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 Posted: Tue Apr 03, 2007 12:18 am
Okay....so where do I start.
I'll guess I should first state that..i'm "involved" with a LOT of girls. A lot of...telling girls i'm unsure i want...not really involved. but a lot of girls are saying they LOVE me. and i fell in love with this girl online that lives far away about a year ago. then she broke my heart...recently...but she's still confused. she MIGHT love me
i dont need help with that.
right now there are 2 girls that i would consider dating...and yes they both live in the same city as i do.
okay..so just so u know...i'm 16
the first girl...is kinda iffy. her name is Kim. she's 15..almost 16. i just met her. saturday night she found my myspace from one of my friends. we talked all night...then the next day she put me as her top friend and changed her name to i think i'm in love. on sunday i went to her church and we hung out afterwards. then when i get home her sister is messaging me asking me if i'm going to ask Kim out. i said i wasnt sure...i just met her. yes....Kim does like me...she told me...so no i'm not unsure about that.(just for clarification)
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so the second girl.... i think i'm starting to fall for her. i'm not sure. her name is Rachel. she has been a friend for a real long time. but not a close one. we went through times where we'd talk online a lot. but never on the phone and we never hung out. well recently i've been talking to her a lot.
and we starting talking on the phone. we were even gonna hang out but we couldnt (it was her mom's birthday i think)
so anyway....we talked for a few hours on the phone last night. we talked about cutting. we are both cutters and we had a deep conversation about it. it really made me think. then we talked about random stuff. i laughed. like i hadnt laughed in years. i needed it so bad. now...this is where it gets a little confusing.
ok...so she was telling me last night about how guys were hitting on her now that she's single. and the next morning i see this guy named matt (which is the same name as mine....which clarifies a later part of the story) anyway this guy named matt number 1 on her friends and her status is "in a relationship". so i'm like.."okay...i guess she does have a boyfriend...or maybe she left it there from her old boyfriend...she has a lot of stuff from their relationship on her myspace".....so anyway...she calls me from her friends house and her friend goes "stop calling ur boyfriend from my house" and Rachel goes "it's a different matt" so i'm thinking "so she is going out with this matt"
welll...rachel calls me later and tells me how her friend was being a douche and went on her myspace and changed matt to her top 1 and put "in a relationship" on her myspace when she wasnt....now i was confused.
so later she gets on myspace...she changes some things but "in a relationship" is still on. then matt is brought up in a conversation...and i ask "wait so r u going out with him...i'm confused"
she replies (and i quote) "its one of those confusing relationship like thingies"
so..yeah...theres that....but she has been acting a little like she has a thing for me...or maybe i'm imagining it...
the last confusing thing about her....i think she's 13....i always thought she was 15. she is in middle school (or was.....but now she's homeschooled and she might graduate with me in 2009)....but she looks really old and she is EXTREMELY mature. wayy more mature than Kim....maybe more mature than anyone i've ever met
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i don't know what to do
i'm lonely
and i think i already know who i've fallen for.
but i dont know if/how to act on it
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Posted: Tue Apr 03, 2007 8:33 pm
Seems like I'm the only one who checks daily anymore, so I might as well take a stab at it.
There's no perfect answer to your situation. You either choose one, or the other, or one then the other. I think you'll find that you'll be questioning any choice you make, but that's life. If I were in your shoes, I'd go with Kim. Reasons? You already have history with Rachel, and there's enough that you'd said that I would consider her too much trouble to try (no offense). Plus, her being in middle school isn't exactly something I would consider a "good" thing. Kim seems to be a new direction, so why not take it?
And yes, our education system needs reform. I above anyone here should know that.
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Posted: Tue Apr 03, 2007 10:46 pm
hmm i'm not sure....i'm falling more for rachel and less for kim =/
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Posted: Fri Apr 06, 2007 2:42 am
i talked to rachel
and frankly
i dont care what people think
i'm falling for her
and i think this is gonna be good
i'm gonna talk to her more about it today or saturday
and we're gonna figure out we're gonna do
i feel AWEmazing
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Posted: Sat Apr 07, 2007 3:24 pm
we are totally together i love it <3
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