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He was first hit by a car and made it through that,then he had an accident like at school or at work and hit the back of his neck and they did surgery to try and fix it but it didnt help...I'm a manic depressive and I'm on meds and they cause me to go up and down with my moods but I'm very much depressed...I had a friend do a Tarot card reading where he sent a message telling me to not worry that he loves me and he's happy and for me to be at peace... crying

but pirate that can also result in a bad ending too. even though it was ment as a suggestion for the best , it can be twisted.

i would suggest thinking of all the people you hold dear.

I knwo when i've been in rough part of my life and have held an knive to my throat pressing it in to my skin, my mind flasheeed to my best friend and the time we were voicing our opinions on death and all that. He said he'd prolly jsut die withered and lonely if he didnt have me and my other and his other best friend. That and one other thing has kept me from killing my self about 17 times now. It was only half a sentence, it kept me alive but it was only hlf a sentence.

So think about how your best friends would feel. Not to mention your family. HOW badly would they greive? I know its soudsn liek im trying make a comparision of they're saddness and yours, but im not. Theres no one in the world who can match yoru deperession, ther are plenty who 've been there, but they were all on diffrent levels of it. Theres no one level of deperession which hodls you to suicidal acts or counts yu mentally insane.

Just think about what you'd leave behind, think about what you'd be takign away from other by removing yourself from everyones lives. Its a lot to think about it sounds big, but all it comes down to is two words.

What if.


just ask yourself, what if you did, kill yourself or possibly attempt to, failed and in the long run died anyway. How would others feel? How would YOU feel? Would affect those around you? Would affect those around them?


ok, yeah im done lecturing, but jsut remember that the two words, and thoughts of what you'd leave behind, can seriosuly make a diffrence. You might not understand the diffrence when it comes, but you'll work it out, as time goes by. If you need anyhelp. Everyone in this guild woudl be more than welcome to help you, and anyothers. its what its here for.

I'm really truly sorry for your loss.

Whenever I get really low, my best buddy hugs me and goes at length to say how each person dear to me would be affected if I wasn't here. Having someone believe in you and seeing how what you do affects others really helps give you some perspective.

I'm sure all your friends and family want to be there for you, but when someone has suffered such a loss, its often hard for people to think how to relate to them. Try talking to your friends if you are ok talking about it, or your family, letting them know its ok to talk to you about it.

It might help them to help you.