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Gah... whats happening to me? I can't sleep Yet again... I don't know... this pain.... Its not my own crying
I feel it for someone else
I've been blessed with power, But Sometimes i dislike the power, But i know its for the better...
I absorb the feelings of the people i'm closest to
It lessens the pain for them it seems, but sometimes its such a great ammount of pain.
It makes me cry knowing how painful it still is for them.
I can see bad things long before they happen or sometimes its a short time before... it just varies
And I can feel the pain of the ones I love without knowing they are hurting at all or before they are even hurting.
I have the problem of keeping it all to myself. Never letting in very much on the pain I actually feel.
Sometimes I think I hurt more than they do.
Sometimes I wish I could just tell them whats really bothering me...
The pain inside is killing me.
It would kill them If they knew I went through so much when they suffer.
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This may seem very confusing, But its something that happens to me all the time. I'll be sitting around doing random things. All of a sudden, I feel horrible for no reason whatsoever. Before tonight, It used to be just a pain deep down inside my body, more of a mental pain. But tonight, Tonight is different. Alot of people know the connection that twins have, alot of times they'll feel each others pain. Over time, I develope this kind of a relationship one-sided with people. And I do more than just feel their pain. I take away their pain. A few examples: Last november, One wednesday afternoon, I suddenly start feeling awful. I found out later that night that my ex-girlfriend, morgan(girlfriend at the time) had fallen ice skating and broke open her chin. Same thing with my little brother when he broke his forehead on his scooter... and when he had to go in for stiches. One afternoon last month, I start feeling really bad. That night, A friend gets pushed through a window. I'm laying in bed writhing, and this friend is barely hurting at all even though it should have.

Allow you to tell you a bit about my Megan. Shes like my twin. Everything we think is the same. Our reactions are the same. We talk the same. We are very similar in health (some of these are harder to believe: we've both had braces, We have moles in the same places, we've both always gotten these canker sores in our mouths, we're almost the same height, we both get these red bumps for no reason which fade after a day or so[we've both gone to the doctor about them, its just something natural or something] and many other things I can't remember right now) We've been mistaken for twins once before. Our personalities are the same. We're really close. If you believe in True Love, We know what it is (our opinion is its just like experiencing God, You have to experience true love to know what it is) When she's on her period, She always gets horrible cramps and such. 3 months ago, she was feeling awful, But after talking on the phone, I feel awful, and shes feeling alot better. Tonight, Same thing as the last example: shes been stressed the past few days. Without even talking on the phone, she tells me shes feeling better, And I, for no reason, am having cramps in that area... The pain is just there. Its not that I'm hungry or full. Physically and mentally I'm fine. I just abosrb the pain of others.

I already have the answer for whats happening. I never liked seeing other people suffer. So all my life, I've been praying that God would allow me to take their pain. I don't want anyone I love to suffer, and God said I could bear some of the pain. I absorb part of the pain, but those whom I love were still suffering. I continued praying for their comfort, or that atleast I could take the pain in their place. God said Ok, you can have most of it. So thats where I am right now. In pain for my girlfriend at 5 am in the morning while Megan sleeps a peacefull night ^^ I'm gunna leave flowers on her doorstep heart

/emo-ness
Ok, After reading that, what are you thinking?

Ok, that diagnosis might make more sense If I were actually Female and could have a period. But I'm male.

As fas as the manic-depression causing me to be bi-polar:
"Bipolar disorder in children and adolescents can be hard to tell apart from other problems that may occur in these age groups"

All they want is an excuse to sell us medicine for something that occurs naturaly during adolescence... Sure I'm sometimes depressed, But its just part of growing up. During this stage of life, We're expected to have mood swings ect.


You kinda missed the point. I was more going towards what I feel than what I think. I wanted to point out the Senses for others... (I feel bad in the morning, Friend A gets seriously hurt in the afternoon but feels fine. ex: they cut off their wrist... Its bleeding like hell, but they don't feel much pain) I know how I explain that, but How do you explain that? Is this some sort of disorder too?

For future knowledge, manic depression and bipolar disorder are the same thing. You're also insensitive.

To the OP...
I personally don't believe in God, but if you've prayed for forever to take away other peoples' pain, and now you can, what are you complaining about? You know the phrase, "Be careful what you wish for"? Well... ta da.

Otherwise, a more logical explaination could be that you're very emphathetic. Have you ever heard that when women are pregnant, men gain weight and experience pain? It's called sympathy pains. If you're very intuitive, it's not horribly unrealistic for you to feel what people you're VERY close to are feeling.

When people get injured, sometimes it DOESN'T hurt like they'd expect because of the adreniline rush that often comes with it. It's the body's way of protecting you from going into shock and dealing with injuries. Most days, when people are injured, they get a rush and it doesn't hurt, and by the time it SHOULD hurt, they've been treated and are dosed with pain killers. So, after everything, they didn't feel the pain they should of, because of a combination of natural brain function and modern medicine.

Again, that's my ta da.

Now, for a solution, if you consider it a problem... either A. talk to God, or B. learn to channel it or block it. If when you're sucking up someone else's pain or feeling it or what have you, imagine a white light going over you, and filtering out all the red (which is the pain). Have that white wash the red down through your body and out your toes, and down into the Earth.