest and shivering a little once more.

It wasn’t the first time she’d had a dream like this before, but none of them had been quite so…..vivid; this one had felt so real that Cicely could feel the ghostly touch of ice and snow clinging to damp fur, the memory of the scent of ash and smoke filling her mind like it was really there.

She’d never told Tsuna what any of her nightmares had been about. As far as she was aware none had ended in anything worse than a few mutters and the occasional twitching. This was the first time she’d scared herself awake over them. And up until now she hadn’t really seen the harm in having a few bad dreams. Even if she’d really wanted to talk about them, how could she start? Confessing to some irrational fear that plagued her dreams felt like admitting some kind of critical weakness; after all, no matter how real it seemed it was all just an illusion.

And how could she, the crankiest and most close-mouthed fox ever, even begin to describe the twisted tangle of emotions that were the cause of all her fear? It was impossible.

Cicely sighed, suddenly feeling very tired but afraid to go back to sleep lest the dream pull her right back into its clutches. Maybe later she’d feel properly annoyed, and mutter about killing stupid mares of the night who dared to plague her. Nothing perked her up like annoyed, grumpy, violent muttering.  

[Nasaiki]

Tsuna titled his head to the side studying his mate… mate was such a weird word to him. When he was little he had often dreamed of having a perfectly loving and happy phim because he was going to take after his phim mother, who he hadn’t even seen at that moment.
Of course that hadn’t happened and he hadn’t ended up a phim. He wasn’t too sure when he and cicely had decided that they were mates. In fact it was almost like one day they were fighting and the next talking to her sister. However out of all the foxes he had tried to date Cicely was the one that bothered to stick around and he often had fun either bickering with her or getting themselves into ridiculous situations.
“Cicely?” he asked, letting his head stay in its tilted form; however a questioning look entered his expression. He knew he wasn’t likely to get an answer but it was often his way of saying he was there just in case the small chance she might actually need him for something.
It must have been some sort of nightmare that had awoken her, although it had been different from other nightmares, mostly because of the way she was acting waking up and she often didn’t thrash that much against him. He knew he was unlikely to hear anything about the nightmare not that there was much he could do against them whatever plagued her except for be there and offer comfort just in case it was a particularly nasty one. He didn’t speak past the initial speaking of her name knowing either she had heard it and was busy with other thoughts or her thoughts where other places and constantly trying to bring her attention to him would annoy him in the other situation.
However he was a bit conflicted towards moving towards her and trying to reassure her or just sit there hopefully radiating warmth of some kind. It would help to know what she was thinking but he also respected her wishes not to talk about it. He hated being pried for information.
She still seemed tired and he also debated against telling her she should try to go to sleep and that the nightmare was unlikely to come back now. However he was hoping she would come to that conclusion as well and talking would likely bring her to fuller wakefulness.
 

[jinxgirl5]

Subconsciously Cicely responded to the warmth radiating from her mate, wiggling a little closer until it was hard to tell where her gleaming red fur began and his glossy black ended. Just his mere presence helped to counteract the aftereffects of the nightmare, helping to calm her down. She sighed softly. Maybe it would help her to talk about it, at least just a little? If nothing else she knew that she would want to know what was plaguing her mate’s mind if he’d coming tearing up out of his sleep.

“It was stupid, really,” she mumbled softly into his fur. Part of her wondered if he could even hear her, but she didn’t really care what that part of her mind had to say. “Just….all of you were there, and suddenly everyone was gone. Then fire, and running, couldn’t breathe, then just cold and ice.”

Cicely wanted to cringe a bit, but she made herself spill out the general summary. It sounded even more pathetic to her when spoken aloud, now that she had calmed a little. An unpleasant dream to be sure, but not something that should have been worth the wake-up she’d just had! She began lightly kneading her claws against the leaf-covered stone floor, subconsciously, unable to sit still while she waited for Tsuna to scoff at her for being a big baby.  

[Nasaiki]

He moved his wings to allow her to get closer to his side. He didn’t remember her being this cuddly when they where first mates. The thought Venus and Aphrodite had corrupted her briefly entered his head, but it had began before that hadn’t it, so wouldn’t it be better to say that she had done the corrupting. Her sigh brought him back to the current situation. It was hardly the time to be thinking about such random things when he was supposed to be there as a support rock, or what ever it was called.

“I doubt it was stupid, it’s been affecting you obviously. Enough to wake you up in such a manner” He answered his full attention on her. He didn’t pretend to be an expert on understanding dreams, his strengths lying in other areas but he hardly needed that to listen to her, even if at first it was a bit hard to hear.

