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I don't care if anyone replies. I'm not really looking for advice, I just need to rant. To get it out... tell somebody.

My mom used to be really horrible to me. I have lasting psychological disturbances because of the way she emotionally abused me when I was younger. She's always been mean and negligent to me, except last year, after I got hospitalized because I was intending to hurt myself (and I had also attempted suicide).

So she was nice to me for a year.

And now it's s**t again. Now, I wouldn't be that upset about it, since my dad's really nice, and we are having guests for a week, and I have a chance to get the ******** away from her, but the thing is, we're on vacation, and tomorrow I'm flying home so I can see my therapist.

Now, since we have guests, my dad's staying here. That only leaves my mom to travel with me. I wouldn't travel alone because it'd cost more for me to rent a car, and also, I shouldn't drive after I have an appointment, because I usually get very unhappy, and therefore unsafe on the road.

So I'm stuck with my mom for a weekend, and she's pissed at me right now. She's not so bad when she's not pissed, but when she gets pissed, she has to take it out on somebody and I'm going to be the only ******** one around her.

I'm sick of her.

I was awake (nearly) all night crying after I wrote that.

The good news is, though, she's in a much better mood. She's kind of stressed right now, but she's trying to be nicer. I'm really glad.

She's been better since we had group therapy a year ago, but I'm just afraid she'll go back to how she used to be...

So I freaked out. She was being bitchy, though.

I kinda had the same problem with my dad and we just fought one day and a few blow's were thrown and it's never been good between us and that didn't help. But no we just have a respect for each each other so in a way it is better then before because we now respect and love each other we just don't like each other that much...if that makes sense. What I'm saying is if you can't get to a level where you care for each other and genually like each others company at least get to a point where she respects you and know enough for lack of a better word, ******** around with you. Don't hit her though! I'm not saying that, and I'm sure everyone is smart enough to figure that out I'm just saying at the very least get to a level where you respect one another enough so as you don't get so depressed. I do hope it works out and you two can grow to enjoy one anothers company.