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 Posted: Sun Jul 16, 2006 12:15 pm
Ok, so...backtrack.
I was just at an all girls camp, (My friend M I T S U K O and I went actually.) and I met this girl there who, like me, enjoys anime, naruto, and YAOI. I saw her reading Negima, (Which is an anime that I really like, but havent had the courage to buy in front of my parents. xD ) and totally freaked out and we went on this long conversation about anime, yaoi, and all things wonderful. (I think one of the first sentances she said to me was 'I read this one fanfic with Orochimaru, Sasuke, and oil.' heart )
Needless to say, I fell fast. I knew right away that I had a crush on this girl. I was only going to be there a week, and I knew that we couldnt become close enough in that short period of time for me to come out to her, and not have it be really wierd. But I kept wanting to. When we were talking about Negima, she pointed out something about how she thinks these two girls are going to go out, and we both had a moment of 'Awww! That would be so perfect and cute!', and so in the back of my mind I was constantly wondering if she was straight or not.
I told her about Gaia Online, and she said that she had an account here at one point but forgot the username and password. So, I gave her my username and told her to look me up some time. (I also, you know, invited her to Oni-Con with me, gave her my phone-number, AIM, email and livejournal. sweatdrop )
I just got a PM from her, saying that she found out her password and username, and when I looked at her profile, she had written that she is bisexual.
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And so I was overjoyed for a moment, thinking maybe I have an oppertunity with this girl. She doesnt live that far away, she's only a year or two younger then me, we totally like the same things, and swing the same way.
But now I'm wondering is that was just a faze she was going through. Maybe her profile is really old and when she wrote that she was still unsure. Maybe if I tell her that I like her she will get uncomfortable and stop talking to me. Maybe she's already seeing someone! gonk
So...I'm going to wait until we talk a little more before I tell her I like her. If she Pmed me, she knows by now that I too am Bisexual. (Its on my profile, and I'm part of a yuri/shouji-ai guild. Kinda hard to miss. O_o )
I dont know why I really posted this... But... I had to tell someone. I cant tell my parents, because while they know I like girls, it would still freak them out a little. My sister thinks its just me copying her. (She said he was a lesbian for about 3 months, and then changed her mind, but I've been outwordly bi since like...the beginning of 7th grade. ) And there's no way in HELL I could squeal to my friend M I T S U K O about this. She knows I'm bi too, but if I say anything like 'Shes so cute!' 'I love her!' or anything else that would remind her I'm bi, she would get really uncomfortable.
Anyway... Yeah...Henada crush rant. domokun heart
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Posted: Sun Jul 16, 2006 1:15 pm
xd Duuuude, go for it! Especially if you have all that in common. She might feel the same way, but she's too shy to say anything. It isn't easy to outright say 'hey, I like you, wanna go out sometime' but try~
heart Best camp story evah.
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Posted: Sun Jul 16, 2006 5:24 pm
But I'm so nervouse. gonk
I've never told anyone I like them before. Not even my Ex-BF. ;______________:
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Posted: Sun Jul 16, 2006 5:40 pm
^^; It's totally nerve racking, I knoooow. But just think of all the cool stuff that happens after. 'Tis like getting a shot. You dread doing it, but when you finally get it, it isn't as bad as you thought, and all the worry was the worst part.
It took me forever before I told my girlfriend. ^^; And then, it was in a mostly joking manner. *cough* Considering the other circumstances as well.
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