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 Posted: Mon Jul 09, 2007 7:16 am
I'm considering alternative weightloss methods. Namely Gastric Bypass or the Lapband. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm okay with my appearence, this isn't a cosmetic thing at all, but I want to be able to play with my child like a normal mom, and I don't want my child to be ashamed of me if I go to a school function or something. I've tried every diet under the sun, and before I was stuck on bedrest I exercised every day, but I still couldn't get the weight off. The only thing that worked (and only for a little while) was when I went through a soul crushing depression and didn't eat all together (minus the times that my mama occationally forced me to eat something when I visited.
I now weigh 336.7 lbs and I'm 6'0"
Okay I lied. It's partially a cosmetic thing. Just once I'd like to walk into a normal store and see a cute outfit and not have to say "I wish this were 50 sizes bigger". I'm sick of men thinking that because I'm fat I'm desperate for human contact and that I'll do anything demeaning for it. Even though there is a wedding ring on my left hand.
And speaking of that my divorce is looming ever closer on the horizion. I've been trying to give him a chance to be a good father. Then I found out his disgusting little secret, and now I just feel hollow. I've got to convince him to give up an right or claim that he has on this child so that he can never have custody, but it's proving difficult. If I ever get free of him, I will NEVER EVER be in another "romantic" relationship EVER again. My duty is to my child and that's all.
My da has been extremely ill and I've been at my parents home a lot so I'm not on as much as usual, but I should be on at least once a day agian.
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Posted: Mon Jul 09, 2007 7:55 am
Oh god.
-hugs- I don't really know what to say but I'll send you an e hug.
Atleast the cosmetic reason your getting it is more practical than 'omgz i wanna b size 0'
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Posted: Mon Jul 09, 2007 8:25 am
goodness gracious!
so much is going on for you.
i understand completely your reasoning.
dont feel bad for wanting to look good.
why? because we all want to feel pretty.
anyway
if you ever need to chat with someone
im here smile
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Posted: Mon Jul 09, 2007 1:12 pm
I think one of the best reasons is to do it for your child.
However, I have to say that I have a friend who had gasteric bypass and she is still plus sized, I doubt, especially at your height, you'll ever be able to walk into a "normal" store and find many outfits that are going to fit right. My 5'10" friend never has seemed to, and much of the stuff I find at 5'7" is still short. Although by normal I consider 8-10, you can still find plus-sized clothes up to 16 in most stores around here at least. Not trying to be negative or a downer, but I thought I'd add a touch of realism. Of course, she also eats a lot of junk food still... just smaller amounts at a time sweatdrop
But yeah, I understand both reasons, even if it was for cosmetics, as long as it's partially for your child I think it's a good thing.
*hugs* And from the begining I've thought a divorce sounds like the best thing with him, although I don't know either of you irl.
But I'll be sending good thoughts your way that everything works out! *hugs*
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