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Uhm, so this is my first New Moon fanfic.
Except it's like, rewriting the whole story pretty much.
And it starts right after where Edward left Bella.
Well, read and tell how it is.
Thank you.
*PS. I LOVE JACOB!*


Chapter One: Wonderful.

It was another day in Forks, another day of misery. I had lost it all the day before, when he left me. I asked myself why he left, was I not good enough for him? I got up from my pillow and looked out that murky window. The rain never did stop. I stood over to my desk silently, barely even breathing. I had to make sure this wasn’t all a horrible nightmare. No, it was reality, and the picture he and I took together was missing.

“Damn it, I hate you.” I refrained myself from saying his name, it all hurt so much. I just wanted him back and I wanted everything to go back to normal. Leaving my bedroom, I looked back one more time at my desk. “It’s so empty..” Downstairs, I could hear Charlie getting some breakfast or so.

School was to start in two hours. All I would do was think about yesterday. How he said those last goodbyes. He doesn’t want me anymore, so I don’t want him. The bathroom was a black and white photo to me this morning. All the color was sucked out of the hallway I just came from. My hands reached for the toothpaste and squirted pretty much half the tube on my shirt.

“Great. Stupid Bella. Now your toothpaste doesn’t want you.” Once finishing with the rebellion of the toothpaste and brushing my teeth, I headed back into my room to change into school clothes. I felt like dressing up in all black today, like any other depressed person. I “attempted” to walk down the stairs, but ended up stumbling down the last two steps anyway. The door slammed as soon as I reached to bottom of the stairs, Charlie has been trying to avoid me. I walked into the kitchen to get some cereal and saw the mess. He made a chaotic wreck of the kitchen again.

After cleaning up the mess, my bowl of cereal was left on the counter as I stared out the window. It was about just twelve steps away. The couch was still that rusty bronze color is always had been. That wooden table was still in the same place, with those wood chairs surrounding it. The yellow was still painted on the kitchen drawers, in terms of a happy decoration. Nothing had changed, so why was I always feeling so.. empty? My breakfast rotted in its bowl. I just left it and slammed the door to the house. Right when I got to my truck, I remembered that I had left my keys on the kitchen counter.

“Great job again, Einstein.” I retorted to myself as I walked back into the house. “You also forgot to lock the door. Ugh.” I was disgusted with myself. After getting the keys and actually locking the front door, I headed back to my truck. Getting into the truck, I feel onto the comfy seat. I ignited the engine and that loud racket came on. Being apathetic, I just drove out the driveway and headed to school. The rain shattered against the car window and I seemed to flinch at every single drop.

Arriving at school, I parked in the lot farthest away from the school, near the tennis courts. I didn’t feel like being reminded of the place where he always parked that shiny, silver Volvo of his. I left my vehicle and walked over to a bench in the courtyard of the school. The rain was still pouring down. A few of the school’s population arrived right after me. I pretty much had no friends anymore, they all avoided me too, like Charlie. It was okay, I don’t think I need them in my life. All I need is him to come back to me.

The bell rang for the first period of the day to start. I loathed school, it was just something to take my mind off of things. I seemed to have forgotten the teacher’s name for this class–it just wasn’t important to remember things like that anymore. I just wanted to remember his scent and the way his body felt. I wished for it so much. The rest few hours of the school day went by pretty fast, guessing that it was because I was too busy reminiscing his words. Get out of my head, I hate thinking about you. It hurts. I overheard a few other girls gossiping about the Cullen’s at lunch.

“They left, didn’t they?” said the first girl.

“Yeah, they did.. that’s what I heard.” said the second girl, looking over at me. “He abandoned her. How sad.”

“Hah, yeah. That’s what she gets for trying to be popular.” They both sneered in a whispery tone as I slugged over to my old lunch table. All of them were there, Mike, Jessica, Lauren, etc. I sat down on the far end of the table, the place where I was closest to the Cullen table. I looked at the fifth seat at that table, right where he used to sit, the seat nearest to the window. I let out a sigh of exasperation and I looked down at my hands. I remembered the first day he asked me to sit with him at lunch that year ago, when I had orange juice in my hand. I didn’t drink any of it because of him. I looked up since I felt someone staring at me.

When I looked up, no one’s eyes were set on me. Maybe I was just imagining things. I made my red hair cover my right eye. My blue eyes stared at those pale, white hands and closed them shut from frustration. I got up from the table and headed out to the bathroom. I walked into one of those dirty, graffiti-covered stalls and stood on the toilet seat, crouching a bit. When I was sure no one else was in the bathroom, I got off the seat and stared into the toilet itself. I started talking to myself, I guess it was out of self-pity, since I had no friends.

