Welcome to Gaia! ::

So. Back in December I was not really enjoying my relationship with the boyfriend I was with for 11 months. I was too afraid to break up with him because honestly, I am incapable of hurting people's feelings. I care too much.

This boy came along. His name was Nathan Adam. Best friend of my then boss Doug at KB toys. Nathan was coming home for Christmas break. He left me a comment on myspace telling me that I was the most beautiful girl he had ever seen...

He asked me if I wanted to hang out with him sometime over our vacations and I agreed. We would talk on the phone alot...He cared about me and believed I was something special...Nathan coming along...Finally gave me courage to break up with the other boyfriend...Nathan believed in me and told me that I was a strong person...

I took a break from my current boyfriend and hung out with Nathan a few times...He was great. We went on some dates I guess you could call them and we hung out alot at his house...

Less than a week before Christmas...Yes I know, I'm a horrible person...I've been told this...I broke up with boy number one. I felt completely horrible but I knew the relationship was going nowhere...I also could not stand it because I was being told what to do...The boy bought me a cell phone so he knew where I was and what I was doing 24/7...I was not allowed to wear makeup or skirts....I was hating the relationship.

So...I went on hanging out with Nathan...He was awesome. Perfect in every way shape and form. I'm not just saying this...He really was/is. Everything that happened with him was like in the movies...Just worked out perfectly. He was sweet, extremely handsome, and most of all he cared and he showed it.

The day he was leaving back for college in NY he asked me to be his girlfriend. Of course I said yes. This was in January....January 13.

Long distance relationships are what Im used to, I had been in one for a year with the other boy. So it wasn't really hard. Our relationship was awesome, we never faught, and we did our best to keep eachother happy.

When he came back for spring break in March we saw eachother for 12 hours ;D Mom let me skip school. Him cooking for me, us watching movies in eachothers arms, playing LIFE, and cuddling naked in his bed....It was all so perfect. He drew a heart in my window that night when I was pulling out of his driveway. It's still there.

Our three month was on my birthday. That was exciting. We made plans that I would go up to NY for my April vacation.

I went up. Cost me $158 for the train and $20 for the bus. 11 hour ride there, 11 hour ride back. I loved spending time with him in his dorm room. It was great! We went for walks outside late at night. It was really cold and he let me wear his jacket. We sat on park benches and he would put his hand between my thighs to keep his hands warm. We would talk for about an hour or two before walking back to his dorm, pulling eachother up and down a hill and looking at the stars.

*Explicit* Making love with him was....Amazing. Again, so movie like. Everything just went...perfect. */End Explicit*

He got me drunk for the first time on my last night there...Haha, that was interesting...He carried me home and picked me up and but me in his bed at the end of the night.

Next morning I left for home....11 hour ride to Manchester New Hampshire...

Next afternoon...He said he was stressed with everything....Brought me to tears...And we broke up.

Now I'm left all alone.

With nothing.

He wants to be close friends, but I'm such a wreck. I've been turning to Doug alot lately ((His best frined, my ex boss))

If anyone read all of that....please give input.

Poor Pnk... Thats so sweet with the whole you and him thing. How could he do that?
Wow, most guys do suck... -_-'

Hmm... I'm sorry about that Pnk... Guys tend to do that to us girls. -_-' Though, I've never liked a guy that much. Ok ok.. I lie... I have, and I'm not over him. But... we must move on.

And this kid is a jerk for doing that to you. He doesn't deserve you!

He's not a jerk at all though.

I guess our relationship was moving kind of fast...

He said that maybe we'll date again when he gets back from school.

But...rumor has it...That he's been thinking alot about one of his ex-girlfriends. I don't have a problem about that...but I'm feeling kind of used....

Not exactly a ******** and dumped kinda thing....

Just.....

Meh sweatdrop

crying

See, this is bad. Nathan was my dream boy.

arrow Listens to sappy love songs
arrow Quotes hillarious things from TV shows
arrow Final Fantasy/videogame whore
arrow Romantic
arrow EXTREMELY attractive...holy s**t

Plus many other things...In my life at the moment....Only person like that...Is his best friend/my ex boss.....hahah

I would love to be with my ex boss....Just...Mreh.

Thanks babe heart that made me feel kinda better.

Love to you as well!

I hope you find someone new who makes you feel even better than you did when you were with him. Just don't throw away the rest of your life for some boy.

crying cry