It wasn’t often his phim nature came out contrary to belief in fact most of the last few weeks he had been rather sadistic. Of course he blamed hanging out with his youngest daughter for that; she had a way of being exasperating like the rest of his children. “I can see where it terrified you enough to bolt you out of sleep. Loosing everyone and then drowning is never fun on top of it” He finally decided to say. He briefly wondered what was causing her to have those dreams; the fire that had gotten them together had been a while ago. Almost seemed like a lifetime if he thought about it
 

[jinxgirl5]

“Well if it’s not stupid then it’s got to be pointless then,” she said with a sigh, though her tone was not as cross as it normally would have been. She just turned her face into her mate’s side for a moment, breathing in his scent and calming herself down. Her sudden turn of snuggliness might seem odd to those her knew her. Normally it was her twin daughters that were known for being the touchy ones. They’d happened to inherit it from her, as a matter of fact; she tended to make more of an impression with her sharp tongue.

Finally she sighed and turned her face to the side so she could speak without her voice sounding muffled. “I mean what’s the point of getting scared of something I should know isn’t real. Makes me sound like some silly wench crying over nothing.” She made a face at the thought.  

[Nasaiki]

Tsuna gave a small shrug of his shoulders. “Not necessarily. You just might not realize the point yet I suppose” Tsuna replied letting out a small little yawn. He adjusted his wing over her again when she snuggled into his side. He was still getting used to affection for the most part, and cicely had picked up being more snugglish? Since his two oldest daughters where born. Normally it made him a little stiff, probably due to his more daeva blood, but it was far too much effort for said daeva blood to come out. Besides who was he to deny even a small bit of comfort if it helped Cicely in the long run.

“No makes you sound normal” Tsuna scoffed a tiny bit. “Obviously it’s enough to scare you and it shouldn’t be taken lightly. Although it was a bit silly that I just disappeared, plenty of people wouldn’t mind if that happened, hasn’t happened yet… isn’t going to happen for a long time. You aren’t getting rid of me as you well learned.” He mused.
 

[jinxgirl5]

Cicely remained still and silent, turning thoughts over in her head. Given her usually antagonistic mutterings and the dynamics between her and her mate that outsiders saw, a lot of them would be going with the literal version that she did want him to disappear. That would have earned them a derisive snort and a look like she questioned their intelligence, though she’d have never explained her reaction to anyone.

Yes, she frequently countered Tsuna’s arguments that if it hadn’t been for him she’d have died in that fire or killed herself jumping off the cliff into the ocean to save herself. She was proud and independent, of course she had to deny all of that. Even to him. But in those rare moments when she was free to be alone with her thoughts and completely honest with herself, Cicely knew he was right.

It went even further than that. If it hadn’t been for her sister she might not have even been there for him to save, for Cicely had been as reckless and temperamental as a kit as she was now. Only the need to protect her “big” sister instilled the caution in her that kept her from getting herself killed several times over.

Children… Those were something she could never have pictured herself having. Who on earth would want her as a mom? For that matter, who would want her as a mate, or even a partner for a night? She’d never been able to see it, and perhaps that was the main reason she’d been such a witch when she and Tsuna were first together; deep down, she’d been sure he’d leave her. So he saved her life, what of it? Who’d want to stick around an ungrateful harpy like her? But he’d stayed, not only stayed but fathered her children. Yes, perhaps she wasn’t cut out to be a mother and her children all seemed to inherit personality issues from their parents, but there was still that bond deep down that bound them all together.

That bond which was entirely the reason Cicely was alive today and not making old bones on the forest floor.

What would happen to her, if those bonds were suddenly wrenched away, if they did suddenly vanish like smoke on the wind?

Her body gave an involuntary shudder, though so lost in her thoughts she was that she didn’t even notice. “What the hell,” she muttered softly, though she hadn’t meant to speak aloud, trying to puzzle things out and feeling like she was only muddling them more.  

