Welcome to Gaia! ::

You sound a lot like me. my sister "lives" at home, but she's always out and my brother doesn't cut himself, but he enjoys punching holes in the wall when he's mad/fustrated which isn't as bad as self mutilation but still bad because i can never bring friends over, its too embarressing. Plus, it's just bad to break stuff when you're mad!

my dad once took out 100$ from my account to buy beer and smokes. He paid me back, but it wasn't the point. I know how you feel.

I hated my friends so much I transfered schools, though they don't know that.

The internet became my escape and I got involved with a boy I thought I was in love with. He blocked me and seperated himself from me because "I complained about my life too much" I just needed someone to talk to.

I've always found myself more mature then others, but I realized I sort of was, but not really. It doesn't really matter anymore.

I also know that I may seem ignorant and perhaps vane and it may also seem that I'm acting all wise in this reply when i'm only a year older then you but I'm not, so please don't take it that way. I just want to make sure that I get across that I know EXACTLY how you feel. My parents are completly dense about my life and my siblings lives too.

If you actually want advise, mine is that don't worry, life will improve. You just have to keep on trucking. Focus on your grades and just keep hope up and things will get better. My life has improved since i transfered schools. (note: transferring schools helped me but might not be so helpful to you) I just have a question about your bank account. is it attached to your parents account or do they know your password. I believe you should either seperate your account and/or change your password.

If you need someone to talk to and to b***h about life, I'll be here for you 24/7 and I'm sure everyone else in the guild will be here for you too! Just PM me whenever you're down.