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 Posted: Mon Jan 22, 2007 5:38 am
here you can read some marvellous RP by Steal and Dooma.
have fun!
(and give me links of rp-s by them to add posts before/after those)
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Posted: Mon Jan 22, 2007 5:57 am
Steal Gackt blinks and looks around. It seemed that Hyde had taken off. He sighed and looked around. Hyde had gone away... Gackt sighed deeper and walked over to the lake listening carefully to see if he could hear a sound that would tell him where his friend was. Dooma *smiles and places Hyde on Steal's head* Hyde blinks and looks down at the human he is sitting on and waves Steal Gackt sighed and started to sing as he looked out over the water. He let his voice rise to carry over the softly lapping liquid before him. He was feeling a bit lonely and out of place lately. Hyde had made new friends and now he was alone. He knew he didn't own the other boy, so he had no right to feel bad. Dooma Hyde streached out and blinked hearing his friends voice. He bowed to the human he was using as a chiar and flew off towards the sound. He smiled. It had been a long time since he had seen his friend awake. He smield and waved, "Good morning Gackt...how are you?" Steal Gackt slowly turned his head to the sound of the other male's voice and he did a small seated bow. "Hyde... it has been a while. I am sorry. I guess I am the one that has been away. when I was sure that it had been you. I am sorry." Dooma Hyde blinked, "You seem strangly formal my friend is somethign wrong?" He smiled and moved to sit next to him. "Yes you have been sleeping in my vase for so long...I was almost afraid you were dead." he said and laughed kissing Gackt's cheek. Steal Gackt took a deep breath. "I guess I am feeling a bit formal because.. well the last time I came out I was sure that you were. Well that you were seeing someone else." He sighed. "I am not sure that.. my assumptions were true. I am happy that you let me stay in your vase, but I guess now that I need to move out." Dooma Hyde looked confused then shook his head, "No Sunako is my friend. She just made me some curry and we hang out." He tilted his head, "Why would you have to move out. I enjoy you in my vase you know that. There is no reason for you to think you need to Gackt." He was really confused why his friend was so moody today. Steal Gackt suddenly felt his stomach plummet. Hyde had been eating someone elses curry. "I should. People will get the wrong idea if I stay. They will think.. they will think we are partners." He groaned. "I want to stay, but you don't need to have me hanging around when you are trying to find someone to live with." Dooma Hyde was really confused, "What are you talking about, I am not trying to find someone else to live with, I am happy living with you Gackt. Man have you been having bad dreams in my vase or something? You and I are partners you know that." he laughed lightly trying to lighten the air. Steal Looking at Hyde, Gackt shook his head. "You never formally said we were a couple. I don't even know if you feel that way." He sighed and kicked one foot in the water. "I.. want to know that you really want me around. I want to know." He looked up at Hyde. "tell me.. please." Dooma Hyde was fully confused at how needed Gackt was suddenly being. He ran his hand threw his hair, "Gackt I love having you around. I enjoy spending time with you, I do with we could spend more time together. "And I want you around." He smiled still very confused.
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Posted: Mon Jan 22, 2007 6:05 am
Steal The words were not really all that comforting. He didn't hear what he felt the need to hear, so he assumed that they were not going to come. The words were not going to come. He just nodded a little closeing his eyes. "I see.." Dooma Hyde was trying not to get mad at his friend, "Gackt what is wrong, what do you want me to say? I enjoy your company but if you can not take me having a friend wail you are a way, nothing pyshical just having someoen to hang out with, then maybe we should not stay a couple. I mean I love you but what more do you want from me?" Steal Gackt felt the words hit him like a physical blow. He rose to his feet staggering away from Hyde. "I.. see.. I.. don't .. you don't want to be with me." He swallowed. "You... don't understand. I just wanted to hear.. to hear that you wanted me, but you. I guess you said it all didn't you. We don't belong together beause.. Because I demand too much to hear you say the words." He frowned and walked away. "Sorry for being such a burden." Dooma Hyde glared, "You jerk I did say I wanted to be with you! So I can not say it they way you want me to so I never know what to do with you, and you can not trust me enough to have a friend, fine then go ahead and just leave me again! You seem to be good at that" he looked away and walked over to his vase then lay in his vase. Steal Gackt felt the tears stinging his eyes as he ran off. It was all his fault as usual. He was a jerk. He had just wanted to hear that Hyde loved him. That he belonged with Hyde and that they were a couple. He was a jerk though, Hyde had said it all. Chokeing on a sob he raced into the thicket, finally letting tears run down his cheeks. "Im just a jerk.. a stupid jerk.. Hyde desevers the girl he was with... they will be happy." Dooma Hyde lay in his vase. He was too mad to be sad right now. Gackt did not trust him. He could not even have a friend to pass the time with wail Gackt was off doing who knows