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My art is pretty unstable. Drawing in repetition is one of the hardest tasks I've ever had to do. I planned on it and will get past this pre-story and go on with the main one after about 6-10 more comics. But hey, I'm in no rush. It should be interesting seeing as how I haven't been able to adapt to Manga-style at all. No, this is more like Anime shoved into an American comic strip. Once I get comfortable with repetitive drawing, I'll do better. Or get another artist to do this stuff for me.

Oh yeah, I'll be transporting this to another guild. My own guild. If you want to be in it and stuff, just PM me. Because I have little free time left. It's not a wrestling RP guild. Though I have enough gold to make a guild or that too... It's just an art/fandom guild type of thing.

Commentary:
This was the first comic that pretty much started everything.... Technically second but the first one was introduction. Anyway, sadly enough the second panel has been cut one person, the third panel has been cut quite a few people, the fourth panel has grown larger, and Blade remains Blade. I really do feel guilty for just letting things get out of control rather than just brush it all off. I never intended for escalation of this matter at all. I suppose everyone else did and I just targetted my audience with too much optimism. I suppose that proves how big everyone's ego must have been to be offended so easily by mere words. In the end Blade tried his best to improve conditions, the roster just grew impatient and half-assed their own "revolution" as I was still sitting down, trying to keep up with it all. I only ended up becoming a lackluster champion. Boy I must look like a total a**. Spit in the face of the top belt and then wear it. But getting the belt was never my decision. I only accepted it so I could help Blade out even if I had college to attend to.

Most of the people on the BTWF roster that I supported did nothing but stand by. I watched a lot of people just move onto the GWA selfishly. Hopefully something is learned so that history doesn't repeat... Unfortunately I'm blacklisted from the GWA roster. Prejudice, bah. Psicosis says he doesn't want me bringing in any "politics", though that action in itself is an act of backstage politics. I guess it makes some sense, though he should realize that having Twist suggest people to salvage from the corpse of the BTWF and deciding who to take in and leave out is also a fairly disgusting act of politics. But hey, a strong military must recruit the best. I won't linger on that since it'll further hurt my chances of getting into the GWA and possibly infect another federation. That's not my intention nor has it ever been. It's too bad other people just couldn't tell me that I was causing that much damage. Sure I was causing a huge ruckus, but I thought it'd be healthy. I suppose the overexaggeration of ego in the BTWF really wasn't an exaggeration at all.

I suppose what really gets to me when I sit back and think about it is that in the aftermath of my comics, nobody had enough energy to carry the baton and run with it except a few people like Tust or Blade. But a relay race is dependent on people. Having two to run a long distance is too hard to endure and it was only a matter of time. Bah, really what were my efforts for? Nothing good. That's the sad part. It's like Gandhi who tried to unite India. He moved a nation. Then that nation was divided among Muslims and Hindus. Pakistan was made. I guess I could say that was the side that represented those who were filled with ego. Unfortunately, that was almost everybody.

I guess if you want another example, it was as if I had thrown a ball straight into the air because it was being unused. It remained in the air as people scrambled to catch it. I suppose it was thrown too high that no one could really put up with the patience to wait for it so many turned their backs, ignored it, and eventually forgot about it. That left a few people who tried to catch the ball. Instead, they seemed to be working without teamwork. So when the ball finally came into view, it slipped right through their hands.

Really a shock though. I'm ashamed of myself as well. But when I look at it, I suppose I placed too much trust in people. Darkfyre, who said he was totally dedicated to the BTWF, simply got up and left because he was thinking about himself. I know it's just a hobby, but when you're involved with other people it's selfish to think about yourself. Whether being selfish is good or bad varies so I can't say many harsh things. Though I never considered thinking about yourself a justifiable reason for action. Which is probably why I'm always getting hurt in the end. Physically mostly. Who else can I point out? Steve Twist. He remained quiet the entire time. I suppose it was admirable because I thought he'd work hard enough to get the guild back on his feet, but he never personally did much of anything in my opinion. Of course I have no awareness of what he's done to help Blade so I may be a little hasty in calling him what I'm about to call him. A coward. But then again, personal attacks are useless to me. I just like goosing people and I know someone will take it the wrong way. I guess I'll justify why I think he's a coward. The guy never once tried to defend against criticism. He never made a stand. Instead he ran off to the GWA. Even became the Prime Time Champion. He sat by and watched the BTWF self-destruct without action. I suppose I can say writing matches is all a roster member does, but even so, the bare minimum is a pretty half-assed attempt. So half-assed I can't even consider it effort at all. To think he was once one of the biggest BTWF names that I held some respect for, but he pretty much turned out to be what many BTWF members ended up becoming. Cowards. Now he's deciding what parts to salvage from the grave of the BTWF. Like a tomb raider or a grave-digger. Sickening. But I suppose I can't complain. If he puts on a hell-of-a-match to make the greatest and final BTWF show ever, I suppose that is all that matters. Though I doubt my views amount to anything at this point.

