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the strangeness Chieftain Twilight Leeches in my peaches Chieftain Twilight Leeches in my peaches I think I may have just reflected myself onto you by mistake. Sorry about that. I'm afraid I don't understand? I may have assumed you went through half of the same things I did from how much devotion me and my best friend have for each other. We both have done some things to each other that weren't the greatest heh. I've lied to Shan, telling her that I killed a helpless girl in the throes of passion with her, for no other reason than "that it was easy". why did I make such a lie? mostly because I am compulsed to lie. I have a quota to feel every day. also, partly because I want to have the image of someone frightening and beastial to behold. someone to fear, to take seriously. it backfired. miserably. our relationship is still in recovery. Wait a minute.... let me get this straight. You decided to tell your girl that you killed some random b***h while you were ******** her just cause you could?
And you told her this because.... of jumbled unclear reasons.
What I get out of that is that you're a dominant kink (still in the flogging closet), and you spooked your girl cause you didn't warn her that you're into that s**t.
aye, that's about right, actually. except that she was well aware of my dominant kink, even as she's the one who owns ME. and she also was well aware of my compulsive lieing.
she also was aware of other... desires, I have... which she had been promising others of hers are contained. and in my claiming that they weren't, I ruined all of her protections of me, lost th etrust of those others, and temporarily lost her love completely. I wa sin punishment. but I have worked my way up through redemption, because I love her more than anythng. more even than the hate I used to have for myself. |
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Posted: Tue Jul 05, 2011 7:48 pm
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Chieftain Twilight the strangeness Chieftain Twilight Leeches in my peaches Chieftain Twilight Leeches in my peaches I think I may have just reflected myself onto you by mistake. Sorry about that. I'm afraid I don't understand? I may have assumed you went through half of the same things I did from how much devotion me and my best friend have for each other. We both have done some things to each other that weren't the greatest heh. I've lied to Shan, telling her that I killed a helpless girl in the throes of passion with her, for no other reason than "that it was easy". why did I make such a lie? mostly because I am compulsed to lie. I have a quota to feel every day. also, partly because I want to have the image of someone frightening and beastial to behold. someone to fear, to take seriously. it backfired. miserably. our relationship is still in recovery. Wait a minute.... let me get this straight. You decided to tell your girl that you killed some random b***h while you were ******** her just cause you could?
And you told her this because.... of jumbled unclear reasons.
What I get out of that is that you're a dominant kink (still in the flogging closet), and you spooked your girl cause you didn't warn her that you're into that s**t. aye, that's about right, actually. except that she was well aware of my dominant kink, even as she's the one who owns ME. and she also was well aware of my compulsive lieing. she also was aware of other... desires, I have... which she had been promising others of hers are contained. and in my claiming that they weren't, I ruined all of her protections of me, lost th etrust of those others, and temporarily lost her love completely. I wa sin punishment. but I have worked my way up through redemption, because I love her more than anythng. more even than the hate I used to have for myself.
Ok..... so then.... you're a switch? Cause that's the only way a true dom would be able to be a pet.
When you say desires I'm going to guess that you mean violent ones not romantic ones. And generally if a person is in pet/mistress relationship violent desires are well satisfied during playtime..... unless she finds violent play distasteful?
You're trying to keep your privacy but you're really not keepin it, so all you're really doing is sounding vague and making the conversation more confusing than it needs to be lol.
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Posted: Tue Jul 05, 2011 7:54 pm
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the strangeness Chieftain Twilight the strangeness Chieftain Twilight Leeches in my peaches I may have assumed you went through half of the same things I did from how much devotion me and my best friend have for each other. We both have done some things to each other that weren't the greatest heh. I've lied to Shan, telling her that I killed a helpless girl in the throes of passion with her, for no other reason than "that it was easy". why did I make such a lie? mostly because I am compulsed to lie. I have a quota to feel every day. also, partly because I want to have the image of someone frightening and beastial to behold. someone to fear, to take seriously. it backfired. miserably. our relationship is still in recovery. Wait a minute.... let me get this straight. You decided to tell your girl that you killed some random b***h while you were ******** her just cause you could?
And you told her this because.... of jumbled unclear reasons.
What I get out of that is that you're a dominant kink (still in the flogging closet), and you spooked your girl cause you didn't warn her that you're into that s**t. aye, that's about right, actually. except that she was well aware of my dominant kink, even as she's the one who owns ME. and she also was well aware of my compulsive lieing. she also was aware of other... desires, I have... which she had been promising others of hers are contained. and in my claiming that they weren't, I ruined all of her protections of me, lost th etrust of those others, and temporarily lost her love completely. I wa sin punishment. but I have worked my way up through redemption, because I love her more than anythng. more even than the hate I used to have for myself.
Ok..... so then.... you're a switch? Cause that's the only way a true dom would be able to be a pet.
When you say desires I'm going to guess that you mean violent ones not romantic ones. And generally if a person is in pet/mistress relationship violent desires are well satisfied during playtime..... unless she finds violent play distasteful?
You're trying to keep your privacy but you're really not keepin it, so all you're really doing is sounding vague and making the conversation more confusing than it needs to be lol.