what. Did he ever question the other one's loyalty? No. He was never good with words. He could only sing and play his guitar. Maybe he should have questioned Gackt. Maybe Gackt was so upset becuae he was the one that had ran off and fooled around. He could not believe that Gackt would do this to him. Why did he always have to be the rock? Steal Gackt stumbled and tripped, finally falling into a thicket and laying there, tears blinding him. He hadn't questioned anything. He had just wanted to hear that Hyde really loved him. It was a matter of knowing that he had the right to be around. Now he felt that he had no right to be anywhere. He just had... nothing. He had left everything behind. Includeing his heart. "Idiot.. Idiot idiot... I deserve this.." He groaned and lay on the ground, half wishing an animal would come and eat him. Dooma Hyde did not leave his vase he was not going to run after Gackt this time. In his mind he was right. He did not know what Gackt was asking. If he wanted loved couldn't Gackt have just said, "I want you to love me?" He shook his head and shut his eyes. He moved out of his vase it smelt too much like Gackt and he lay on the ground near his vase. Steal Gackt knew that Hyde wasn't going to come for him. He had not come the last time he was sad either. Hyde never came for him. That should have told him something. Hyde didn't care. At least that was how he felt. Hyde didn't want him around that much. "I just take up space. Maybe he only let me be there because he didn't know the words to tell me to get lost. That has to be it." The J-rock Fae felt his wings sagging on the ground, the thin membranes getting scratched by thistle and thorns. He didn't care though. He didn't want to fly anymore. He just wanted to lay there and be eaten. Dooma Hyde cursed. "I bet Gackt is not even thinking of himself right now..." he opened his eyes, that fae was probely running around being selfish again. "Why must I always be the man?" He asked. He knew staying away or running after Gackt would be just as bad. He slamed his hand into his vase chipping the proclien and jumping up into the air. "I don't need this." he said. He was hardly even angry or sad but Gackt seemed to always draw it out in him. Gackt was always hurting the young angel, if it was not the fae feeling sorry for himself it was the fae being too need or selfish. Hyde cursed again and flew off in the dirrection Gackt had ran.
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Posted: Mon Jan 22, 2007 6:09 am
Steal Gackt crawled to his hands and knees and pushed more into the thicket. Surely there was something in there that would get rid of him and make Hyde happy. The angel wouldn't have to deal with him takeing up space then. He would be happy. The thought sent an image of Hyde into his mind. Hyde never seemed to smile when he was around. Not really. At least not all the way to the eyes. He hadn't noticed that before. Hyde didn't really seem happy with him around, and the only time he ever really noticed emotion from the other was when he was yelling at him. "He hates me.." The words came out in a shocked burst. "I'm so blind. All this time. He hates me." The fae covered his face with shakeing hands, the leather brushing his pale skin. "Oh Kami... Im such an idiot. How long have I made him deal with me...?" Dooma Hyde's eyes scaned the ground below him. Where was Gackt he really did not want to end up finding his friend dead. Who cared if he was always cuasing problem if you cared for someone it did not matter how annoying they were if they needed you you had to go to them. He caught the movement and looked at the ticket. He knew crawling around in it would make Gackt just run faster. He braced him self and drove down.
He did not make a sound as his body torw threw the throns and tangles. He main goal was to get his arms around Gackt before the body could get away. He felt the clothes under his arms and closed them around Gackt. "I do not hate you." he hissed hearing the last of the fae's complaints. Steal The words made Gackt sob harder as he struggled a bit. He started wailing a moment later, his words hard to understand as he spoke in strangled Japanese. "Hyde, I am sorry I never make you happy. I never bring a smile to your lips. All I do is make you sad. I wanted.. I just wanted once to hear that you loved me, or that you really really wanted me near. I had to hear it to know that I wasn't upsetting you, but you never want to say it to me, and I don't want to ask for the words. They aren't the same if you ask.... But in the end you told me.. you told me that..." He trembled and pulled away again, grabbing at the thorny brush. "Im not there for you enough..." He frowned, his face still moist with tears. "Im not good enough to make you happy.. and you think I don't trust you. I do more than you would ever believe. That is why your words mean so much to me... and if you really think I don't trust you, you are right. We don't belong together. Its why... Im going to leave. I'm setting you free Hyde.. to find someone that can really make you smile." Dooma Hyde glared and pulled the fae under him holding Gackt's shoulder's to the ground talking back in japanese, "Gackt I have told you I love you lots of times, every night before we feel asleep or when you would fall asleep first I would tell you I loved you, You made me smile. And I enjoy you being around. I just can't seem to make you satified. So I do not express emotion well." he was lookind down at the other under him making sure that even if Gackt struggled it would not get him free.
