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For those that know me or my story/rantings, you know there is a guy from Alabama (known as "A" from now on) that I have been on and off with online (never met in person, yet). We have been talking as friend for a while now and he has started acting kinda clingy and "friendly". He kept saying we were only friends so I didn;t take it as more than friendly playfulness and so on.

I have been VERY lonely and figured I needed to get off my lazy a** and do something abou tit. Thinking this guy was out of the question I started talking to others. I met a really nice man (known as "B" from now on) from a website. Yes, I know, not a brilliant thing for me to do. What would you have me do? Go to a bar or club? Oh yeah, much better places to meet men... Anyways! We hit it off, his friends really liked me, it was like I had always been part of their group, even his dad and sis liked me! His mom and step-dad think I was just there to, in their words: "smoke pot in his room, steal things, and burn the house down." In that order! I was going to ask if could just sleep in my car in the driveway, but I thought they might think I would maybe break into the house or burn the driveway down, lol!

Well, after my weekend trip/date thing with this guy (he lives 300 miles/5 hour drive away. Hey, atleast he is in the same state, lol!), I told A about it and he got all depressed. He finally told me he had feelings for me again and wanted me... A had been planning on moving in with me within the next year, but I know he won't if I had a bf. I told B about it and he basically said he will not compete, but did really like me and hoped I felt the same.

The problem is that I do feel the same! I really like B, but I also have lingering feelings for A. Part of me wants to be with B just becuase I am lonely now and we seemed to click pretty damn well. I mean we clicked so well, people knew as gf/bf by the morning of the next day even though nothing is offical. Part of me wants to give A a chance as well becuase I have history with him.

Now, I'm not asking for who I should be with or anything like that. If you wish to voice that opinion then go ahead. What I am asking is how to handle this. I guess not "who" to choose, but "how" to choose, if it comes to that. Should I wait it out? Just go for B anyways? Wait to atleast meet B? What then? I feel trapped and basically in a hard place. B can't wait for me to visit again. We are still not "offical" or anything like that. It's still only dating. I know enough to keep it that way until I figure it out on my own.

I know I have to figre it out on my own in the end, I still would like input though or maybe just to hear stories of simular situations.

Wait it out.
Holy ******** mother of god, wait.it.out.

Sorry <.<;
Was in a similar situation before

From experience... This kinda s**t can blow up in your face at unimaginable magnitudes if handled inproperly.

Just wait, figure out on your own which one you really want ot be with most. And hopefully, get over the other guy first too.

I wasn't involved with either of the two above, I say wait it out for now, too.

UPDATE:

Well...B left me several offline messages basically pouring out his feeling to me. It gave me the courage to tell him about a praticual problem I have that is very difficult to talk about. After telling him...He decided to "just be friends"...I spent the day pretty much just floating around work, being all emo and mopey, and cried a bit. So, I guess what he said only applies to completely normal human beings that don't have any problems whatsoever...*le sigh* Oh well...

The one thing that kept me mostly depressed all day was the doomy sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach that this situation lead me one step closer to being alone for a long time becuase of my problem....I have loast friends and bf's in the past becuase of it. Even some of my own family shuns me for it...

So, yeah, I guess the topic is resolved...