:nods.: you've guess it all correctly.
I appologize... I can be both very awkward in these types of discussions, and also very nervous about what is and isn't my business to tell. after all, in my view, romance s generally a private matte between the involved parties. |
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Posted: Tue Jul 05, 2011 8:09 pm
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Chieftain Twilight the strangeness Chieftain Twilight the strangeness Chieftain Twilight Leeches in my peaches I may have assumed you went through half of the same things I did from how much devotion me and my best friend have for each other. We both have done some things to each other that weren't the greatest heh. I've lied to Shan, telling her that I killed a helpless girl in the throes of passion with her, for no other reason than "that it was easy". why did I make such a lie? mostly because I am compulsed to lie. I have a quota to feel every day. also, partly because I want to have the image of someone frightening and beastial to behold. someone to fear, to take seriously. it backfired. miserably. our relationship is still in recovery. Wait a minute.... let me get this straight. You decided to tell your girl that you killed some random b***h while you were ******** her just cause you could?
And you told her this because.... of jumbled unclear reasons.
What I get out of that is that you're a dominant kink (still in the flogging closet), and you spooked your girl cause you didn't warn her that you're into that s**t. aye, that's about right, actually. except that she was well aware of my dominant kink, even as she's the one who owns ME. and she also was well aware of my compulsive lieing. she also was aware of other... desires, I have... which she had been promising others of hers are contained. and in my claiming that they weren't, I ruined all of her protections of me, lost th etrust of those others, and temporarily lost her love completely. I wa sin punishment. but I have worked my way up through redemption, because I love her more than anythng. more even than the hate I used to have for myself.
Ok..... so then.... you're a switch? Cause that's the only way a true dom would be able to be a pet.
When you say desires I'm going to guess that you mean violent ones not romantic ones. And generally if a person is in pet/mistress relationship violent desires are well satisfied during playtime..... unless she finds violent play distasteful?
You're trying to keep your privacy but you're really not keepin it, so all you're really doing is sounding vague and making the conversation more confusing than it needs to be lol.
:nods.: you've guess it all correctly. I appologize... I can be both very awkward in these types of discussions, and also very nervous about what is and isn't my business to tell. after all, in my view, romance s generally a private matte between the involved parties.
Ok, cool kudos to me for good guess work. lol
Generally I agree that relationship matters should stay between the two involved, but for one, I don't know you, I don't know her, I don't know anyone that either of you know. For all intensive purposes, I don't exist to you. So discussing s**t with random people on the internet can help when you're upset or confused about a relationship.
Especially in the bdsm community, s**t gets real complicated real fast and then before you know it you're drowning and no one can understand because they don't understand the lifestyle.
But back to the convo at hand, I don't see how she could lose trust in you if she knew about the compulsive lying and she knew about the violent desires.
Although, compulsive liar or not, that was a really ******** dumb thing to say in bed if you knew she doesn't like violence.
And I'm kind of confused on a little bit here.... she doesn't like violent play, but she has violent urges that she contains.
Is it just that you're both too dominant? I have a couple that I've been friends with for a long time and they have an arrangement worked out, they are in a monogamous long term relationship with no handcuffs, no tying eachother up, nothing too extreme. They're both in to that sort of thing, but they're both doms and they are much too dominant to enjoy such treatment. |
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Posted: Tue Jul 05, 2011 8:14 pm
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the strangeness Chieftain Twilight the strangeness Chieftain Twilight the strangeness Wait a minute.... let me get this straight. You decided to tell your girl that you killed some random b***h while you were ******** her just cause you could?
And you told her this because.... of jumbled unclear reasons.
What I get out of that is that you're a dominant kink (still in the flogging closet), and you spooked your girl cause you didn't warn her that you're into that s**t. aye, that's about right, actually. except that she was well aware of my dominant kink, even as she's the one who owns ME. and she also was well aware of my compulsive lieing. she also was aware of other... desires, I have... which she had been promising others of hers are contained. and in my claiming that they weren't, I ruined all of her protections of me, lost th etrust of those others, and temporarily lost her love completely. I wa sin punishment. but I have worked my way up through redemption, because I love her more than anythng. more even than the hate I used to have for myself.
Ok..... so then.... you're a switch? Cause that's the only way a true dom would be able to be a pet.
When you say desires I'm going to guess that you mean violent ones not romantic ones. And generally if a person is in pet/mistress relationship violent desires are well satisfied during playtime..... unless she finds violent play distasteful?
You're trying to keep your privacy but you're really not keepin it, so all you're really doing is sounding vague and making the conversation more confusing than it needs to be lol.
:nods.: you've guess it all correctly. I appologize... I can be both very awkward in these types of discussions, and also very nervous about what is and isn't my business to tell. after all, in my view, romance s generally a private matte between the involved parties.
Generally I agree that relationship matters should stay between the two involved, but for one, I don't know you, I don't know her, I don't know anyone that either of you know. For all intensive purposes, I don't exist to you. So discussing s**t with random people on the internet can help when you're upset or confused about a relationship.
