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I kind of feel like dead weight as of late. I don't really get why.

My two best friends both have major crushes and well I don't. :/ So it gets strange sometimes.

One of my friends obsesses over him because he knows she likes him now and just went to her birthday party this weekend and yet you can tell he likes her back, but he didn't make a move.

Then my other one watches her's from 'a far' to scared or something to even say 'Hi' to him. Most she's ever said was 'I like your shoes' when she bumped into him in the hall once last year. Also she could be half way around the world from him and if you mention his real name (we have a nick name for him) she'll flip out and say that he has spies everywhere.

And then... there's me. :/ So when they get on the topic of their crushes I'm hanging their like dead weight with nothing to say unless they ask me a question.

Recently I've thought I started to like my friend Joey who've I've been talking to more at school and though e-mails and things. But I don't think that’s it. It just feels like he's someone I could be clingy towards because I feel lonely I guess in a relationship since.

I used to always think that dating was a waste of time while you were in highschool but whatever, I guess ideas change with age.

I'm just really hoping I get this job because I think it could take some of this feeling away if I had it to keep myself busy.

Any thoughts or comments?

I've actually had that feeling a lot in the past year (mainly because I was single for almost nine straight months, and I that was the first time in multiple years where there had been nearly that much space). I just found other things to focus on, for starters. The other things I did was to just tell myself that it was all in my head, and that I shouldn't worry about it because they ARE my friends.