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 Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 4:54 pm
-sigh- After my mom caught me on the phone with my Onee-san, Aku.
She took it away, at night.
And, she went through my pictures... And they consisted of some almost-obscene things my girlfriend took, along with pictures I took for her.
Needless to say, my parents screamed at me, blocked all texting and camera on my phone, and took my phone away.
-sigh- I don't know if they know about me and her, but all I know is that they hate me beyond belief for 'exposing' myself, because 'who knows who could be seeing the pictures.'.
I feel like dying.
I really should just ******** kill myself, everything's going downhill....
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 9:50 pm
Don't kill yourself. ;-;
Please. Life is good.
I know you're having a rough time. But things will get better. Give your parents time, please. They'll forgive you, life will go back to normal. Really it will. You may not be able to see right at this moment, but it's truuuue.
So please believe me when I say that your suicide would be pointless, it's much better to live.
D:
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Posted: Wed Jan 31, 2007 3:59 am
She violated my ******** privacy!
I shut off my phone, and gave it to her to keep.
She turned it on.
And went through all of my stuff.
And she says she's allowed because she's the parent.
What the hell is that?
>< I get NO privacy whatsoever.
I swear, now they are just looking for things to scream at me for. They just want me to feel like I'm the worst ******** daughter on the planet.
-sigh- And they don't see how ******** good I am. I don't do drugs. I hang out with good people. I get relatively good grades.
But they find a few things, and scream at me for them.
You know what? My parents are dead to me, now.
I don't care about them anymore.
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Posted: Wed Jan 31, 2007 7:49 pm
Uhm. Not to be rude, but you're sounding like a bit of a brat. Do you pay for your own phone? 'Cause if not, you have no privacy, it's technically her phone, and if she wants to know who's been talking to HER daughter on the phone that she payed for, she has all right to. :/
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Posted: Wed Jan 31, 2007 9:37 pm
Moo, you are a child and whether you believe it or not it is your mothers' job to protect you. Anyways Lana is horrendous for you. So anything your moms do to prevent contact between you is a yay in my book.
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Posted: Thu Feb 01, 2007 3:59 am
BakaTulip Moo, you are a child and whether you believe it or not it is your mothers' job to protect you. Anyways Lana is horrendous for you. So anything your moms do to prevent contact between you is a yay in my book. Why the ******** do you keep posting when I do? Honestly, all you are going to do is tell me how awful she is. I don't care what you say. I love her. So stop all of this. e.e; And I could pay for my phone. Considering there's nothing to pay for. The phone came free with her plan, and I never use up my minutes.
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Posted: Thu Feb 01, 2007 5:51 am
Sweetie, it's the PLAN that actually costs the money. And since it's her plan... yeah... she can do waht she wants.
And you know why I keep posting? Because I'm trying to help you. Also I'm the admin of this guild who has been beyond patient with you. And you know what? I know I'm right. Why do I know I'm right? Cause I used to be you. I was in your shoes, granted my situation was less severe that only makes me want to help you more. And from where I am now I can admit it was the worst mistake of my life. And I have made many many mistakes.
Believe me you are not in love with her. You're in love with having a girlfriend. There is a difference. The difference is that you have a delusion of happiness. It's all in your head. And you can't see the pain that comes with it.
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Posted: Thu Feb 01, 2007 3:59 pm
Leave me alone, Tulip!
I come to you for help, and you yell at me to get away.
Why the hell can't you leave me alone now? I didn't ask for your help.
And "been beyond patient" my a**. You were cursing out my girlfriend, publically.
Oh, yes. Real patient.
Why don't you just butt out of my goddamned life, Tulip, I don't want you in it ,and you don't want to be in it.
And I'll say this for the last ******** time!
I ******** LOVE HER.
AND DON'T YOU TELL ME OTHERWISE, OKAY?!
YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M FEELING, AND HONESTLY, I DON'T GIVE A /s**t/ THAT YOU'RE STUDYING PSYCHIATRY OR WHATEVER YOU'RE DOING . I DON'T CARE.
BAN ME FOR ALL YOU LIKE, JUST LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE.
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Posted: Thu Feb 01, 2007 4:28 pm
Jesus Christ. :/ Stop acting like such a spoiled brat. You really should be more respectful of the guild owner. She cares about you, and is only looking out for your well-being. Sometimes, we don't want to hear what we really need to hear. She's older than you, don't you think she might actually know a bit more than you? Not because of what she's studying, well, yes, partially because of that, but not entirely....
Think about. She's been alive longer than you. She's has more life experience than you do. It's common sense. Christ. Just trust her when she tells you what you should know.
Don't attack her for caring. That's how you ******** push people away, and make them not care. Sometimes what is important for you to hear isn't always what you want to hear. So either stop posting rants about your problems in her guild, where she has every right to state her opinion, or learn to accept that she means well and wants you to be happy.
