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Do I keep saying "gods" instead of "Jesus," "God," "Gawd," "oh my god," or even "oh your god?"

It must be my book again,
taking over my life as usual.
It's going to get me into trouble...
People think I'm sleeping
when I start to dream about my book
but I'm not
and they talk about things around me that I don't want to hear
And no one else ever does this
so no one can relate
or understand
no matter how much they--stupid posers, don't think you know everything --believe they do
Belief...maybe that's it
I created deities, gods if you will, friends
and now I believe in them
I created a world,
and I believe in that
I created people
that I love with all my heart
as if they were real,
...and I created a hell, so maybe
that's real too.
I created war, so is that going to come to life?
I created suffering and death for the characters that I love...
but wait...I created life and happiness and peace and love too...but I'm not sure
if those can exist anymore.
*maybe, somewhere, Newport Living is playing just for me...*
Gods, I'm going psycho...OH I DID IT AGAIN!
please don't hurt me God...s
Oh, there's no use, is there? God is going to kill me...
But hey,
if you believe in something,
it can exist, can it?
and if you don't believe in something
that can't be proven,
it can't hurt you.
but maybe...
I should stop rambling now.

On a side note;
...semicolons are my favorites. :XP:

Gahhh!! My other friends don't really get it, well one kind of does, but not enough. I'm writing a book and there's this main character. Well, I need to kill her because it's at the beginning and that would be completely unpredictable. I'm going to have her come back as a spirit or something and slowly regain her alive self back. I wrote the part that she dies, but I almost cried. I miss her, but I haven't even put in the part where she dies in the book. I miss her so much!! crying *sniffs*

and HOMG, Ren, I am IN that guild.

But I really suck at going there. The only regular guild I go to is this one.

Doshite. I forgot all about it.

*feels guiltyfor being mean to people on said guild*

hah, when do I ever not?

My teachers hate me cause of my paradisiticism. They don't get it, of course, but they keep telling me if I only pay attention I would be so much better...tough love sweatdrop

I'm failing at school. Erm, life.