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A nice pre-story:

I had balloned up to 336 in November 2k6. I left for TN and returned home this past late March. I was about 319/320. I knew full well the weight gain was my fault. I ate when stressed out, became a hermit in my room to avoid issues...and snacked heavily. This changed when I went to TN. There was nothing but healthy food, very few chances to snack, and lots of space to run around. Oh yeah...and the kitchen was in the basement vs my home kitchen being 3 feet from my door. Anyway...I came home proud of the weight loss. I'm still losing weight. Right now, I am @ 307 with a target weight of 265 then on to 145. I know it will be a struggle. I guess that's why I told my family about it.

I kinda feel like that was the biggest mistake ever. gonk Seriously. Nobody really came up to me when I came home noticing I had lost weight. When I discussed putting it on, people noticed....and still didn't say anything. So while discussing, I get more tips. Grandma suggesting I "get on the floor" so I can "knock off" certain areas. She was steadfast on this one, even though I informed her that "getting on the floor" would not cut it, and I walk at least 4 to 5 miles per day with my boyfriend around town. (seriously...I do. ) My father (bless his heart) mentioned the treadmil in our basement and trying Seattle Sutton's diet food thing. Of course I welcome the treadmil. I love those things. I haven't gotten around to using it because I usually get out with my bf and walk around! xp

So I simply give in. What's the harm in trying out diet food? Well, given that there could be zero flavor and zero taste... gonk And some of the meals may be covered in things that do not tickle my fancy. Truthfully, I felt rushed into doing it. As calm as my dad was about it, it just felt like I'd be in the wrong and betraying him if I didn't say yes. It's honestly a mixed review. The price is up there. 130 bucks. (thats 120 for the food, and an extra 10 for the delivering.) Some of the food choices are ick. They say to "eat it not for taste, but for nourishment". I can't eat something I don't like, though. Not only that, but it's strictly eating that food. (just about) And since I don't wake up to eat breakfast, there's a lot of those meals left over. It isn't all bad. Some of the food is pretty good. Like, they have a signature pizza. It's on a wheat crust with fat free cheese and spinach greens and light sauce. Some of it, however is just ICK. Like, tonight i had baked fish almondine and potato wedges with dessert. The coating on the fish tasted like bland paprika with sea salt. The potato wedges weren't even emitting a flavor. And the dessert.... crying It looked so good. It was a chocolate chip cookie. It tasted like seaweed and fiber pills! I promised my dad I would give it a try and not be a quitter. I'm trying not to cheat, but I am finding it very VERY hard to keep things strictly to this food alone! I haven't been going on wild binges; but I haven't been walking a straight line either. Looking at the 1200 calorie meals, I realized that my issue was with portion, and what was available. I personally feel like I can make healthy meals and choices for myself and ALSO have the things I like in moderation.
I tried to argue this point to my father. I suppose he thought I was just a quitter trying to edge my way outta the diet thing. He wants me on it for 6 months. I'd rather have 4 or 2. This type of diet is not for me. They say not to starve yourself and not to restrict yourself on a diet...but this is crazy! I don't feel normal eating this stuff. O_o I know my dad wants me to be well and live well and long....but this is insanity; especially with him promising not to tease me and bring good stuff in the house; but he came in today with TWO pizzas and some cola. (yeah..cant drink anything but 100% juice and water--things I drink anyway!!) I feel trapped in this thing. He actually had the nerve to ask me if I liked the food, btw..and just laughed off my comments about it and said "well, just stick it out for x amount of months.." UGH!! eek I'm wondering why I didn't put my foot down and said no I can make my own choices!! But then again, my father is the kind of guy who could sell water to a drowning man. -__-; He comes up with ideas that mean well, but make me feel so bad sometimes...and he is a GREAT dad....just not approaching this correctly. I guess he's worried about burying me first.
I'm going to try one more time with him, however. I'm sure he'll be calling me a quitter in a thousand subtle ways. Just as he subtly tried to tell me what I can and cannot have AS SOON AS I came out the place signing up! Ah well. All in all, Seattle Sutton is actually not like the other thousands of crummy diets out there. It's strict, though. It's an eye opener....

Generally, the more artificial and external and crazystuff your diet is, the less healthy you will be.

If you're getting food that has flavor, appearance, and nutritional value which are seemingly unconnected to each other, it's not healthy.

If you get food that isn't just bland or too strong, but is actively nauseating or repulsive, it might be your body saying this is not good for you.


Just because it makes you lose weight (assuming that this diet has made you lose weight), that doesn't mean it's good for your health. Food poisoning and leukemia can make you lose weight.

Confronting your father in person obviously isn't working. I'd suggest using email or notes. It's a lot easier to be brave when you're using text, and have the time to sort everythingout and lay it there.

xp I actually told my dad today, and he said "ok" in a soft voice with a strange look on his face. (Actually I mini-ranted again... sweatdrop this diet is making me feel weird, actually.) I told him just about the same thing I said here. I'm quite sure the odd face was his silent way of saying "what a quitter", but I finally told him everything. I truly DID feel deprived, though. My body just...I dunno...accepted some dishes and then with others was like "ok Veronica, stop eating this before you throw up!! gonk " I can easily plan my own diet. I'd rather do that than be restricted. Just as I told my bf today; I don't do diets, I do life.

Silly me. I kinda expected that since the food was made fresh, they wouldn't have any ick meals. But for the price of 130 a week, I'd rather not have some that are good, and then some that I pick apart. I'm about to go to a fairly expensive business school downtown....can't really afford to be wasting meals... gonk
Feeling that deprived feeling actually drove me to cheat, too. I'm a free spirit, damn it!! scream

sweatdrop Yeah...I realized a lot when I was twitching @ midnight and dying for a taste of good food. I dunno. I just thought this diet would be different. It had both positive and negatory effects. (A bit more of the negatory, obviously.) Now I know I can do this my way. I don't really have any serious health issues minus being obese. But my pressure isn't up, I don't have asthma attacks or anything, and I can easily run up and down the stairs without falling out. xp I'm not in great shape, but I ain't doin' too poorly either.