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I have no clue who or what 'him' is but I hope someone out there can tell me. And tell me if what I did was right or wrong.

It all started one night when something touched my arm. I got frightened and panicked while something was holding me, not unkindly, because I couldn't see anything. But after I calmed down and let the fear of the unknown leak away 'him' could talk to me through well, it's hard to explain but I know you'll understand...I knew his thoughts. I had my own but when he thought I heard it. Everything he felt and wanted and loved and feared I knew and understood.

So I could converse with 'him' I tried asking who he was or where he was from. Every time I would ask him he would get insanely frightened and scream that he was lost and that they left him alone, he was alone alone alone alone alone.

Also 'him' gave me a vision after I asked that question. I seen the patch of trees outside my house, but it was ALL forest instead of cleared. It was foggy and cold and I seen a man, nude and disheveled, stumbling through the fog and the trees. He was crying and holding himself tightly and then it was the end of the vision. Afterwards I asked if that was him and this profound sadness answered me. It was sadness and shame.

But I didn't know WHY or who or what he was. So I asked him who helped him. And he told me, "He led me to you." And I was confused cause ... Well I just was. I asked him who led him to me and he said; "He led me to you. The master, the leader, the guide he led me to you. He said you need me and that you can help me, and I can help you."

But I didn't know who led him to me and I didn't know who either of them were, I didn't know why I needed either of them, or how I could possibly help. So I kept pressuring 'Him' for a name. It was jumbled but he kept giving me 'A' names. The one he agreed to the best was something that sounds like Arieul. Okay, so now I had the name of who led him to me.

And So I asked him why I needed him. And he said, "I've been watching you, I've watched you since the day you've come in to this house. I've been there when you're sad and lonely and I know your pain and heartache, I wanted so desperately to hold you and tell you that it is okay and that I am here to love you. From now on you won't be sad because I'm here to love you and you will love me too. He helped me get the power to love you."

And that made me cry because it was true, the sadness and the lonely bits. But I told him that he couldn't love me because he wasn't real. He would always get very sad and say something like, "But I'm still here to let you know you're not alone."

I'm sure this sounds okay in itself but he was constantly there, holding me. All night and all day and I was getting so drained that I was never alone. I asked him what his name was and how old he was, and every time I would ask his name he would get confused and spurt out tons of different names. When I asked him how old he was he always said some sort of 4's but that is all I could get.

When I wasn't paying much attention to him, I got on the microphone to talk to my ex bf, and when I spoke it was a MAN'S voice. NOT mine. And I can not replicate that. It startled me but the more I talked it eventually went away.

As I was saying I was getting tired of him. He wouldn't go away. So my ex got this idea that he would send him away by saying that I belonged to someone else.

The two of them actually argued. Ex said that 'him' couldn't love me cause he wasn't real. 'Him' said he would prove that he was real and to leave him and me alone. 'Him' said he would share me since he realized he couldn't be there in a physical matter type of form, but my ex kept arguing and said 'him' couldn't have me at all.

Arguing went on a little more and then the oddest thing happened. I would have never expected it from 'him'. He forcefully kissed me, I mean REALLY forcefully, the strength of it pushed me back. And he...did way more than that that I won't describe in detail.

After this I really wanted 'him' to go away. I told him that I cared and that I felt sorry for him that his friends or family left him alone to die, but he had to leave me, he had to pass on if he was a spirit. It was getting to be too much for me for him to be constantly on me.

But he wouldn't leave me cause he said he loved me, he couldn't leave anyway cause he would get lost, he was staying with me to love me forever and that he was mine. I could not talk him out of this.

I tried everything I could think of to get rid of him. Praying, sage, holy water, crosses...Telling him. Nothing worked...Then my ex said he would try this one spell (since I don't do spells at all, it's taboo for me). 'Him' was still confident that nothing would happen. But when my ex said the spell I could feel 'him' being ripped away from me...

Oh my god how he shrieked and clinged to me. He was begging me to stop hurting him, that if he let go, if I let him go now that the thing that was pulling him away would kill him. He was begging for me to save him and to not let him die. I tried to ignore him but I just couldn't handle it, it was almost like I was trying to hand over my own child to a hungry bear. I told my ex to stop the spell/chanting and he did.

From that point on 'Him' was crazily afraid of my ex. Every time I would think about him or talk to him or anything of that sort 'him' would freak out and start hysterically sobbing in fear.

He stayed for a while longer until one night after a lot of coaxing and coaxing, and the help of another spirit my ex had around, 'him' detached to me. I told him to pass on and to finally rest in peace and this is what he told me.

"I will leave for a while, but I'll always be here watching you like I was before. If you ever need me just call for me."

And I know he's still around. Sometimes I'll feel him nuzzling his face in my hair and kissing my head like he used to do, but I never let it get passed that. I tell him that he can't attach to me again. He listens now, however reluctantly.

I have no clue who or what 'him' is or was.

Thank you =)

I know who 'He' is.

Him. He. He is the Doctor.


XD. From Doctor Who. heart

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Um.. Otherwise.
Sounds like a poor guy. Needs some guidance himself.

Dunno what to say other than try to help him out.

How sad were you? If you were actually sad enough, I would say that you've made yourself your own type of spirit.
Let me explain.
Most teens, or people who are under ALOT of emotional stress, will sometimes have there emotions form corperal beings. However, the case of the being of the opposite emotion of sadness, love and comfort, is very rare. Mostly they become the same type of emotion, sadness or anger. Anger becomes poltergeists, while sadness becomes types of beings who can affect the dwelling they were created in.
When and if they give you visions, it could be of when or/and where or/and why they were created.
So, you received a vision of a naked man, crying, stumbling in between trees and fog.
Your innermost wants and needs have supplied a being for you.
You wanted someone to make you happy, to make you feel loved.
This is no ghost or spirit.
This is as much a part of you as your heart, or limbs.
And like he said, he will always be there, and if you become in such a state again, he may not leave you alone.
Ever.

This "Him" from what he is telling you, he is a demon, copying a former person from the past who once lived in that house. He was sent by his master of course who is "a devil".


Arieul could be the name of the "devil" which is probably it's true name because it was their name before they fell. It's true name are their Angelic names if you didn't know. It's probably the name of the one who sent "Him" to you.


Do not believe what it says to you, because it's trying to lure you to it's 'ginger bread house' so to speak. sweatdrop

It is not an archangel. There is only 4 Archangels.


Demons are a creation of a devil which is a fallen angel. Demons have feelings, but not in a way like humans do.


He doesn't behave like a gaurdian or protector because they don't get jealous over the people they are protecting. Also, a gaurdian does what you ask within reason, they don't do anything against your will. They do not force you into anything you do not like.

Seems to me that the being seems to need you. I'm going to assume that it may be the confused spirit of a man who died, abandoned and lost. The man was probably extremely attached to something or someone at the point of death and because of this, it requires the attachment to remain a conscious part of this world. IT's unable or unwilling to let go of this world due to its need to be attached. As for it's master, it could be the product of a jumbled and confused consciousness or it could be something completely different from what I've previously described.