[Nasaiki]

Tsuna let her mull things over as it was quite apparently she had a lot of things on her mind. She’d get through it and he was never one to hurry others through things they needed to think about. He had enough of those own troubles as a kit. Plus he had offered help, given his own sense on what he thought. It wasn’t like there was much more he could do at the moment. He looked out to the entrance of the cave knowing that his own sleep wouldn’t be coming for a while.
He thought about her dream a bit more, although he didn’t want to analyze it too much. Obviously there had been something that had surfaced that had brought this dream up, or maybe she had been having versions for a while. It was after all the first time they talked about it. Besides the likelihood of him just being countered if he went too deep did have a chance to happen.
There was a small chance it would make her feel better, but yet at the same time he wasn’t in the mood for arguing and it didn’t really seem like it would help in the long run. However he did come back to the topic of she had been with every one and then they had vanished. Had he done something that made it seem like he was going to go away.
“And it’s not just me that you’ll have hard problems getting rid of” Tsuna spoke up again. “Our daughters are all part leeches I think” Hardly very endearing of him, but they understood he meant it fondly… most likely. It was true as well, he was used to leaving home and only visiting under extreme duress or something of like, then again his family situation was far from normal. Perhaps because she just had her sister growing up, she was unconsciously worried? He could come up with all sorts of different ideas of why the dream was appearing, such as she didn’t think anyone would be able to handle her temper or charming attitude and would flee screaming into the night. Tsuna shook his head, that was silly thought. However he did remember a conversation with his sister in law about how Cicely could be slightly under confident, and that maybe his actions in the long made her think she was leaving him.
Hardly the case, they had gone through a lot, and if he was going to leave he would have left. Hell he had even stayed after she had almost killed him due to pregnancy hormones mixed in with her own lovely temperament .
He was pulled out of his own thoughts by her shudder. However considering how lost in her own thoughts she looked, she probably wasn’t aware. He also doubted that the shiver had anything to do with the cold as he was doing a spectacular job of being a heat source.
 

[jinxgirl5]

Cicely had to chuckle at that. Her daughters certainly did seem to stick around. Even Seraph, though where she’d gotten her attitude even Cicely didn’t know. It was like she’d take Cicely and Tsuna’s temperaments, then sucked away anything the twins might have had, and molded it all into a large ball before absorbing it into the core of her personality. It was the only working theory Cicely had at the moment.

She heaved a sigh then, returning back to the thoughts that had woken her up in the first place and kept both her and her mate up now. Pesky things, thoughts. Absolutely no respect for one’s sleep.

“I dunno, I guess I just…worry...sometimes,” Cicely mumbled almost unwillingly, not sure if she wanted to reveal any weaknesses to Tsuna or if Tsuna was even in the mood for a counseling session at the moment. Given the was she felt about her own thoughts, she could hardly imagine his feelings were any more charitable.

“Mean,” she continued in an even less audible mumble, “not like there’s much about me worth sticking around for.” Did she really feel that way about herself? She must have, otherwise she wouldn’t have said it. Hadn’t she just been thinking something similar to that, after all? Geez she was such a wreck. Maybe she’d get lucky and spontaneously pass out from exhaustion, and all the mushy-feely stuff could wait until she was properly awake and more easily able to squash it like it deserved.  

[Nasaiki]

He held back a smirk at her laugh, while he was pretty fond of his children, they both knew it to be the truth, he knew it was because it annoyed him for the most part and of course fueled their need to apparently latch on more. At least the twins, and at the moment for his argument he didn’t dare bring up Damian or really seraph. Of course the whole she would do something that amused her more If it annoyed you more was definitely true. He could only speculate the next group of kids.
Yes he did occasionally entertain the idea, although until the current batch’s temperaments perhaps mellowed a bit more or they had other sources in which to torment he didn’t dare bring it up, even some times to himself.
“Yeah everyone worries, it’s perfectly natural. I mean if we had no worries then I think we would be very dull creatures. Worries show that you care for something, and caring for something while some would say was weak isn’t really a bad thing.” Tsuna responded shrugging, after all today was counseling time apparently.
“I feel insulted, there is plenty to stick around for, and after all you’re the mother of my children.” Tsuna said carefully quickly changing the evil spawn that was going to come out of his mouth into children. While it was said mostly as a joke it was still not the right moment. You are amusingly fun to argue with most of the time and unlike my annoying relatives you know when to quit. You don’t care when I decide to be utterly phim like or when I just want to be a snarky daeva. You stuck around
 

[jinxgirl5]

Cicely shrugged. “I’m used to dealing with fluffy sweet sides, thanks to having a sister to inherited all the rose petals.” She snorted delicately. “Or, if you want to go by our colors as a representative, she’s more like water while I’m all fire. Which is why when the urge to be snarky takes ahold of you it doesn’t burn me out either.”

Awake now, with the nightmare starting to fade away, and reassurances from her mate, Cicely felt her worries starting to slip away bit by bit. Helped that it sounded horrid outside and she was warm and snuggly practically burrowed in the fur of a Daeva.

“Silly for worrying,” she repeated with a sigh, giving a brief stretch. “Bet you never have worries like that.” She looked up at him and smirked a little. “Far too sensible to let the boogeyman get inside your head.”