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okay. so im in what seems to be an odd situaton (well, for me at least). i have a best friend named cameron. i liked him at the beginning of last year and he found out about it. he did not like me back and basically shut me down. but he was one of those peopl that you always have a crush on, that though you may not realize it, you still like them. i say this because there was a specific incident during which i found this out. this summer, in june, i went to a birthday party and he was there. we were really good friends and i had a boyfriend who i had been with for about 4 months at that point. well, cam and i ended up sitting next to each other on the couch while we were watching a movie. he started playing with my hand which totally caught me off guard, but i did not try to stop him because i realized that i had liked him all that time but i wouldnt let myself believe it because of how badly he had shut me down. he said that we was trying to see how well nick (my ex) and i were doing and that he liked me. well, when nick broke up with me, i turned to him but cam had a girlfriend which crushed me even more. he helped me thru the breakup and we are still good friends. he knows that i like him and he does like me a little bit and has ever since this summer, even weh he had his girlfrend. he broke up with her just a few days ago and hes doing just fine. like i said, he knows i still like him, and hes completely okay with that. he and i have talked about it. he said that its all on him to decide whether or not he could see me as a girlfriend because right now im a really great friend to hang out with and joke around with and talk to. (which is why we are best friends). and i really dont know what to do. oh, and i havent mentioned tom. okay, so i went to a concert about a month ago with another best friend of mine. i met this awesome guy named tom and got his number so we can hang out. as of now, we have not been able to get together. we talk about twice a week and hes a really cool guy. and he seems to be interested in me. like, that he thinks if he got to know me better that he might consider going out with me. and i am really confused right now. this post is mainly about cameron and my situation with him, but i thought id throw in that part about tom so you understand why this is so weird for me.

and so im basically asking if you have any advice or suggestions about what i should do. if its a good idea to be with cameron or not. i think it would be awesome, obviously. but i dont know.

well, any advice that you could give is wonderful. sorry that you read all of this. and thanks!!!!!