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 Posted: Fri Sep 15, 2006 6:09 pm
This is just mostly for me, to get my head around it all, lol, but I'll throw out a little discussion question thingy at the end 3nodding
About four months ago, my life was great. I mean, I was actually loving it. I've struggled with a few self-esteem stuff, but I was feeling great. I'd lost some weight (I'm not really fat...I could just stand to be a little fitter xp )) and I was feeling good. I had an amazing boyfriend, and things were going well between us, considering it was long distance. I loved my church; it was small, but I knew everyone. The youth group was quite small, but I don't think I've ever had a better time at another youth group. We've remarked about how our group should be recorded someday...the stuff we say is just hilarious. I was a senior in high school, graduating with high marks. Needless to say, life was awesome.
At the end of May, my aunt got re-married. Not that it was a bad thing, it was just a change. A week later her son went into Toronto for brain surgeory. He's only 11, but he's more like a 4 year old. This effected me a lot because I love my cousin dearly and obviously there was a risk that he wouldn't survive it.
About a week after that, my boyfriend broke up with me. Obviously I won't go into details, but the terms of our breakup were...different. It was my first relationship, and I had thought things were going great. Apparently they weren't. Anyways, I still had feelings for him, and him for me. The catch was that we would both be working at the same camp this summer. And he would be my boss. I would have to see him every day.
So then I graduated high school, and I knew that I would never see a lot of my really good friends again. And then, to top it all off, my dad resigned. Now, that wouldn't be so bad, except for the fact that we had to leave our church. My dad was the senior pastor there, after having planted the church, we had to leave it. We were there for 12 years.
This is coming from a person who hates change. I mean, it stresses me out. I can't handle it. It makes me sick. In the period of one month all the change that could ever happen (it seems) had happened to me. The summer was hard, seeing him and knowing how he felt. Now I'm at a different church, were my dad is not the pastor (he's taken up a campus ministry). We'd never been to church as a family before two weeks ago. I have friends there, but their so exclusive and I don't feel very welcomed.
All of this is to say that it has taught me a big lesson. I have a thing with worrying. I worry about everything. I get so stressed about the changes that I forget about God. I mean, I know the circumstances in my life are nothing compared to what a lot of go through, but in relation to what my life was before, it's taken a complete 180 degree turn.
I think I've grown a lot as a Christian. God has taught me a lot, and I'm relying on Him for EVERYTHING. Even stuff like "God, I need to meet the right friends in this class" or "God I just need someone to talk to!" I'm still getting through some of it; the pain of the heartbrake still isn't gone, and I'm not quite used to my new school or church. But He's taking me through it all, one step at a time.
I mean, obviously we've all been through such situations, or we're going through them now. So how do you guys deal with things like this? What is the good that comes out of the bad? Is the storm really worth it all? I talked to a lot of different people, and to God, of course.
So yeah...that's all I have to say, lol.
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Posted: Fri Sep 15, 2006 7:56 pm
Wel sometimes you think stuff like "Why does god do this to me"
But everything God does is for a purpose...Like this oetime
Me and my siblings were at school and my mom and dad were at work and someone broke into the house and stole my dog...I was really really sad and I always beleived my dog would come back..but he never did..at that moment i knew that god wanted me to learn what t mean to let go...So i stopped greiving over my dog and continued with life...
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Posted: Sat Sep 16, 2006 1:32 pm
Yeah, I'm definately learning that lesson, the 'everything happens for a reason' one. It sucks, lol, I think it's a very hard lesson to learn. That and always trusting God with everything. Not fun at all. To learn, I mean.
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Posted: Sat Sep 16, 2006 10:51 pm
God's will is for the 'best' to happen for His children. He has a great purpose for your life. It will all turn out into good. Continue to trust Him, and give Him all your worries because He is taking care of it.
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Posted: Sun Sep 24, 2006 7:29 am
Ohhhhh sweetie.............. that's alot. I will be lifting you up in prayer today! heart Take heart as this too shall pass. 3nodding
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Posted: Sun Sep 24, 2006 7:53 am
Your church sounds like mine. Are you from Virginia?
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Posted: Sun Sep 24, 2006 2:07 pm
Nope, I'm from Ontario.
Thanks guys, lol...I'm mostly through it all now, and it's not like my life was ever really bad, just changing.
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Posted: Mon Sep 25, 2006 1:57 pm
My mom is a pastor too on leave of absense so I had to leave my chuch too. We were there for 10 years. I was purty sad about it. It was wierd not being allowed to go into a church. It was the first year I was old enough to join youth group too so I was sad I was gonna miss it.
I worry a lot too. I stress a lot but always end up looking back and relising there was nothing to stress out about.
I'm starting to overcome that though after finding some things in the Bible about worrying.
Philippians 4:6: "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God."
heart
I hope you cousin is okay.
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Posted: Wed Sep 27, 2006 2:16 pm
Yeah...it's not a fun position to be in. I'm still going to my chruch, now...kinda...more like half of the time. I play on the youth worship team and they say they need me, and my parents are okay with that. That verse is one of those verses that I...choose to dislike I guess, lol. It's so easy in theory, but to actually do it is one thing. I start to flip out over nothing....like last week, lol...went through a bit of a spin their with my horseback riding...but it's a slow process. Learning things is difficult, especially when its the trial-by-fire method. Not fun, no matter what the fire is.
My cousin is doing quite well, actually. He's literally been a miracle since birth, and things are going really well, as far as I know.
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Posted: Wed Sep 27, 2006 5:23 pm
hows then metric system? better than ours? freaking lucky everyone else...
what's the temp up there? I could see my breath at 5 this morning. first time. 78ยบ F (WTFCELSIUSBBQ). URGH.
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