Blowing out the flame on the tinder, she lifted the curtain to the front bedroom window and looked out onto the yard of her house.
Darkness and silence.
Shenra sighed and lowered the curtain and went out of the room taking her candle with her. The lamp would burn for as long as she needed it to burn. She had promised to wait for him, for the flame that had lighted in her heart.
Shenra placed her free hand on her chest and grasped at it. She had heartache before, promised to never let anyone in again, but since moving out of the city and into the country, person after person had broken down the walls she had placed around her heart. The largest and thickest had been the inner wall, the one she was sure had been erected with the strongest materials, and boosted with the strongest of wills, and yet it had been breached long after he had left.
Perhaps it had been breached when she had meet him.
Shenra sighed again and looked up.
The one Oblivionite Seren seemed to love, the one that had won an Orderite's heart.
The tears seemed to come again as Rae's smiling face in her memories surfaced. Shenra sniffed and let go of her chest to wipe at the flickers of tears that threatened to fall. She remembered the day he left, one she would never forget. She railed and screamed in the days that followed, ones spent trying to loose herself in work, not eating for days, Avani coming to find her fainted on the workhouse floor....
But that had been what seemed a lifetime ago, correspondence with his family was sparse with news, but something that kept Shenra going, something to look forward too. At least there was no news as to his death yet.
Shenra shook her head. No use dwelling on the negative.
Shenra walked down the narrow stairs and into the kitchen to eat a late supper. She would take a bath and then go to sleep. No use but to go on, day by day till she got word of Rae's return.
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Shenra laid in her bed and looked up at the ceiling. The agony of waiting was taking it's toal on her. She turned her head and looked at the pile of letters from Rae's family.
Perhaps... If it took so long for news, she should just go to the source?
Shenra's eyes widened at the seemingly random thought.
She had no commissions, she had the funds, she had the transport... Avani, bless her, if she could, watch over the house.
Shenra turned her head back to look at he ceiling.
It was doable.