Especially in the bdsm community, s**t gets real complicated real fast and then before you know it you're drowning and no one can understand because they don't understand the lifestyle.
But back to the convo at hand, I don't see how she could lose trust in you if she knew about the compulsive lying and she knew about the violent desires.
Although, compulsive liar or not, that was a really ******** dumb thing to say in bed if you knew she doesn't like violence.
And I'm kind of confused on a little bit here.... she doesn't like violent play, but she has violent urges that she contains.
Is it just that you're both too dominant? I have a couple that I've been friends with for a long time and they have an arrangement worked out, they are in a monogamous long term relationship with no handcuffs, no tying eachother up, nothing too extreme. They're both in to that sort of thing, but they're both doms and they are much too dominant to enjoy such treatment.
she hates being violent. she was traumatized the last time she flogged someone, who was a masochist by the wa. bad combo. he barely mad eit out alive, and the problem being that he didn't want her to stop. she has sworn off whipping, cutting, or any other form of physical sadism.
other than that, we are also both Switches, and she does not like to be thought of as a Mistress, doesn't realy WANT to own anyone. realy, she owns me out of a sense of duty, and out of a merciful streak of hers.
I can continue in a PM.... |
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Posted: Tue Jul 05, 2011 8:27 pm
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Chieftain Twilight the strangeness Chieftain Twilight the strangeness Chieftain Twilight the strangeness Wait a minute.... let me get this straight. You decided to tell your girl that you killed some random b***h while you were ******** her just cause you could?
And you told her this because.... of jumbled unclear reasons.
What I get out of that is that you're a dominant kink (still in the flogging closet), and you spooked your girl cause you didn't warn her that you're into that s**t. aye, that's about right, actually. except that she was well aware of my dominant kink, even as she's the one who owns ME. and she also was well aware of my compulsive lieing. she also was aware of other... desires, I have... which she had been promising others of hers are contained. and in my claiming that they weren't, I ruined all of her protections of me, lost th etrust of those others, and temporarily lost her love completely. I wa sin punishment. but I have worked my way up through redemption, because I love her more than anythng. more even than the hate I used to have for myself.
Ok..... so then.... you're a switch? Cause that's the only way a true dom would be able to be a pet.
When you say desires I'm going to guess that you mean violent ones not romantic ones. And generally if a person is in pet/mistress relationship violent desires are well satisfied during playtime..... unless she finds violent play distasteful?
You're trying to keep your privacy but you're really not keepin it, so all you're really doing is sounding vague and making the conversation more confusing than it needs to be lol.
:nods.: you've guess it all correctly. I appologize... I can be both very awkward in these types of discussions, and also very nervous about what is and isn't my business to tell. after all, in my view, romance s generally a private matte between the involved parties.
Generally I agree that relationship matters should stay between the two involved, but for one, I don't know you, I don't know her, I don't know anyone that either of you know. For all intensive purposes, I don't exist to you. So discussing s**t with random people on the internet can help when you're upset or confused about a relationship.
Especially in the bdsm community, s**t gets real complicated real fast and then before you know it you're drowning and no one can understand because they don't understand the lifestyle.
But back to the convo at hand, I don't see how she could lose trust in you if she knew about the compulsive lying and she knew about the violent desires.
Although, compulsive liar or not, that was a really ******** dumb thing to say in bed if you knew she doesn't like violence.
And I'm kind of confused on a little bit here.... she doesn't like violent play, but she has violent urges that she contains.
Is it just that you're both too dominant? I have a couple that I've been friends with for a long time and they have an arrangement worked out, they are in a monogamous long term relationship with no handcuffs, no tying eachother up, nothing too extreme. They're both in to that sort of thing, but they're both doms and they are much too dominant to enjoy such treatment.she hates being violent. she was traumatized the last time she flogged someone, who was a masochist by the wa. bad combo. he barely mad eit out alive, and the problem being that he didn't want her to stop. she has sworn off whipping, cutting, or any other form of physical sadism. other than that, we are also both Switches, and she does not like to be thought of as a Mistress, doesn't realy WANT to own anyone. realy, she owns me out of a sense of duty, and out of a merciful streak of hers. I can continue in a PM....
So then you're more submissive than dominant and she's only owning you because you need a mistress in a relationship for it to feel complete?
If you want to PM for privacy you are more than welcome to message me and we'll continue this convo there.
Um.... the whole masochist being near death bit I find hard to believe. Unless she was at it for hours or it was metal tipped it's really hard to do anything other than bruise them severely. I mean did he start bleeding out on the floor or somethin? Cause that right there is when you pause, make sure they're ok, before you continue, even if they're screaming with pleasure, make them wait, watch the blood make sure it's not too much.
Bein a dom isn't about gettin lost in beating someone, it's about being in control. Not keeping track of how out of it your submissive is just seems negligent. =/ Nothing against your girl but I hope I'm wrong about that. |
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Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2011 1:57 pm
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Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2011 2:18 pm
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Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2011 8:12 pm
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Posted: Sun Jul 10, 2011 7:44 pm
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Posted: Thu Mar 29, 2012 7:54 am
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Posted: Thu Mar 29, 2012 9:38 am
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