“Bella, you’re so worthless, now that he doesn’t want you anymore. Why can’t I get you out of my head?.. Ed–” I stumbled on something, but there was nothing there. I hit my head against the little, filthy container. Looking down onto my crossed legs, tears slowly dripped down from my burning eyes. It hurt to cry one more tear for him. But I couldn’t help it, they just flew down naturally, as if I had been crying ever since.

Bella, calm yourself. He isn’t worth it either.. It’ll be okay. Just stop the tears, don’t prove to yourself the weaknesses you have. The comforting words I said to myself didn’t work, the tears dripped down faster than before; soon, the flood of tears seemingly became a torrent.

“Oh why, must I always be alone?” as I hiccupped along with the words of the song stuck in my head. “Leaving and Waving” By Monday in London. I bit my lip as hard as I could to stop sobbing, I couldn’t afford to let anyone hear me cry. That only proved to people how sad of a being I could become just for a boy. He wasn’t a boy though, all the other people never knew what I knew.

The bell rang for the fifth class of the day to start. I had to leave the bathroom stall, even if I didn’t want to face a world without him. So then I stood up slowly from the position I was in and opened up the bathroom stall. It turns out the girl that was whispering from before was in the bathroom too, touching up on her make-up. I ran out the bathroom quickly, to avoid any embarrassment.

The bell rang before I could make it into Biology. The teacher, whatever his name is, greeted me with a glare. I sat down at my seat, the seat that sat with no one. He came up to me and gave me a tardy slip to fill out.

“Ms. Swan, you’re tardy. Fill that out and hand it into me by the end of class or whenever you’re finished with it.” I looked down in dismay at the blanks I had to fill out. Then I let out a sigh and took out a pen. Today, we were learning about something. I wasn’t paying attention the whole class; was too busy “thinking.”

The entire second half of the school day went by sluggishly, but it ended. I headed out the back doors of the school, and ran towards my truck. The rain still hadn’t stopped ever since last night. Today was a Friday, so tomorrow was a day off school. I figured that perhaps I should go somewhere to take my mind off of things.

Later that day, the night had come and Charlie came in through the door. Dinner was already there on the table.

“Hey Bells.”

“Hey Dad. Dinner’s ready.”

“Thanks. Just let me change out of my uniform first, then let’s have a discussion as we eat.” I forced out a fake smile and agreed to his request. He got back after a few moments of time and sat down on the seat near the stairs. I brought up the conversation, since I wanted him to not suspect that I wasn’t over him yet.

“So what did you want to talk about, Dad?”

“Hm? Oh yes, about tomorrow. You want to go fishing with me and Billy? It’ll be great for you since you haven’t seen the ‘real’ light of day in a while.”

“Uhm, I have homework to do. And then there’s that test to study for in math.. and..” I thought of every excuse I could to avoid some physical activity.

“Bells.” Charlie said in a sterner tone, “Don’t think up excuses to avoid ‘living’.” What Charlie had just said really stunned me. “Come on, why don’t you go down to the beach in La Push then?” I couldn’t think of any other excuse anymore so I decided to answer.

“Fine.. I guess I have nothing else to do that’s important. Plus, I want to catch up with Jacob..” Charlie interrupted before I could finish my thought.

“Good! It’s decided. I’ll call Billy later tonight to tell him about our plans. Finally, you decide to take that load off your mind. I’ll ask Jacob if he wants to fish with us too.” Suddenly, Charlie got all excited at my acceptance of his invitation. I wonder if I’m actually fooling him this time. But it would be nice to see Jacob again.

The rest of the dinner was silent, Charlie was too excited to mention anything to ruin the moment. I was too busy thinking about the next time if he asked me again how I was going to turn him down. The thought of meeting Jacob lingered in my mind. The night came to an end and it was bedtime.

“Night, Bells.”

“Goodnight, Dad.” He closed his bedroom door with a smile and I just walked into my room calmly. I looked out the window before I went to sleep though; the night sky was steady without clouds. La Push would be a change of pace for me though, was that a good thing?


(END.)


Note: So how was it? Tell me please, New Moon fans! :] Thanks. 4laugh

Thank youuu. 4laugh I'll reread over it.

The story is Jacob with Bella. sweatdrop

Well, I found one inconsistency with NM and in the story itself. Is this taking place the day after he left her or a few weeks after? Cause she didn't go anywhere for like a week after he left, but then you said yesterday, and that people had started to avoid her like it had happened a while ago...

We all get confused every now and then, don't sweat it biggrin