"I don't beg you to stay around, I know you have a life, and you have mad me happy but just becuase I spend time with someone else does not mean I love you less or that I will be happier with them, it just means that they are a friend and I like spending time with them. And you are not setting me free, why do you think running away is always how to fix problems between us! You need to help me I can not keep this relastionship going by my self I need your help!" Steal Gackt shook his head. "I dont' care if you spend time with her. How many times must I say that. I do not care. You may have a million friends. It is not about that. This is about US not anyone else. This is because.. Hyde I do not make you smile. I never see a smile upon your lips. Not one that goes past your face and to your eyes. I see fake. I see... I see nothing to make me think you are happy.. You are not happy. It is false, and so long as it is false.. so is all of this." He sighed and let hsi head fall back on the thorns under him. "I can not smile for us both. There is not enough left..." Dooma Hyde shook his head, "YOu are lieing you have seen me smile. I smile all the time with you Gackt, and it is not fake, today when I saw you again I was truely glad, I was not showing fake emotions. So they do not always reach my eyes that does not mean anything very little emotion reaches my eyes." he sighed shutting his eyes, "To me my eyes are worthless...I can not see well with them, I can't see the colors like you can or anyone else. I base on my heart and not my eyes. shall I just damage them more here on theses thorns so that they will not bother you any more? I do not need them to sing, nor play my guitar, nor to enjoy the company of my lover." He said keeping his eyes shut and looking at Gackt ignoring all the knicks and cuts all over his body nor his own holy wings and the bleedign feathers. Gackt always have to find the worse places to hide when he was depressed. Steal "No!! Kami.. No!" Gackt shook his head and tore at the thorns around Hyde, trying to protect him from them as well as he could, no longer struggling to get away. "Don't harm yourself more. I already regret that you hurt yourself coming at all. Do not harm yourself more." Gackt sagged and clenched his fists, his head bowed again in remorse. "I too must be blind, because I have eyes and I clearly do not see. I also clearly can not feel... if I keep causeing you pain." He sighed more, looking weary, drained fully. "I try so hard.. I want nothing more than to make you happy and I always feel that I fail. I clearly am not good enough.. for if I was, would I not be able to see your feelings better?" The truth finally slid from his lips. "I am clearly greedy... too greedy..." Dooma Hyde took Gackt's hands as he tried to free the feather wings from the thorns. He laced his fingers with Gackts. "Look my wings to not matter...you are harming yourself...and you are more fagile than I am sad to say...yes we are both blind just shut your eyes and try to feel me. Yes you are greedy and I am too lazy to let myself feel emotions or at least not show them as well as I should. You should not hurt yourself just becuase you feel like you are hurting me or that we do not belong. YOu should try to think things out or at elast talk to me about it...not run away. If you are greedy truely greedy you would want all my time even if I was pushing you away you would force me to stay with you and talk it out. Gackt we will only work if we talk. Our relationship is still young, we do not know how the other one works very well. And we never will unless we talk more, and spend more time together and work threw these problems, you have to let me ease into this, and I must learn how to help you better yourself. and clearly how to word things so you do not go running off an hurting yourself so. We both over reacted." he said. His wings still tangled up in the thorns.