I sure feel odd about talking so boldly about a guy I've never had a single conversation with. But I'm sure he would feel the same way.

The final example I'll use is Twilight Tokyo Rose. Not to send her into an emo-like depression, but I have to speak with the total honesty in my heart. When I had this conversation:

[20:46] TwilightSparda: I joined GWA, but the other guys'll flip if they know, 'kay?
[20:46] NihongoOtabemasU: I don't think they will.
[20:47] TwilightSparda: I love the BTWF...but I've gotta bad feeling it's going under soon.
[20:49] NihongoOtabemasU: Hmm...
[20:53] TwilightSparda: Just a feeling.

I thought to myself, "What have I done?". To me she represented my last shred of strength to keep myself going in the BTWF. She was the one I looked at for inspiration because of her cheery and optimistic attitude. Despite all of the moments where she'd be depressed, I generally thought she would work her hardest to keep the BTWF together. Unfortunately, she was one of the first to abandon it. That put a damper on my match. But we did last a few more months after that. If it's any form of consolation.

But I can't expect much. It'd be selfish to blame her. If anything it's all my own fault. But I always hate it when people abandon the things they love so easily just because they're a little afraid of getting burnt. If something is that precious you hold onto it till the end. Because the moment you let it go, you may never see it again.

It may sound harsh and cruel, but it's moderacy or honesty. Unfortunatley for anyone offended or hurt, I'm an honest person. Even if my speech is filtered through naive feeling. Holding back on anyone is lying. I don't really care how much backlash I'll get from this.

What a story. What a ride. I made a lot of people angry. I rubbed a lot of people the wrong way. But I'm sure if it's one thing I've learned it's that everyone has an ego. The only people who will learn from this fall are the people who actually get over it. Even for a second. The next time anyone whines about not having a title think about this. How can you be so selfish? Why write in an E-fed if you do not have the will to write for writing itself? That's the hobby. The hobby isn't to chase after a concept of imaginary greatness. Even without the title, most of us think Darson or Big Daddy or even Twist are great writers. That's an actual title to go by if you're still going to be run by your ego. Sure I can be champion, but I won't be known for my run. I'll be known for my "political" comics. The next time you fire off your ego think about that. Because I'm pretty much stuck with it until the end of my E-fedding days. But I suppose I'll just bear it and grin it. Use it against me if you will. I can't change the past.

By now I'm sure most of you will realize this is longer than a majority of my matches/promos. Or am I exaggerating? Eh. Oh well.

So in the end we have one final show. The grandest show of them all. For anyone involved and reading this I wish to say it's been great being tolerated for so long. Blade's final wish as head booker is to finally end this in a blaze of glory. One last stand. Make it something to be remembered by at least. Give it your all. Don't half-a** this and don't let the man down. The guy worked his a** off for you.

And for those of you reading this who aren't on the card(or on the roster), just watch and hopefully you'll be reminded of why you were with the BTWF in the first place.

Well that's the end of the line. No more talk from me. I don't really want to see the BTWF end just like that. But hey, we can't all have happy endings.

It's been swell working with you.

-Yuri "********" Yurievich

That's the final word.


Actually I lied.

CTC.

Ryan, man, I don't hold the Federation Killer title against ya. Everyone makes mistakes with what they do, and everyone deserves another chance. Talk to me on MSN and I'll elaborate.

