firstly, i have a friend, shes a great person, very nice. however she isnt a christian, and that worries me. shes depressed and a belive shes self harming, but im not sure. shes talked of killing herself several times, and this worries me futher. she could kill herself and not know the great glory of god. just pray that god will work in her, make her life better and obviously, make her christian. get her to talk to someone about it, even if its me. i just hate to see someone i love in such a state.
also its exam time currently, and im not focused. i already know i have totaly failed one subject, and i may be failing a more important subject, to me. and yep, many more exams coming up, and then plans of what im going to be doing in the following years. i know god has a plan for me, and if i fail that is because i was ment to. that said, i belive he wants me to gloryfy his name by doing well, and thus i as, of corse, still trying hard. but just prayers that he will give me the results he wants. and that he will guide me in my path of life.
also coping with life, anger and meaning is very big. daily i re-compose my death letter and plan ways of killing myself. i self harm, not as much as i once did, but i have a very scared arm. my family dont know and i dont what them to, it would only worry them, and the number of peiople i have heard of, even good friends, who have been on courses, seen doctors or are taking pills because of it. i dont want that. and it doesnt help, the only person that can help, that can do anything is god, not a chemical forumula crushed into a mini torpedo shape. ******** it, my familt dont even know is depressed. i dont want them to tho. as i said, it would only worry them, their poor little boy, meh. but yeah, anger, depression and meaning are all big right now, and have been for a while. so please any prayer about that is much appreciated.
i have put them in the order i feel important, so pray for them in that order
thanks
PJB21
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