cry
I'm just sad right now.
I'm never gonna have romance or dates or a guy or...any of that in my life.
bc i'm disabled. I can't get out of the house, and I can't pay. I'm not gonna have kids either. That one is my choice though.
I am gonna have friends and sex and fun and silliness, but...no dates and no real romance for me.
I'm beautiful for sure. But I don't leave the house.
If a guy is interested in me, he's gonna have to deal with the crap that comes with disabilities, and 20-30 fierce bodyguards, grilling multiple times, and he's gonna have to do all the driving and paying.
If I can find a guy who is able to put up with all that....
I'm literally a princess. Not spoiled, but ...cared for in that way. everything's done for me. ..............
most guys wanna be dad's at my age. or just want sex. I don't want kids. and sex...is doable, but i'm really not interested.
and the guy is gonna have a job to support him...and me a little bit...so free time is a no.
Then my emotional range is crazy, I can't go into a James Bond film, the 5th Harry Potter movie and book is the limit of my understanding level..............my sleep schedule is terrible, I can't remember to eat or shower. and i'm into all sorts of crafts and wanna do the whole...going off on romantic weekends and camping part. have expensive taste too....
I want surprises and dates and trips. those take money. and I can't contribute.
I'm forced to be a 40's housewife. Can't even leave the house. How am I supposed to meet a person? and when I do leave, it's always with someone. Not a bad thing, but what guy is gonna want a girl who's hovered over?