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 Posted: Wed Sep 13, 2006 9:36 pm
Yea
I was never raised in Christianity my dad doesnt do anything my mom (who I havnt seen in 8 years) is wiccan and a mystic and such (telopathic ghosts tarrot cards ect)
I had moved near a church got way into it got saved then moved agian instantly sighned up for the youth in the church I happen to be naibors with but I seem to have drifted away I mean far far away from being Christian
I was screaming "I raped Jesus!" and "Fear me I am your god!" in the church parking lot today -_-
I read somewere in the bible that if i turn awya from Christianity I was never with him to begin with
now Im just confused I use to be close very close with him and now not so much
What if I was satanist for a wile and went back?
Is that possible?
Or no once you leave your gone and cant come back?
Im also bisexual I understand thats not christian and yea...is that even fixable -_-
Im suicidal (weak stomachs dont read)
I also do things like self torture not normal 13 year old girl who cat scratches for attention I set my self on fire I drown myself I hang myself I put hair spary and bleach and nailpollish remover into open wounds to slow the healing and increase the pain I also bash my head against the wall I cant use my left hand well because I have severe nerve damge and broken tendons that I never went to the hospitol for so they move around under the skin Iv tried to stop and it doesnt work out ever realy
I end up worse soemhow Iv tried to kill myself more often recently and yea I lack a phone and may run away to a pay phone to get in contact with a suicide hotline or somthing cause this wont last long Ill edventualy snap
Im kinda relizing little things like how certain parts of christianity contridicts its self and such
and I cant seem to bounch back to my right place with jesus or whatever
I kinda know next to nothing wait take that back I know nothing about the bible and Christianit y some one help before I do soemthing dumb like lets say go satanist and kill myself forever damning my soul
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Posted: Sat Sep 16, 2006 7:54 pm
I suppose that the bible verse that you read probably ment something more like: you weren't close to God, but you thought you were.
I've thought I was super close to God, and then I'd fall away, but that was because I was just on a spiritual/emotional high.
I was kinda in your position (but not as extreme). I was thinking about going Buddhist and I cut myself more that I could count... and I was suicidal. I was thinking about a lot of things, but a lot of that happened right after a retreat where I thought I was close to God.
My dad is Catholic but never goes to church, and my mother is a Christian but compromises her faith (she tells me like... Go to sleep, you shouldn't be reading the bible.)
I also thought I was bisexual/lesbian myself, but then I just found out that God just wanted me to have a growing relationship with my female friends and turn my eyes away from men (which I am doing great with now) but I didn't tell my friends about that because then I would be scared about what they would say. Now, I don't think about it because its too soon to determine what my sexual orientation is. I'm against teen dating (unless you are 17 yrs and up), so I can't really tell.
Christianity itself is a relationship with God... and only people contradict each other.
I think that if you went Satanist, its like sinning to God while knowing that you are sinning. I don't think that would please Him much.
My advice is to just stay away from thoughts of Satanistic religions, keep in mind that you are too young to determine your sexual orientation, read the bible DAILY no matter how tired you are, and talk to God EVERY DAY no matter what. Procrastinating will make everything harder, and then you'll just do it more frequently and then just stop altogether. Oh, and also have someone accountable for you (like call them when you need help with something or just need someone to talk to.)
For additional help/advice, I would suggest to go to your Pastor and just tell him to pray for you.
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Posted: Sun Sep 24, 2006 12:06 pm
The fact that you are questioning what you are doing means that God wants you to come back. I applaud you for realizing you've got some issues and admitting it. That is a huge step in the right direction. I say pray about it. Ask God to help, and to give you strength and to lead you in the right direction. Whenever you feel alone, remember that He's there.
As for your questions on the Bible, what do you want to know about? Usually when people find contradictions in the Bible they're taking things out of context or twisting it around. If you have any questions, please ask and I'll help you out as best I can.
As for physically hurting yourself, remember that the Bible says that your body is God's temple, and should be treated as such. So stop screwing up God's house! xp Seriously though, God doesn't want you hurting yourself like that. It's just not healthy.
As for being bi, this is a tough one. We all have temptations in life, the trick is to not give in. Just because you want to do something doesn't mean you have to do it. God gave us self control for that very reason. Let me put it like this: I'm straight. I have temptations to do things with guys. But I don't. Because I know it's wrong. Simple as that. You can't always control how you feel, but you can control what you do.
So pray. Ask God for help. And maybe go visit with the pastor of the church you used to go to. I will pray for you. smile
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Posted: Sun Sep 24, 2006 6:33 pm
my advice? Pray and talk to a pastor. those are the two best things to do in this kind of situation. But please don't kill yourself i almost lost a really close friend to it and now i won't rest untill i make sure no body will lose some one they love to this.
sorry about what i typed earlier it was a typo
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Posted: Mon Oct 02, 2006 4:21 pm
Que
One I dint state my age
Im actualy 15 this november not 13
Thanks for the help guys
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Posted: Tue Oct 17, 2006 5:50 am
Because u don't have a Christian background u may find that sticking to it is tougher. U should find urself one good friend who is Christian - one u can trust ur life with - and talk. It is easy to become disheartened after being newly converted. U need someone who can guide u and answer ur questions. We will try to help from here too. Stay away from the Wiccan and Satanism and other stuff like that. And yes, if u do stray u will be welcomed back by God if u r truely in ur heart sorry for what u did and strive not to do it again.
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Posted: Mon Oct 30, 2006 8:41 am
I know what you're going through. I use to be Bisexual, hurt myself, talked about murdering ppl and about how it would be nice to see them suffer but let me say this.
It was all lies. I was influenced by the world, by Satan and I lost my way with God. I got so much into me and the world I ignored God so much I didn't know what I was getting into.
Like others say, turn to your pastor or to God and pray a lot. I understad you would not believe in God any more but he is here. Don't go against God or something worse will happen to you. Don't give up hope or faith. My boyfriend is doing this self mutilation thing but it's because he listens to the devil and he doesn't let anyone get close enough to help. I'm slowly helping him, he's a Christian too.
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Posted: Sun Jan 07, 2007 11:30 am
Okay.
About a month ago I was saved. I went to a Kutless concert and this guy from Disciple started talking about God and everything, and then I got all wierd and started crying and all that good stuff.
Before that, I did not believe in God. (I had friends talk me into going to the concert.) I was Wiccan, and my friends and I were planning on doing the Satanic ritual thingy that makes you a Satanist, or whatever.
As you can see, that didn't happen.
Even though I am now Christian, I am still bisexual, I still cut myself(which I know is very wrong, but I'm working on it), I am still suicidal at times, I am still mildly bulimic, and still face all of the same temptations as before.
But I know that God is going to help me get past these things. He's there for everyone.
And as for an answer to your question: I don't think that if you have been saved before you can go away from God and then come back again without some type of paying for what you did. He won't turn you away, but it's really not in His favor. I think.
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