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I have been talking to them, and it does help. In fact, had I not talked to them, I wouldn't have started to get involved in it again, nor would I have done much more than throw this idea to the wind.

The really crappy part is, right now, it seems like petty, little, stupid things get me really down on religion.

For instance, until the other week, I had been down on religion because I haven't been actively involved in it. Then I went to one of my friends small groups, and that helped more than I thought it would've. Then the following day, I saw some guy holding a sign out of his window, and on the sign it said Jesus. To me, it seemed that this guy was proslythizing (or however it's spelled). And, to be quite honest, it made me truly question whether I wanted to be christian or not. (To be quite frank, I am completely against such attempts at evangilising, I think they do more harm than good - and furthermore, I do not want to be associated with such people.) And then I started to feel up about it again, because I was going to go to church with one of my good friends whose been helping me quite a lot with this; and unfortunately on my way to pick her up, I pretty much totaled my car - and that got me really down on religion (as well as myself).

So, it doesn't really take much to get me thinking about giving it all up; and this kind of bothers me.

God's slave?
I have to agree, that's not exactly a good feel.

I would use the term ' servant'. God doesn't force you to do anything. What you do for Him will be rewarded eventually, just as a servant works and his rewarded by his master. A servant works out of gratitude or because he likes his master; He may leave at any time, just as you left God before.