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 Posted: Sun Dec 31, 2006 2:35 pm
Okay this is mainly just me getting this off my chest so I won' think about it so much...
I love one of my friends (she's a girl obviously) and, well, I have for 7+ years...she just, makes my life...possible. Anyways, everyone says that she can't be straight, but has said herself that she would never come out even if she were to be anything other than straight; mainly because of her family. (major-ly homophobic...her father and brother)
Anyways, the last time she went to a party (involving lovely alcohol) I couldn't go, and she ended up playing Gay Chicken with my best friend. They kissed numerous times... My best friend is absolutely straight, she's just really sexual and likes to have fun, plus by that point she was pretty drunk. My friend, that I love, has been known to do this type of thing every once and a while.
Tonight, she's going to a New Years bash at the same place, plus, more alcohol! Which is wonderful for my nerves as well as her uptightness...What I would give to even touch her...
All of my friends know about me, and she continually states that I’ve come out...I think it's because she maybe thinking about coming out sometime herself. In which I would be so entirely happy, I'd probably go insane. She's just...so, beautiful! I know she likes a guy at school though...I dunno, I'm jus confused...
Even if she were to completely regret it after, and swear to our friends not to spread a word...okay, I'll finish up...
I guess, I just want some good luck...I have no idea why I posted, this has just been bouncing around in my head all day...
~Alex
PS- sorry this is basically a post about nothing...and is no help to anyone, and I'm sorry for wasting your time...this, just makes me feel better...
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Posted: Sun Dec 31, 2006 10:59 pm
Most of tonight, I was thinking of the one I love, who lives across the ocean, wishing just to hold her in my arms sweatdrop emo
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Posted: Wed Jan 03, 2007 6:19 pm
Fashion_Flaw Okay this is mainly just me getting this off my chest so I won' think about it so much... I love one of my friends (she's a girl obviously) and, well, I have for 7+ years...she just, makes my life...possible. Anyways, everyone says that she can't be straight, but has said herself that she would never come out even if she were to be anything other than straight; mainly because of her family. (major-ly homophobic...her father and brother) Anyways, the last time she went to a party (involving lovely alcohol) I couldn't go, and she ended up playing Gay Chicken with my best friend. They kissed numerous times... My best friend is absolutely straight, she's just really sexual and likes to have fun, plus by that point she was pretty drunk. My friend, that I love, has been known to do this type of thing every once and a while. Tonight, she's going to a New Years bash at the same place, plus, more alcohol! Which is wonderful for my nerves as well as her uptightness...What I would give to even touch her... All of my friends know about me, and she continually states that I’ve come out...I think it's because she maybe thinking about coming out sometime herself. In which I would be so entirely happy, I'd probably go insane. She's just...so, beautiful! I know she likes a guy at school though...I dunno, I'm jus confused... Even if she were to completely regret it after, and swear to our friends not to spread a word...okay, I'll finish up... I guess, I just want some good luck...I have no idea why I posted, this has just been bouncing around in my head all day... ~Alex PS- sorry this is basically a post about nothing...and is no help to anyone, and I'm sorry for wasting your time...this, just makes me feel better...
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Posted: Mon Jan 29, 2007 7:39 am
Well, nothing happened between us on New Years but I had a little breakdown with one of my other friends that night and she told me that my friend that I like so much had told her that she knew she wasn't straight...and apparently, she's also told them I'm cute!
I was completely blown out of my mind happy after hearing this, but nothing came of it. No difference. A couple days later, my friends had another party before school started again, and while we were talking and stuff, she wasn't giving huge hints, but I was trying to notice anything that might lead me to believe that she does feel that way. We played footsie for a while, no one noticed, and I was so happy. Nothing came of that either...but I enjoyed it...lol...
So yeah, I'll keep everyone updated if ya want...
I have another little update though -
My friend might be having a little after exams party, which would be awesome, but she can't drink (I'm actually not supposed to, but I probably will anyways) She can't drink because she's on anti-depressants...I really want to tell her how much I love her, and that it's okay...but the stupid thing is, I'm currently on them too, and I don't want to tell anyone of my friends (I've told my best friend, that's it though) But otherwise, she won't believe that I understand somewhat, what she's going through...I just want to be with her so badly...
~Alex
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Posted: Wed Jan 31, 2007 7:44 pm
Wow I completely understand what you're going through, yet I don't feel the same way about my friend (obviously a girl) because I think that she doesn't go that way and is kinda imature(although I am too sweatdrop ). Anyways...back to you...um I wish you the best of luck...and at least she goes that way and thinks that you're cute. 4laugh I think that she likes you but is afraid to admit it to you because I think that she's afraid of being rejected by you...or maybe not...but anyways I hope everything goes well in the future. 3nodding blaugh
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Posted: Sun Feb 04, 2007 11:14 am
Awww, that is sweet. I hope it works out for you. I am dating my best friend, and I love it, she took a while to say yes because of her boyfriend, but now we are dating, and I am soooooooo happy. heart
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