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I'm sorry, hun.
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Sarah quit cutting.
Buuut.
I don't know what to say about the girlfriend issue.
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I sorries.

But good luck.
<33.
Rlly.

cutting is not adictive you just make yourself think it is god stop whining and start cutting your hair like i do

i've stayed away from cutting for about a year..... but.... i can't say i haven't resorted to other things in the mean time....

I've gotten drunk and attempted suicide..... took shots of tequila ...stopped that though...

and now i have 4 holes in my arm because out of nowhere a promise that was made to me that i'd get a second chance with.... her.... was broken and she said she never wanted to speak to me again.... it's been worked out since.... but the first thing i saw at that moment was a used fork in a bowl of spaghetti.... so.... you know the rest.... now i have a pair of pants with a big bloodstain on the pocket ..... and yeah...... i miss her so goddamned much......

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sorry.... umm...

yeah... i don't know what to tell other than... it just takes will power.... and a lot of restraint... makes me go insane sometimes because i don't know what the hell to do... but i seem to make it.... last week for the beginning of the week my jaw hurt for clenching for about 3-4 days...

anyways... sorry for getting offtopic and rambling about my problems.....

*sigh*...

i just wish she'd come back to be and say things could be right again.... but she's too afraid to trust me.... i'm so ******** stupid...

step 1: tense all your muscles, clench your jaw.
step 2: let out a muffled growl/scream
step 3: bury your face in you pillow or mash you face in your mattress and throw your body at it a few times
step 4: throw something fragile that isn't worth anything and means nothing to you... (don't break something that's not yours.... not cool)...
step 5: write/draw/listen to music/sing/play guitar or whatever you play

i wrote a couple poems as if i was committing suicide... and i was going to.... i attempted it... as in my last post. ... The poem helped a lot to calm my nerves...

go to my profile and click on my website and go to the poems section.
It's called "I Did It Today, Love"

okay well think about all the progress that u've made so far - four months is a pretty long time keep on reminding ur self about how far u've come and try to remember cutting ur self wont make things better it will only take the pain away for a while , if ur gf's mad she'll eventually stop being mad and , make some new friends that will actually talk to you .well ive managed not to cut myself for 3 months but that time hasnt been easy there have been days when its all i ever think about when i get upset but ive made a promise that im not gonna do it anymore so hopefully i'll be able to stick to it . blaugh btw if u ever need to talk im here to listen .

those steps are awesome.better then the ones i was gonna use. yes.....music/poetry alwalys helps me when i ever feel angered & wonder if cutting will make it better. but friends experiences have showed me it helps not at all & you have to stop it before it becomes addicting because its hard to stop after that.