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I'll agree with you there. I've got enough problems and have dealt with self-harm addictions and other things like that. Mike's Hard Lemonade and Red Wine isn't all that bad. I can't drink with the medications that I'm on. *shrugs* Not that drinking helps anything; I was expecting getting buzzed to make everything go away. Instead, it made everything go away for about three hours. The rest of the night I was up about 4 or 5 times in a cold sweat. I had to take a shower the day after because I reeked. o.O

I'm trying to recover from a lot of s**t (sexual/physical abuse) and am also trying to stop self-harming and starving/purging. It's a difficult road, and my therapist has told me not to drink or do drugs...plus, my girlfriend's father is an alcoholic, and I feel guilty drinking when I'm with her, or even when I'm not.

Right here I go. What drugs have I done.

Well...


when i was 14 I tried acid. I saw kaleidoscopes on the ceiling and my friend Colette was laughing solidly for four hours because she could see her hands growing extra fingers.

Alcohol drove me from the top of some stairs to fall 6ft onto my rib and provide entertainment for my friend Lisa who didnt call an ambulance but stook there laughing.

I smoke cannabis a lot. The last time I got stoned, me and my friend Liz were laughing for an hour because we could see our faces in each others eyes.

Speed was a crap experience for me. Kept me up most of the night and showed me a side of my ex boyfriend I didn't want to see.

Never tried mushrooms but have experimented with salvia divinorum. Me and Lore will be furthering our research tomorrow night. biggrin

I don't like to advocate getting wasted as a solution to all your problems, but it works for me. I'm on a bit of a forced detox at the moment, but I will continue my debauched lifestyle as soon as possible as its driving me slightly mad...

I smoke weed every day unless I wake up and make a conscious decision not to. in the student residence I lived in until last week, there were 3 dealers on my floor alone- you didn't even have to move to get it.

I drink heavily at least 3 times a week and will have a few 'casuals' for the football or just cos its there. Most people are surprised at how much I can drink, being female and 5'3". Being drunk is class cos it's just a release- you behave like a depraved 5 year old up way past their bedtime.

I used to do pills regularly, but now its just special occaisions- the best part is the little moments you have with people you barely know, telling them how great they are and making plans that'll never come true. And of course that point on the dancefloor, when every song is the best song in the world, and it's just you and the bassline....

Cocaine is immense. If I had the money I'd be on it a lot more- I can see why people get addicted, you just feel like ten times better in yourself- you walk into a room feeling like a supermodel

Mushrooms were good for me but last time I spent the whole trip looking after my boyfriend who thought the lights were bleeding in his eyes and piles of clothes were coming alive. Another mate said he could of killed himself cos he couldn't see another way to get out of this really bad trip.

As you can probably see, I love my various forms of intoxication. I guess it gives you a break from yourself for a while. That's the main advantage

done:
pot
alcohol

will be having acid this saturday night

stories:
got really really drunk on vodka and some burbon
my friends told me my gf hated me and broke up with me
i cried, when i woke up the next mourning i smacked the main friend who started it in the face

got extremly stoned and went to see the matrix reloaded
freaked the s**t out of me and my 3 mates

got really drunk and stoned and ate 1 1/2 kilos of chips b4 being told that the cardboard was edible then took a bite out of it

there are more i just cant remember them too well