The AftermathI'm suddenly sick of the love of my life
The things I was never were real
You drove into me with a sweet verbal knife
And ******** with the way that I feel
And now you're a plague and I can't let it go
The things I have feared and forgot
It hurts me so much to love you when I know
The flowers felt you loved me not
And now on my knees I beg for forgiveness
I'm sorry I'm not what you need
Also I'm sorry I won't sit and witness
Myself turn to stone and still bleed
I'm shaking my head, never safe from the blur
My insides grow colder each day
I should have just left you to cling onto her
I should have just thrown you away
But though I sit hating what you've put me through
I know I did this to myself
So here I sit drowning in mournings of you
Deteriorating my health
A suicide's victim though always alive
Or breathing at the very least
A worthless weight bearing the hatred inside
Where madness and sarcasm feast
My insides a banquet to worms in my skin
And painfully pull me apart
And loudly you laugh as they work their way in
Their goal to devour my heart
The pain's too much, I can't deal with the sorrow
What I thought was love was a lie
The dark comes, I know I won't see tomorrow
My soul in your unfeeling eye.
Damn It
Sitting lonely in her chamber
Thinking of her past
To herself she is a danger
Nothing perfect lasts
Dazed, confused, she seeks an answer
Eaten from inside
Leeches can't correct the cancer
Trust her, cause she's tried
Sickness that we call depression
Body white and red
In her mind she bears the question:
"Why am I not dead?"
Weak and filthy, worthless coward
All she'll ever be
Knives and mirrors, hour by hour,
"Damn it, I'm still me"
Hating every single second
Wishing for a tomb
Till another slitting session
Lonely in her room
Friends can't help but care about her
Secretive and cold
Yesterday was so much louder
Jokes are getting old
All she knows, known by her solely
Lies are all she'll tell
Secrets always leak out slowly
She can keep hers well
Nothing but a worthless coward
Longing to get free
Countless crimson rains have showered
Damn it, I'm still me.
