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 Posted: Sat Jul 23, 2005 10:07 pm
Along the pages are drawings that one would never expect to find within a journal belonging to Spiro. Two dead dragons, some knights, and a princess. Along the top of his doodles are the words "Happy End". Go figure. Spiro Avery Colette Lloyd Kyou Hatori Freize Alexei (Sybil?)
Friends friends friends friends friends.
Friends.
I'm so happy.
I've never had friends before.
Alexei is happy, and he says he's never had a friend like me before and that I'm the best one ever. That makes me happy, because we both know I'm no good at being a friend...
That was stupid. That was really stupid, but I wrote in pen so I can't erase it. Sometimes I do stupid things like that because I get this wierd bubbly thing inside my heart that makes my lips do wierd things like turn up, and sometimes this strange noise comes out of me and it hurts my lungs if I do it too much. It's such a wierd feeling. I've only felt it a few times before, but never this strong. Freize says its called happiness. He says I shouldn't be afraid of it, that its a good feeling.
It feels good, so I'm not sure that monsters are allowed to feel it.
-Spiro
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Posted: Sun Sep 18, 2005 10:29 am
Back are the pictures of houses on fire and crying angels. Spiro I think they've forgotten...
I'm scared. Please, please don't forget me.
I'm scared that they'll forget and then I'll be alone again, for forever, just like they said. Just like they said.
I don't want to be alone again. I don't wanna lose anyone else.
-Spiro
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Posted: Sun Sep 18, 2005 10:36 am
Spiro I was at home alone with Arafel today, and she made me lunch... And that was nice, because normally I make my own lunch. Normally I just have some cheese or something and water. She made a sandwich and milk.
It was good, too. She made herself something... We were eating, and then she started freaking out about something and put my hand on her stomach. Something jumped inside and she said it was the baby kicking because it wanted to see me.
Why would anything want to see me? I don't understand... But I guess its okay. Maybe things will be different this time, and people will want to see me and nobody will hate me.
Probably not. I shouldn't pretend like that. It won't happen. There is no such thing as Happily ever after.
-Spiro
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Posted: Sun Sep 25, 2005 8:35 am
Spiro They were gone for awhile, you know. I really thought it was over, that I'd reached what he said I could. But they came back. I don't know why, but they came back. I don't know how I'm supposed to forget if it keeps coming back in my dreams.. It's getting so hard. I don't understand.
He must have lied again when he said I could just forget. Just like he said that he would take me in and we could live happily ever after. He died. There's no happily ever after in that. Maybe when they said that monsters don't get happily ever afters, they were right.
Maybe he was wrong and they were right...
On a different note, Ajani has been having nightmares too it seems. I know because when I'm up at night, he sometimes screams or runs out of his room and goes to throw up.. Go figure. Hatori's been avoiding all of us- hiding in his work. And only after going back to that Main House or whatever he was talking about... I don't understand why, but I guess it's his problem he needs to work out. Freize says that you should let people work out their own problems, but let them know that you're there, and if you do that you'll be a better person and everyone else would like you a lot..
I heard this song awhile back... Hallelujah by.. Rufus Wainwrite or something. It's a good song.. I like it. And I don't like music much. Evarobby and Freize like music, and Ajani doesn't really but he indulges himself in it anyways. Maybe it helps him. It doesn't help me..
I met some people. A lot of them really, and I'm surprised that many people wanted to meet me. There was.. A girl named Cera, and we played tag. It was fun, really... She was nice. She didn't understand my fear of older people, but she was nice and tried to help me. We had... Fun.
I also met someone at school named Kaja... I met two other people, Aqua and... Sere I think? I only got to see them for a second, but they seemed okay. Aqua seemed really cheerful, and Sere was a little irritable... But thats understandable. We were at school. Anyways, Kaja... Has a turtle named Oli. She took me turtle hunting with her.. It was nice not to be alone. She's nice.
And then I met a cat boy after school. His name was Jiyuu, and he was really quite and nice, but he was blind. That's okay, though. I don't mind. He's still a good guy. It doesn't change who he is at all, and I still like being around him- his personality made me feel more at ease than I usually am. I told him about why I hated school, and how I was afraid all of my friends had forgotten me.
Nothing much else to say... Freize wants to go on another camping trip- we won't be able to take Arafel, though, because she's too big with the baby. She's a nice lady.. I like her.
I'm worried they'll find out that I'm a monster and they'll hate me. I don't want to be hated again... I'm afraid.
-Spiro
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Posted: Sat Nov 26, 2005 9:46 am
Spiro I've forgotten again. I've forgotten what the dreams meant. I've forgotten who "he" was that I wrote about last time I wrote. I forgot what I thought I remembered. I don't know if this is good or bad- is it normal to just forget? Something tells me I don't want to remember. So I'll try not to. I'll try not to remember ever... But I can remember them. Not really, not alot, but the word them or they makes me scared. And someone else knows who they are for the first time. It's a girl I met in the rain. I think she might be a monster like me. Like me and Sybil. That's why she's afraid of them. I let her wear my sweater because she was out in the rain and it was cold and she said she lived in a box. She ran away after that, and it made me scared. Was she afraid of me? No one's been afraid of me like that in a long time... But I should forget that.
She came back to my house, and she's sleeping in my room. She was tired.
Animal count:
Dakota (find home)
Mertle (find home)
Molly (find home)
Coo (set free)
Wally
Alexei
I have a few more animals to find good homes as you see, I picked them up off the street becausenobody wanted them just like
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Posted: Mon Mar 27, 2006 7:00 pm
(I have recieved the message and will rp)
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