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Posted: Mon Jan 22, 2007 6:13 am
Steal Gackt kept trying to free Hyde's wings, not careing about himself. For all his greed, he did deepy care what happened to others, to the point that he would put himself at risk to see that someone else was safe. Primarily Hyde. He whimpered and worked on the thorns, cutting himself through his gloves before he managed to yank them all away. Sadly taht was not before he scratched his own fragile wings more too. Hyde mattered.. even if the other was to tell him to leave forever, he would matter. "I will try.. but you told me.. I should leave..." Dooma Hyde growled tired of Gackt's foolish attemps and jumped up into the air pulling Gackt with him and holding the other close that the the fae would quit hurting himself, "Gackt knock it off, stop hurting yourself!" he sighed "No I said that if we could not trust each other then we might want to just spilt, that was not saying that you should leave, I never said that you should leave. I am sorry I do not say things as often as I should." He sighed his wings still had thorns in them but he would not let them near Gackt and they struggled to keep them both up in the air. Steal Gackt whimpered and tried to get near the other's wings, wanting to get all the thorns out. It couldn't feel pleasant with them there. In fact it was makeing him ache just seeing it. No.. actually he was acheing from his own wounds but his mind was telling him it was because of Hyde. "Your hurting... please let me fix it.. Please?" He looked up, a pathetic expression of pain and worry on his face. It really seemed unnatural for Gackt, but this was how he felt for Hyde. If the other boy told him to jump off a cliff, there was a very good chance that he would, just to make Hyde happy. Dooma Hyde shook his head, "I am not hurting as bad as you are....We wil fix you frist then worry about me....your body is torn up more then mine....Gackt I hate it when you run like that...I always find you worse off...I hate singin you hurt...." he held Gackt close but so that the other could not get near the blooded wings and moved back towards thier home. He could not help but thing that this was just another temporary patch on thier relationship. Steal Gackt was feeling the same as Hyde. It was like this was a hurricane. This was the calm eye of the storm, but Gackt needed to hear certain things, and Hyde couldn't say them. Plus it seemed that Hyde was not happy with his role.. which Gackt couldn't help. He wasnt the strong one.. and as such was forceing Hyde into that role. It couldn't last like that. Not with the lack of talking.. or understanding. Dooma Hyde hoovered about the small pool of water near thier bushes, "If I let you go promise you will not run away again. Gackt I do not want to have to chase you and to have you flee so egeryly from my side again." he may be strong but he did not want to have to be the oh always taking the brunt of the relationship and haveing to bare the burden and trouble and be the man all the time. Steal The fairy nodded slightly and moved to sit on teh ground, his wings hanging down. He looked at the grass and sighed. "I don't mean to run so much, but.. I hate feeling hurt. Running.. it.. makes it hurt a little less. I realize things when I am out there. Things I did wrong. So many things I do wrong. I don't mean to do so many bad things, but I always do." He sighed, and looked down. "I know that you are not the one that hurts me. I know that I hurt myself...and that is why.. its not you I am running from. Its me. I run from me, but.. I can never escape." Dooma Hyde lowered himself into to the ground and watched Gackt, "Well you should run to places you will not hurt yourself...and if you are running form your self then run into my arms, I will take care of you, and help you threw these things....I want you to feel safe and happy." he said holding his arms open a bit. Steal Gackt looked at the open arms and slowly slid so that he was leaning into them, his eyes closeing. "I don't want to be a burden. I know I already am, but I don't want to be more so. You have your own problems. I am sure I ammount to a large amount of them to. I.. hate to think I am .. causeing you stress." He swallowed. "Yet.. I guess I caused more didn't I." Through all of that, he snuck one hand up to start drawing the thorns out of Hyde's wings. Dooma Hyde shifted his wings away from Gackt, "No we take care of your wounds before mine...and yes you are a burden but one that I wish to keep around, I enjoy being with you Gackt, you are my best friend and maybe when we are older and can understand the things we do we can be boyfriends. We all have our problems and clearly I am stressing you out as well." he said, "No lets clean up your wounds." Steal Gackt blinked and pulled his hand away from the wounded wing, a look of concern still on his face. He wanted to take away Hyde's pain. He wasn't even thinking of his own. It was as Hyde mentioned again that he needed to be tended to, that he looked over his shoulder, and right though a tear in his wing. He stared at the tear a moment.... Then a moment more.... Then fainted. That was not something he expected to see, and though he wasn't hurting, it was a devistateing shock.
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Posted: Mon Jan 22, 2007 6:14 am
Dooma Hyde sighed and cuaght the other's body then lay Gackt down pulling a blanket down and resting Gackt on it wial he ended the other's wounds, "You really do a number on yourself..." he said and dressed all of Gackt's wounds even wraping the wings and the laid the other in his bed wail he washed. He looked at the torns around the trunk of his wings and winced trying to move them..he desided he would just leave them there...they hurt more to get them out then to leave them.
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