I don't know...Throughout this whole thing, two questions have always been in my mind:

1. What the hell happened with people hating my title reign?

When I first got the title at Legacy of Supremacy, and even during the predictions before it, people were constantly saying that I deserved the title, that I'd been here long enough and worked hard enough to earn the title. And, not to sound pompous at all, but I agreed with them. I'd been here since almost the beginning of the BTWF, and despite a few abscences from time to time, I was a reliable writer for Blade. He knew he could trust me, 98% of the time, to have my match done and on that thread the night it was posted. I also have a natural aptitude for writing. I don't play sports, I can't draw for s**t, and my singing's pretty bad. Everybody has at least one talent, writing happens to be mine. And it seemed like most people agreed that I was a pretty good writer (HG even said that my first match was the match of the night on that particular Madness).

But sometime around BloodBath '05 and the second GoE, everybody just started to get disillusioned with my title reign, for whatever reason. It seemed to me, that, without any prior warning, everyone suddenly thought that I was a horrible champion that was never going to drop the title, and was holding down the rest of the roster. I don't know, maybe people had thought that way for a while and just didn't want to say it in public, but it caught me by surprise. I tried to defend myself, using mostly the same things as I said before. I was the champ because I'd worked hard and diligently throughout my stay in the BTWF. I tried to show people that you didn't have to be amazing writers to get anywhere in the BTWF, that as long as you worked hard, you'd be put in good feuds and given title shots/titles. But I guess no one believed me.

So, after the title drop to Tony that Rich and I hoped would catch everyone by surprise and give some people some hope of seeing new blood in the title scene, I left the BTWF. For a while, I thought it was going to be permanent. It wasn't only because I felt that all anyone did was complain and not get their matches done anymore, there were also a lot of personal problems that I needed to take care of around the start of the school year. I also felt burnt out with my writing; it was hard for me to even think up new spots for matches, and I was worried that I wouldn't be able to keep up the same quality of writing that I'd shown before. I got frustrated from that, and the constant blank my mind seemed to be in whenever I tried to write a match kept it from being fun to write anymore. And it also didn't help that people kept mistaking my brother for a mule, but whatever.

It seemed like, around the time I left, everything just collapsed for the BTWF. Blade wasn't sure what he was going to do with the booking, nobody was getting their matches done, the whole place just became stagnant. A few months later, I'd sorted out my personal issues and, after some needed breaks from writing to clear my head and get my creativity flowing again, I decided to come back into the BTWF, right around the time Blade decided to start everything up again with Re:Birth. Things didn't work out, though. People still weren't getting their matches done (not everyone, I know there are still reliable writers to be found here), and it was just killing the BTWF. MXC came around, two matches still weren't done. And it was around this time that Blade and I talked and came to the conclusion that the BTWF was just in too sad of a state to keep going without a long break. That's how Final Chapter came about.

I don't know. It's easy to blame your comic, Ryan, for starting all these bad feelings that came toward me, but is it really what started everything? I don't know.

2. What could any one person have done to help the BTWF?

You talk about Steve in your rant here, saying that he's a coward for leaving to go to the GWA and not doing anything to help the BTWF. For one thing, Steve left for the GWA because he wasn't having fun here anymore, and I almost agree with him. When Re:Birth came around, people still weren't getting their matches done, and even though that really doesn't affect us directly, it's just not fun to see things not come together. Is writing your matches really the bare minimum? What else could one person do? Sure, I could go around and tell everybody "Hey guys, get your matches done." But what is that going to do? My telling somebody to write a match isn't going to make them stop being lazy all of a sudden. I could write their matches for them, but what's that going to do? I can't do it for them every time, I'd kill myself with all the work, and they'd get even more lazy in knowing that somebody else is going to write their matches if they don't.

I was going to stay in the BTWF as long as I could, though I did plan, and still do plan, on heading over to the GWA around the beginning of the year. But that's mainly only because I felt that I had to. That I owed it to Blade for all the work he does as a booker. I knew I was going to have more fun over in GWA, because it would be a fresh, new experience, in a magical land where most matches are written on time and everyone is happy with their place on the card.

And I think that's what makes Steve and I reluctant to bring you into GWA, Ryan. Because up until your comics, BTWF, at least on the surface, did seem like that magical place. And then everybody decided that they were getting held down and were never going to achieve anything, and thus stopped writing. You're a good writer, Ryan, and you're persuasive in your writings. I almost get the feeling that some people were swayed by your comics, even if those may have not been their true opinions. It's like the revolutionary leader who blows problems with a government out of proportion to lead a revolution, only to have that revolution lead to a stagnant government full of tyrants and hypocrites.

