Welcome to Gaia! ::

I belive you shoudl try to learn to talk to people face to face. For a long time i would see a "shrink"(not proper term, sorry i can't spell to well) and I would lie to them about anythign and everything. But after i started to tell whats up and the truth, i felt better to let it out and not hide.

Depression of course is not one class or just a specific thing. There are soo many forms and causes. And other sub forms of that as well. Either way, your sad. And if there is no reason for the sadness, or not a concious reason, you should try to explore ways to find out what is going on with yourself.

I myself am Bi-Polar.. So people find it difficult to be around me sometimes. Its not very fun, to be manic and laughing then in seconds have a blank face. And its not set up by reasons, it just occurs.

There can be reasons for depression, and sometimes not. Its defined i belive as a Chemical Imbalance. Where endorphins? are mixed up and things.. I'm sure there are threads that explain, i have not gotten to read them yet, so i'm not here to explain depression and preach and tell facts on it.

If you come home and cry and you don't know a reason, or you think your putting on a mask and being fake so people won't ask. Then there needs to be a change. I hope you keep us updated and i wish you luck with discovering yourself.