:/
Alright. I'm done.
Sorry, but I just can't deal with people acting like brats. It's quite annoying. XP
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Posted: Thu Feb 01, 2007 4:53 pm
Just because she ******** owns the guild doesn't mean I'm going to treat her like some beyond-holy being.
Just leave me alone, all of you.
Okay?
I was hoping someone could support me atleast a little bit.
You know, make me feel a little less worthless than I feel now?
Hah. What a joke that I thought someone would actually care about me.
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Posted: Thu Feb 01, 2007 6:23 pm
Moo. I'm not asking to be treated better than the treatment I deserve for being a decent human being. I'm pouring my heart and soul and all of my patience into helping you. I can't help you feel not worthless, not when I've been trying as hard as I am. It's in your own mind now. That's something only you can reach. You are acting like a child and I have just about had it.
I'm going to talk to Akurei tonight but I think the way you have treated me in the past and now on this board is ban worthy. I'm sorry I really wanted to let you have this place to get help, but you aren't accepting any help that isn't people bowing down to tell you that you and Lana were meant to be, that your parents are horrible and you are right. You won't get that kind of help here because that is not help. Those are lies.
You've attacked me so much when all I tried to do was help. You are the one pushing people away. You make people not care. Until you can deal with that on your own, I'm not going to let you ruin the atmosphere of the guild.
The only time I ever turned you away was after I'd been trying to help you for months and months and you still would not listen to me. I am at my breaking point and you have pushed me to it. And yeah. You know what. I did insult you girlfriend because, keep lying to yourself, she's hurting you. She is destroying you. And I'm sorry for caring and not wanting to see you spiral down.
And that "you don't know what I'm feeling." That's old news. I used to say that too. Those are the words of someone who is immature and living in their own made up bubble. I can admit to having done that. I can admit I was a b***h to my parents. Because I thought they were cruel and didn't understand my love. But they were right. Older people, as much as we would like to deny, know more than we do.
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Posted: Thu Feb 01, 2007 7:45 pm
For one, Moocat.. you're what? 15 years old? Of course your parents have a right to invade your privacy. I know the feeling of not wanting them in your space because at this age you're trying to figure out who you are and what you want out of life. But that fact that you say they hate you and that you hate them is bullshit. They are your family and they're only looking out for your safety and well being. They just want you to make good decisions for your life. It's not right of you to say such things about them even if you are angry and hurt for their distrust in you. But I think they have a right to see what you're up to so that they can keep you on a safe path. That's what parents do. And whether you believe it or not, they love you. Im sorry that being on the phone with me got you in trouble though.
As for telling us all to leave you alone, that doesn't cut it little sister. You come here looking for help.. and when we give it you never take it. You tell BT to shut up and you just ignore me. Things dont work that way and like BT and Dream said, you're just pushing people away. You cant come here expecting everyone to say "poor baby.." and sugar coating everything. You dont want us to sugar coat your talents such as singing.. Well we sure as hell are not going to sugar coat something like this, when it seems to be harmful. You've admitted before that Lana is hurting you. You even told me yesterday that you were seriously thinking about leaving her. You know deep down we are right but you want to cling on to Lana.. and I think I'll agree with BT when she says that you're in love with having a girlfriend. We've all done it though. We've all made that mistake and that's why we're trying to help you. We're trying to help you past this phase in your life. All you need to do is to stop pushing us away.
None of us want you to treat us like holy beings. We just want you to treat us with a little respect that all people older than you respect. Such as me having to show my mom respect. We have more experience in life.. and our parents have more experience than us.. ect.. that's just how it goes. If you cant understand that.. Then yes, maybe you should stop ranting here.
Maddie, You know I will always be here for you but like I said before, there is only so much that I can take... We can take. We're not going to tell you that Lana is a perfect angel and that there isn't something majorly wrong with what she's doing. You know as well as me that she's not being fair to you and other such things. Someone who is good for you doesnt pick you up and then drop you the next day and then do it over again like a roller coaster ride from hell. End of story.
Also.. I think it's time we end your cursing BT out. I've held my tongue for a while because I didn't think it was wise of her to curse about Lana but.. The fact that she wasn't making nasty comments directly at you.. makes it seem you're falsely being hostile against BT. There is no reason for you to get hostile with any of us for any reason especially if we're not directly calling you out and being rude to you. I told you to watch your attitude.. But you didn't listen. I even asked you not to post on the guild because I KNEW you two would end up getting into a fight but you didnt listen to me then either.
You never listen to me.. and I've given you plenty of chances. So Im sorry but whatever BT decides Im going to agree with her. If you're not going to be nice to people who want to help you, then you dont need to be here. Plain and simple. Sorry Maddie, but these things cant continue if you're going to be an arrogant little kid.
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