After hearing his brother talk about what he considered doing in his life, it really had Kobe thinking what the future could hold for him. Right now, he felt like everyone was leaving him behind and that he was always five steps everyone. Keegan and Tobias seemed very much in love which hurt so bad. He loved Keegan ever since they were freshlings but Tobias had taken his heart first.. He was too shy and too slow to realize it. As much as it hurt, he was still happy for them. Even Crispin had someone he was in love with. Always five steps behind.

Kobe looked up to the sky as he laid on the garden bench. His senior year was approaching and he had no idea what he wanted to do with his life. He had thought of trying to being a medic or something but there was no way that would ever turn out well for him. He was a failure. He barely had friends and his pack were always so involved in their own lives but he didn’t blame them, it was his fault for not trying harder. With his grades mediocre, it was unlikely he’d ever get into the university he wanted anyways.

The snow colored grimm, closed his eyes. He wanted to tell Keegan that he was in love with him but then it would be weird, right? Tears brimmed his eyes. Maybe he should just leave the pack… leave this area and just get away from everyone; they’d be happier… better without him anyways. Maybe it would hurt less too. He put an arm over his face, ashamed in himself for being so negative. For not being the happy shy grimm that everyone expected him to be.