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So i like this girl.

And she likes me
and she likes a guy at our school
and shes in love with a guy at her old school.
and well thats kind of over cuz they live too far away.

and well it honestly doesn't bother me because everything with it is really confusing and i don't want to make things harder on her by being jealous or pcky.
And besides, i couldn't really date her anyway because our parents wouldn't approve.
Its really frustrating. I'm like, just realizing the difficulty of liking girls. i can't brag about it in front of everyone because of all the s**t i'll get because everyone in my town is so freaking homophobic and i can't do anything in front of other people for the same reason and i can't have her as my own which means if she gets a boyfriend then our fling is kind of over and right now, all i want is her.

eh...
tis frustrating.

I know it will work itself out with her... but its the idea of knowing that i'll never actually be with her, you know?
damn.
love is hard.

yes its that and also its just my personality. i'm afraid that if i tell her exactly how i feel that she'll be scared away by it. its happened so many times with guys i had liked and i don't want to lose her as a friend even just because i say or do something thats stupid or needy or clingy or whatever.
she was holding hands today with this guy she liked and she kissed him on the cheek. and then she flirts with me and tells me all these things and ********!... its not that i'm confused its that i'm so... so sad.
i can't even find a smiley to show how absolutely sad i am.
i'm like, crying right now.

I know EXACTLY how you feel.. except I usually tend to blurt out my feelings. I feel that if they are your friends then they will understand, if they love you they will understand, and if they're someone that doesn't know you personally then well.. they will just have to get over it. But if you need anything we're here for you to at least vent out your feelings or whatever.