One Moment Can Change Everything
(After the Events with Miho's mother)
One moment I'm thinking that it's about time I started to change and the next, "BOOM" my whole life has changed. You know, it's funny, all the time you hear people saying; "Change takes time" and yet, one little moment can change everything.
One day my mother is running each and every moment of my life and the next, she's completely gone. Oh, no, it's not what you're probably thinking. She didn't die or anything. My father finally put her in rehab, in Paris of all places. Since then my life has been complete chaos, since my mother isn't here I'm expected to attend all of the social engagments for the family, as well as organize some for our family to host.
I'm leading the life of a society wife and trying to attend school at the same time. Now days the only times that I see people my own age are during class and when there are children at the events. The only blessing is that lately I've begun to be able to control my panic attacks. Crowds still are far too confining for me and make me feel uncomfortable, but at least I can still breath now.
The number of unfinished sketches in my sketchbook are increasing daily. The only things that I have time for anymore are rough sketches and even those are done in my stolen moments of freetime at school. To be seen sketching at a party would be extremely improper.
Over the last several months I've been gradually decreasing the number of parties I attend. Hopefully it will be down to only a couple a month soon and I'll be able to have some time to myself again. Perhaps finish some of those drawings.
Or not. Maybe it's time I started to give them up, once I take over the family business I wont be able to draw like that anymore anyway. The changes in my new life must include some sacrifices as well.
~Tamura Miho
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