But hey, I'm just an egotistical a*****e who was never going to drop the title, ever. And was going to make sure that it never changed hands beyond anyone other than myself, Steve, Keith or BD. What do I know?

Roy, perhaps you know by now that you're another person on the "blacklist" of sorts for GWA. However, if I was faced with the choice between bringing in Ryan or you, I'd immediately go for Ryan. Because he's at least seemed to learn what his overexaggerations and biting cynical wit can do. You, however, have none of that biting cynical wit, as much as you try to make it seem like you do. "Wit", in fact, is practically non-existant in any of your posts, because now, as far as I see, all you do is complain about things in a joking manner. A very unfunny, lame, joking manner.

You're boycotting Final Chapter because you believe that the BTWF can miraculously rise up from the ashes and be a great fed again, but it's quite obvious now that that's not going to happen. I still have doubts as to whether a few matches for Final Chapter are going to be written, and this is the last card that Blade tried to make sure that everyone would be able to do. You were even given a damn title shot on this card, for a title that combines the reigns of some of the best, most dedicated writers in Gaian e-fedding, and you turned it down simply because you don't agree with this decision. So now the BTWF is going to come to an end, and you won't be on the final card. Your last chance to show the appreciation for all the work that everyone has done since the very beginning of this fed, and you're giving it up. Well, I can't change your mind, I suppose.

To put it bluntly, Roy, you're an unfunny idiot. And I'd much rather have Ryan's blunt truth in my fed than your sad, pathetic attempts to be funny via complaining and insults.

Hay look! The guy who happens to be new and knows vary little about BTWf is gona make a long post to the best of his abilities.. and he will talk about what ever he wants.. surprised This is also my chance to fit in with the popular boys with BIG words and loonnnggg posts. smile

First of all.. Ryan's comics. To me they showed me Ryans skill and humor, some stuff about the guild and its members. I will give in and say it made me have starter thoughts on members of the guild but they changed cus I have a mind of my OWN.
I used to use my past in Role Play E feds and gave myself a pitiful look on the situation.

"If you want to damn title WIN the damn title.. then you can all stop agrueing.. unless your not good enough..."

then I realized things went deeper... that the main stream of the guild was not who promoted better but by who Brian thought should win. RE:volution ruined me for the next few main stream matches thinking I had to make Promos. But back to the booker.
At the beginning my Role Play fed past ruined me once more thinking having a person decide your matches was the stunest thing I have ever came across, and that a person should have a go at trying to win the match. But now I know its who deserves the winner spot... did you work hard, are you active, what's your match wrighting skill, so on so on. For Dars to have held the title for so long did not make me angry, annoyed but to have respect for Dars. I also have herd from another star that the titles don't matter and that he turned down a chance to take the title from Dars around a year ago I believe. ((don't quote me on that))
I was filled with reasonable things and had no idea who to side with. But I ended going my own way. Dars deserved the title he had, Ryan had rights to express what he thought, titles for me are the only way to gain respect and to become noticed... even if its just a title placed on you..((figuratively )).
I also knew with my pitiful wrighting skills I wasn't gona make it past FS championship. ((would like to note FS title and WHC title are NOT even.. tell me who the ******** gets the main events... who gets the fame.. YA the WHC people...))

I have gone off topic when it come to the Ryan topic but I WILL SPEAK AS I WISH!!


Next ... Heat.
I don't think he thinks before he speaks but I know a lot of people can relate.... I also ask who befriended me.. a rookie in this guild... when others just looked at him as a guy who will come see, not like, then leave. and I can understand your thoughts but even after I stayed around, was active... I only seemed to get little respect ((is also why I think I need a title to become known and respected among the other side of E fedding... )). Back to the original question who befriended me... yes you all seemed to be my friend.. but not truly.. not in my eyes... you guys never unsalted me as such, but you never really complemented me a whole buch either if you don't get what im saying I don't care im gona answer my question now. HEAT. yes the one that shares his promo ideas with me.. the person I ranted on to talking about things I was pissed off about. The person who is gona be the first one that will use me in a promo with out a match being involved. I laugh at the guy, he sometimes laughs at me... not so much. HE is a friend and guess who I am.. im a roockie with a player that has a weird name.


Guild closing.
Im selfish.. yes I am.. you know what naws on me about this closing? It's that im going out as a MID CARDER... a tag teamer... a jobber for the big guys...

