Welcome to Gaia! ::

Sorry. sweatdrop I got a bit distracted by other stuff...

There was one specific day that I began to journey. I won't go into the details of when it was, but it was before I moved to Ireland. I journeyed to my internal landscape and met someone very important. It was short and to the point.

Soon after I gave up on magic for a while because I did some research and came up with all sorts of crap about colors, candles, prayers, gods and bollox that I really wasn't interested in. I figured that was the kind of stuff you needed to do magic and I wasn't drawn to it at all. Especially since I absolutely detest incense. It took me many more years to figure out that the way I had practised was totally legitimate and that all the frivolity of stuff on the internet was merely a blind for what was really possible. So I threw myself into it with much enthusiasm and haven't looked back.

Really, my biggest problem as a teenager was thinking you had to be Wiccan to practise magic because it was all I could find when I looked. It was very off-putting.

There is no "both." Only one. I am henotheistic. I belong to only one god while still believing in the existence of others. I will even interact with them on some occasions, but I only ever belong to one.

It's not a stupid question, though I think I answered it a few pages back. I believe he chose/claimed me. I don't think this is the case with all relationships with gods. I know some have to be forged over time with applications for their favour. Others are inherited through birthright. It depends on the situation and your personality as to which gods choose to work with you.

I'm really wanting to ask some questions, but I'm not entirely sure where to start... I've been interested in astral travel in particular since my days as a Christian in early high school (excepting a fairly brief conservative period), and I've read up on it a bit throughout the years, but nothing has ever really worked for me. I think I've come close a few times, but I'm really not sure. I was intrigued by your mention of internal wandering. Do you have any advice on how to really accomplish this? Every time I've tried to go anywhere, be it internal or on the astral, I always end up wondering if I'm just imagining it - and I think that if I were really accomplishing my goal I wouldn't have any room to wonder.

I've looked into different pre-conceived religions of many different types and none of them seem to speak to me at this point. I really would like to use these types of explorational tools to help me find whatever path, if any, is calling me.