I wont get a chance to prove my worth.. that I can become the next Dars or Big Daddy. I never got to face Heat.. Voorhess.. Dars.. BD... Bryan and Brian... Conners.. Ryan.. I will never even get to job to them..
and it sucks. I may get a match in other feds but not the best damn one to walk the face of gods green Earth! my only hope is that even though I wont be able to wright the match at the final card ((will be VARY busy and is pissed off that maybe a hour a day is the only time I can work on the match...)) that I may win my final match and get that title I oh so want.



yes this is all im gona wright... and even if you don't take my post to hart or only look at my name and skip it by... if you don't agree or that a rookie like me does not understand. I still can get my post out there

Whoa.... the guild is giving the last beats and suddenly the posting returns? why we didnt do this earlier?

(note* no dars, don't laugh, bad joke, i suck..... but anyone else can do it if they feel like to xd )


See Dars, i dont feel like im.. how did you said? boywhat.. well whatever that is.. i just didnt fell like taking part on that Final Chapter stuff, i wasnt here at the beggining and i wont be here at the end, i don't see a problem there, find it ok, not even Rich did such reply, well maybe he did but i never knew.


Ryan, Cral thanks for those words.

I just dont get how me not being there is big deal but oh well.

Bottom Line- Well, i was working on a Xmas Promo, i've been working on it since the beggining of the month and i plan to keep doing it, the post it and that's it,. unfortunately, i started a few weeks before this whole thing occurred and i already did some of the usual stuff on my promos so.. i wont chage it, nobody has to take it personal, is just a guy writting nonenses and having fun.

Heatmas is coming...

You know what, the original heel of the BTWF, Big Daddy, must post his two cents, for that may bring something to this.

Now, first, a different perspective. Let me bring you back to where I believe the fall started. Go back to January '05. Sure, there was Twist, Dar, Maxwell, TT and Hell all working at this point. There was the Civil War match, the Wargames match and the LoS match, but many people seem to forget the fact that I disappeared by this point. Of course, it got worse, when Omega became retired officially. I guess that doesn't make it better that Rocky retired to personal problems. But the fact that Blade was forced to push people playing heels that may not have been ready or turn faces that were not really meant to be heel. That was my reason for the "start" of the fall.

Next, this would probably be the title reign. I actually knew that Dar would be champion by March. In fact, I was supposed to be a champion to allow Dar to beat me and finish the feud, but my untimely exit ruined that. So for people that complained Dar was champ, I find that wrong. I mean, I don't rember people complaining I was the champ, and if there was, people didn't care. So to see people complaing about Dar's reign makes the people of the BTWF prejudice.

*I want to make this point now that I am not here to make enemies, I'm just stating it as I see it.*

I guess the next thing to look at would be the comics. Now, I feel I don't have enough of a history in dealing with this, but I have heard nothing but bad thins on how it 'brings down the roster' and it's too 'political'. But I will say two things about this:

1)I'm not in that inactive roster thing, so that's a relief
2)I have no biased opion about this person and/or product (done in a completely monotone voice)

I also have no opinion on the Heat, but I do have one thing that bigs me about him, which is the final card. I mean, Dar brings up a good point, why do you honestly believe that the fed can still stand? I thought my presence might spark something, but if Dar or Twist can't do that, what makes me any different? The fact you refused to get something you earned (a WHT shot) at our final card, possibly earn the WHT and work with some of the BTWF's best, it just boggles my mind. But I don't wish to insult you, for your thoughts and opinions are valued by myself, and what you do is you're business. I also want to say I would pick you over Ryan if I had power in another fed, because I go by the general census and sorry Ryan, you seem to be causing more s**t than Roy, that's just what I've seen and heard, so no offence.

For Cral, there will be the day we face each other, because I am back and wanting to go, as long as the same thing doesn't happen again.

I also wanted to say that after Dar won the title at LoS and if I stayed, I would have left then, because by DEcember, I was burned out. I was not in the mood to write matches, I had so much to do in so little time and everything was breathing down my neck, including Blade for my matches not being done. I mean, I worked 9 months straight with little to no breaks in between. I was off for a week, then had a promo or match for someone else, or another fed took my time. Many things are to blame, but I'll stop my ranting about this.

Well, that's enough for me, because I got other things to do, and that's all the cents I can add without going overboard.